i've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match

song+ What A Catch, Donnie -Fall Out Boy -Infinity On High
book+ nothing
quest+ clearing out my collected Warhammer junk
upper+ i've got most of it assembled
downer+ very little is painted
attire+ tights, jean shorts, and a black shirt
drink+ water

the box of books made it to Half-Price Books on Tuesday, thanks to mom. my comics made it to Lone Star on Thursday and my payment should be ready Monday at some point.

i spent a good chunk of my day yesterday going through my huge bucket of cast aside Warhammer pieces and assembling them. i ran out of table space before i could finish so the next step is to get my smaller collection (the Dark Elves) painted so i can put them away and finish assembling the larger collection (my Tomb Kings). fully assembled i'll know what i actually have so i can tell a friend and he can list it for sale. painted i'll get more for it. so assembling and painting are my to-do list for the foreseeable future.

i did manage to make it back up to Wild West to take pictures of the plush i made for Kim (since it was still there and i completely forgot to last week) so here's mugshots of her Bulbasaur. she's happy with it, so i am too. but yeah, this is what i did last Sunday. today's just a journal and music day.

it's not the hand you've got but how you play it

song+ Password -Kylie Minogue -Light Years
book+ nothing
quest+ finishing more half-done projects
upper+ had a great holiday weekend
downer+ slight allergic reaction
attire+ black tights, khaki shorts, and a teal/brown sheer blouse over a black tank
drink+ water

the fourth was great, Kyu got to do the cookout that fell apart last year, he really likes cooking for people but doesn't get many chances really. the day after was the quilt class, at which i did kinda ingest some kind of nut, but thanks to a drink to flush it out and plenty of sleep last night i feel mostly fine today. i'm a little achey, but nowhere near incapacitated by violent sickness which is my standard reaction to most nuts. the worst thing yesterday in the think of it was cottonmouth and all-over itchiness, so i'm gonna guess it was walnut, which is my mildest nut allergy.

anyhow, today being Sunday, we're about to head up to Wild West for game day. i've packed the stuff to (hopefully) get a pokemon plush finished for an employee that's leaving later this month.her last day is the 25th, but since i'm working on clearing out incomplete projects anyway it really makes sense to push this one to the head of the queue.

i did get all the single issue comics i spent days organizing listed for sale, and i gathered another box that'll head to Half-Price Books in the next week or so. it feels good actually making so much visible progress through the goals i've set for myself, mostly because so many of my recent goals have been intangible things. mostly related to mental/emotional recovery. talking to strangers, maintaining eye contact, getting out of bed and going to sleep on a regular schedule. those aren't things i can slap a gold star on for other people to see and congratulate my progress, you know? xD

in my heart little stars

song+ Cue the Rain -Lea Michele -Louder
book+ P4 guides
quest+ finishing several half-done projects
upper+ success so far with normal-people sleep patterns
downer+ i am like ridiculously broke
attire+ bights, shorts, and a purple tank
drink+ strawberry soda

this week Kyu and i tried something new. because i hate my alarm with a passionate psychotic rage, frequently i crawl back in bed out of spite after shutting it off. i do not share those ragey feelings for Kyu, so this week he's woken me up before leaving for work, and i've been going to bed around midnight to facilitate this. it's working very well so far.

in any event, my plans for today are to finish this post then gather my brushes plus blues, greens, purples and a yellow so i can paint a galaxy for dad while Kyu does his gaming. i promised it to him some time ago, but i see him so rarely it didn't seem high priority. i should be seeing him tomorrow though, so i should get it done. while my monthly meetup with Michelle is generally for food, this month she's talking me to see dad instead.

done. yay.

song+ When the Day Met the Night -Panic! At the Disco -Pretty. Odd.
book+ DQ9 guides
quest+ (further) cleaning the apartment
upper+ tons of creative ideas
downer+ no money to follow through
attire+ brown sundress
drink+ Dr Pepper

this last week has been spent in a haze of cleaning products and exhaustive labor. Monday we got notice that Tuesday we'd be getting fitted for new outlets in our kitchen. apparently our apartment offended the electricians, because they reported a mess of lies (mostly about our "violent and aggressive" dog and an apocalyptic roach problem) that had the site manager walking through giving us ultimatums. basically this Monday he's walking through again and if he's unhappy we're out, and also Friday we had to let the bug guy in to spray and clear out our "infestation" which we don't have. we had visible signs there had been a BAD bug problem in the past, but not for more than a year really.

