Sunday, May 26, 2013

i really like Pokemon

song+ the Phoenix- Fall Out Boy- Save Rock and Roll
book+ my Pokemon heartgold guide
quest+ basic productivity really
upper+ i absolutely loved season 1 of Elementary
downer+ waiting on season two, or the Doctor Who 50th anniversary
attire+ starry pajamas and a pink tank
drink+ ginger ale

this week was slow, until it suddenly wasn't. i waited for Kyu and we did the S7 Who finale Monday evening, then Tuesday and Wednesday i got through all of Elementary. i'm sad now that there's not more to watch, but i'm also nowhere near ready to watch it all again. xD

this week i have to do some volunteer seamstress work for Kyu's A-Kon costume, which is for next weekend. it's minor tweaks really, just a few of them, and he didn't have all the supplies on hand to do them until today, so for once it's not my procrastination holding a costume up.

the rest of my week was spent reading, or playing P4, then as my attention wavered Pokemon HeartGold, Pearl, then HeartGold again. i really wanna be playing the third gen (Ruby Sapphire and Emerald) but i don't have copies of them that work. Kyu and i did talk about how awesome it'd be if they got DS remakes too, since there's nothing currently supported that lets you play GBA games anymore. i have a DS with a GBA port, but a full rerelease would be amazing. Kyu wants the originals in DS format, FireRed and LeafGreen were great, but still GBA games which is a dead format at this point.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

i'm terrible at waiting, i think everyone knows this

song+ the Harold Song- Kesha- Deconstructed
book+ my P4 guides
quest+ basic productivity really
upper+ i'm ready to try out season 1 of Elementary
downer+ still waiting on the downloads of ep11 and ep12 to finish
attire+ stripey boxers and a green tank
drink+ kiwi-strawberry Snapple

this week was a good one. i dunno what made it so good, but with the exception of a HUGE allergy flareup, everything went pretty well. like i don't really have anything obvious to show off and say "look at me acting like a grownup!" but baby steps, and i can see small changes happening.

i'm feeling a familiar impatient itchiness, but i at least recognize the source this time. since the first season's aired, i'm about to start watching Elementary, but i'm still waiting for two of the episodes to finish downloading. i prefer to just run through all at once, so i still have to wait for a while. i'm also waiting on Kyu so we can watch yesterday's episode (the S7 finale) of Doctor Who. he's at Dallas ComicCon this weekend (getting paid to help run the buy table), and Muffin had a bad weekend at the ren faire (she's a cast member) so she'll probably be over here tonight for feel better snuggles and accordingly, the DW watch has been pushed to tomorrow night. i'm okay with it (i actually suggested it), but i'm also trying really hard to avoid the next-day spoilers i KNOW are all over the internet. i'm okay with giving them decompression time this weekend though as i'm fond of them both and they're both dealing with a full week of work, a weekend of MORE work, and back to the grindstone for another week of work come Monday morning.

i spent lost of yesterday waiting out my downloads (and avoiding my usual online routine so i wouldn't spoil the DW finale) by playing Persona 4, which i'm really enjoying. it's a fantastic game, and my only issue is that i'm a completionist, and my neuroses have me repeatedly running through the same levels of a completed dungeon waiting for the rare monsters to spawn, then when they do, cursing them for not dropping the loot i need from them. i want everything, and i play most of my games against carefully constructed checklists so i can get everything as efficiently as possible. trying to get 3 monsters (that only spawn in one dungeon, exclusively on rainy days, confined to specific floors, at specific rates) to drop their items took me from about 11:30 to 2am before i decided to go to bed since i hadn't had any luck. i can only hope they feel more generous today.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

rambly thoughts

song+ Rusty Halo- the Script
book+ Witness- Nora Roberts
quest+ cleaning up my room so i can walk from one end to the other
upper+ i've been in a doing-things mood
downer+ finishing anything is still hit and miss with the worse than usual attention span
attire+ starry pajama pants and a navy tank
drink+ water

i feel frustrated and anxious in an itchy kinda way. like there's something that i really wanna be doing, but i can't figure out what it is? i dunno.

i'm thinking about taking time this week to go through my room and decide on things i could get rid of without feeling regret. maybe finally putting most of my clothes in my closet, which is honestly mostly being used for storage purposes presently. i wanna go through all my stuff and find wardrobe bits that have been forgotten or lost, i wanna organize and re-purpose what i can and actually wear the rest. i tend to wear the same few things over and over because they're all i can ever find, but i know i own way more, so i wanna find it all and integrate it to the stuff i wear. i know i own a TON of tee shirts, some of which can't be worn anymore, so i wanna look into craft projects to utilize the ones with designs i still love so i can look at them still. maybe i'll end up with a bunch of nerdy throw pillows, who knows?