when the bug guy came through and did his thing he asked follow up questions about past bug trouble, and he mentioned that there really weren't any bugs to be seen, even with the "flusher", which i assume is something that draws them into the open. really though we're pretty much done now. Kyu still needs to clean his room, but the amount of progress made this week is astounding.

i may be helping Kyu in his room tonight, but if i am it's likely to be something like folding the piles of laundry he's sorted and manning the trash bag. we'll see how it goes, but there's been enough progress that he feels justified being part of game day, so we'll be heading up for that in a minute.

eurgh

song+ When the Day Met the Night -Panic! At the Disco -Pretty. Odd.
book+ DQ9 guides
quest+ (further) cleaning the apartment
upper+ tons of creative ideas
downer+ no money to follow through
attire+ brown sundress
drink+ Dr Pepper

i hate being sick. i stayed home today to try and sleep it off and it just figures, Kyu tells me James showed up for game day (first time in a month) AND he brought Becky. i'm sure i missed all kinds of entertaining conversation today keeping my germs at home. *sigh*

i've made it through season three of Psych, then i hit a mood where i just had to stop. i was enjoying it, but i knew if i wanted to keep enjoying it i needed a break, so i restarted my spare DQ9 cart. it's been interesting trying to figure out how much i can still do since a bulk of the post game was unlocked via wifi and Nintendo dropped support of that entirely last month. i've heard i can unlock the stuff by tagging my more complete cart via local wireless, which means i could probably pass Bonnie my good dungeon maps the same way. we talked about getting together to play months ago and it just hasn't happened yet. i suppose the first step is figuring out just how much of the co-op can be played via local wireless and not Nintendo wifi.

really (aside from the being sick thing) i'm feeling restless, like i wanna be CREATING something, but there's no space or material, or time since the cleaning thing is priority. really though i just wanna paint, and i wanna sew, and i wanna try my hand at recreating some of my favorite DQ equipment at doll-scale (even if i haven't 100% decided which scale). my initial idea was the slightly smaller than 45cm doll line i wanna (eventually) get the three characters i haven't-been-writing for the last 6 years in: Iplehouse's KID line (35cm tall). it's kinda a niche size, but the gender discrepancy would be negligible so most anything i made could be worn by either gender. if i go with that choice it'll be quite some time before i can follow through since i don't own anyone that scale. my other idea is crafting for my MH/EAH dolls. i have plenty of models already, and plans to get more once i can afford them. i know it's a fanbase that likes custom content, the downside here is that there's a DEFINITE difference in body types and i don't own all the options i'd wanna cover. MH has three female bodies and a male, EAH has three lady heights, the torso and arms on all are the same (the difference is entirely in the legs) and their male body is markedly different than the monster counterpart. i suppose choosing either way has to wait anyway, until i can afford materials to work with, much less more models to show off the items.

um yeah

song+ Don't Let Go -Lea Michele -Louder
book+ nothing
quest+ cleaning the apartment
upper+ borrowed the beginning of Psych from Jenni
downer+ uh being left alone for the weekend is always odd
attire+ black tank, skirt and rainbow-trimmed tutu
drink+ Sobe strawberry daiquiri

i'm nearly done with the first season of Psych, i borrowed the first two from Jenni yesterday when we met up to head to Carrolton for the quilt class. i'll likely finish the last disc tonight after game day. even though Kyu is at A-kon this weekend i'll still be heading up the game store to see James in a while.

i feel like i should have more to talk about lately, but i've been watching things and cleaning and very little else, which doesn't make for very interesting reading material.

kinda listless

song+ Run Dry (X heart X Fingers) -Patrick Stump -Soul Punk
book+ nothing
quest+ cleaning the apartment
upper+ ideas for painting
downer+ nothing i wanna watch
attire+ pirate boots and a brown sundress
drink+ root beer

i'm kinda still in that post pop culture binge fugue state. you know, when you pay way too much attention to just one thing, so when you're done all you can think is "what now?" i really enjoyed OUAT, so i'm actually considering a re-watch as i'm sure i'll enjoy different aspects on re-watching it, i just don't think i want to re-watch it YET.

it just so happens that i recently binged on pretty much every form of entertainment i'm into, so i don't know where to focus. like i've played insane amounts of Pokemon in the last months, and before that i was binging Dragon Quest, and before that the harder-to-play Final Fantasies. really i think i just need to finish cleaning so i can set up my easel and paint my way through some of the music i've built up and never listened to. i have been wanting to do something visually creative lately.

really i could work on the Pokemon plushes i've drafted some patterns for, but that's gonna be a bit more fiddly than i'm prepared to deal with just now. i want something relaxing and easy.