i spent a few hours this morning looking at sewing tutorials for patternless skirts and the like, and i'd go for some of them, but i only know where my doll sewing fabric is. anything i'd bought for people-scaled projects was put somewhere else at some point and i still haven't found it. like i bought a really cool black and red textured cloth to sew a coat for myself, and never got around to doing anything with it. it's too heavy for doll sewing, and i know i still own it SOMEWHERE but i have no idea where it ended up. i still wanna make a coat out of it at some point, one with bright red buttons and lining i think. i like red as a winter color, it adds visual warmth. i can see it though: black and red half-trench coat with bright red buttons and a fluffy white scarf to offset the dark. i'll get to it eventually.

i have patterns i bought for various things where i bought the fabric at the same time and got distracted before i ever used it, and i know where my patterns are, but the fabric is all in hiding somewhere. when i find it though, you can bet my wardrobe will finally get those intended boosts. mostly skirts and dresses, but i like those, so it makes sense.

i guess at this point my plan isn't to look for that stuff, it's to clear out enough that i can (hopefully) rotate my bed and move my comics-bookcase so there's room to walk to my closet so i can actually use it. right now stuff blocks me from opening the door to it properly. organization wasn't really a priority when Kyu and i were moving our stuff into separate rooms, but now i'd like to do more than just sleep in my room. i'm in the process of moving my painting stuff down to the living room, and stashing my sewing things in the hall closet near the chest of drawers i keep my doll sewing fabrics organized in. when it's not plugged in my sewing machine lives in that closet already, so shifting the rest there makes sense. once that's out of my room i'll (i think) be able to shift things for better layout and i can get to the closets to go through them and see what i even have hiding away from me.

it's not something i expect to get done in a day. even aiming for the end of this week is pretty optimistic, because seriously me attention span's been terrible lately. it honestly took me close to two hours to draft this because i kept getting sidetracked. ugh. i'm trying though, that's what counts.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

sewing stumble

song+ Up In the Air- Thirty Seconds to Mars
book+ nothing presently (too hard to focus on words)
quest+ more doll sewing
upper+ my sewing machine is being super cooperative
downer+ things i can't find the words for
attire+ green satin pajama set
drink+ milk

i meant to post sunday, but we were at grandpa's so i didn't have access to anything internet-y and i worked on other things instead.

i have most of a design for a burlesque pinup Poison Ivy drawn out, and i'm pondering how to do a similar Harley Quinn since she's not really the vampy type. it's a pleasant challenge, though the closest i've managed is a 5os type jukebox girl design i didn't bother finishing.

Kyu and i have been keeping up with (and very much enjoying) this season of New Who, and he's also working on a solo project, watching every vampire movie he's ever heard of, which includes the last 3 Twilight movies since he'd only managed the first two before he quit last time. watching him watch Twilight has been hugely entertaining honestly. it's been great since he's really into vampire things, so he finds them offensive basically on a personal level and he pretty much has a comment on every scene. honestly though some of the commentary is less on vampires or werewolves and more on mistreatment of women and how Edward and Jacob represent a woman thinking she can never do better than an abusive douche nozzle of a boyfriend. there's been extensive discussion of the both of them treating her as little more than a shiny toy with bragging rights, emotional manipulation and physical intimidation run rampant in both scenarios really.

today i'm kinda bummed because the dress i spent a good chunk of yesterday sewing took a wrong turn somewhere and i think i hate it and wanna walk away and start something new.. i feel bad about the wasted material though, so maybe i'll just rip some seams and see if it's still salvageable. while i resolutely don't think about it though i think i'll work on something else.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

yep, i missed April

song+ State of Grace- Taylor Swift- Red
book+ nothing presently (too hard to focus on words)
quest+ processing and communicating complete thoughts to other people
upper+ moderate success in my sewing endeavors
downer+ having such trouble with words
attire+ green satin pajama set
drink+ milk

i know i skipped April, and i'm a bit late on May too, but i'm trying again.

my head's been in a weird place lately where it's been hard to process thoughts i'm capable of expressing to other people.. unless you follow me on pinterest where i've been unusually active, pinning awesome clothes mostly. i've been trying to create, and doll clohes are where i've had the most success, though neither finished product so far has actually turned out how i was thinking i wanted it to. the first is needlessly complicated to put on, and the second ended up with a wonky neckline. i've been draping and pinning then hand sewing instead of working with patterns on a machine and that always leaves me with an end product different from my initial vision.

i'm just super frustrated with my recent inability to articulate much of anything properly. i suppose the only thing to be done is to keep trying.