song+ She Will Be Loved -Maroon5 -Songs About Jane
book+ nothing?
quest+ finishing Muffin's gift
upper+ my thumb is feeling much better
downer+ rabid insomnia
attire+ leggings, a denim skirt, and a Flash Hoodie
drink+ Dr Pepper
so my thumb still isn't healed yet, but the swelling is much less intense, and i can nearly bend it normally again. i've reached the point i can gently stretch it before i re-tape it, which i definitely couldn't do this time last week.
the last few days i've been unable to sleep at all, which has sucked, but it's something i'm (sadly) used to so i've coped okay. i'm hoping to pass out soon since i've been up nearly two days at this point, but i wanted to get a post up before trying for that.
Sunday, December 6, 2015
7 day Q&A: day7
61. How do you drink your coffee or tea?
i don't. i do drink cocoa though, in many different varieties, most of which could be classified as "a sugar coma in a cup," which was Kyu's verdict on one variety in high school. pumpkin, mint, vanilla, or overloaded with marshmallows, i love them all.
62. What makes you smile every time?
puns, i love terrible jokes. certain game franchises, like Zelda, Dragon Quest, and most Mario games. desserts, Italian food.
63. Do you like people coming up to you for help?
sometimes? it depends on my comfort level with the person. i like having my expertise appreciated, but i won't be taken advantage of or used.
64. Are you comfortable talking about sex?
yes. it's never been an awkward subject for me. whether in regard to myself or someone else, i'm aware that it's a thing that happens and different people like it different ways, like so many other things in life.
65. Are you open to new things?
yes, but cautiously. between my anxiety and my allergies i've learned caution can prevent lost time and money. i obsess easily, so i pretty much always over-research before i undertake anything new.
66. Post four selfies (or pictures) that you originally took to your friends.
i don't do selfies, my rampant narcissism dislikes being confronted by reality. i do idealized self portraits?
67. Are there any movie scenes that make you cry every time?
no, very little makes me cry, i'm that soulless monster that's always dry-eyed at movies.
68. Do you have friends you consider as family?
yes. that's the only kind of friend i manage, the kind that are family by choice.
69. Are you a morning person?
ha! no. i'm a night owl. mornings are a terror that should only happen to other people.
70. Heavy or light sleeper?
both. when i'm depressed i sleep like the dead. when i'm manic i have trouble sleeping at all and a kitten sneeze a block away could wake me.
i don't. i do drink cocoa though, in many different varieties, most of which could be classified as "a sugar coma in a cup," which was Kyu's verdict on one variety in high school. pumpkin, mint, vanilla, or overloaded with marshmallows, i love them all.
62. What makes you smile every time?
puns, i love terrible jokes. certain game franchises, like Zelda, Dragon Quest, and most Mario games. desserts, Italian food.
63. Do you like people coming up to you for help?
sometimes? it depends on my comfort level with the person. i like having my expertise appreciated, but i won't be taken advantage of or used.
64. Are you comfortable talking about sex?
yes. it's never been an awkward subject for me. whether in regard to myself or someone else, i'm aware that it's a thing that happens and different people like it different ways, like so many other things in life.
65. Are you open to new things?
yes, but cautiously. between my anxiety and my allergies i've learned caution can prevent lost time and money. i obsess easily, so i pretty much always over-research before i undertake anything new.
66. Post four selfies (or pictures) that you originally took to your friends.
i don't do selfies, my rampant narcissism dislikes being confronted by reality. i do idealized self portraits?
67. Are there any movie scenes that make you cry every time?
no, very little makes me cry, i'm that soulless monster that's always dry-eyed at movies.
68. Do you have friends you consider as family?
yes. that's the only kind of friend i manage, the kind that are family by choice.
69. Are you a morning person?
ha! no. i'm a night owl. mornings are a terror that should only happen to other people.
70. Heavy or light sleeper?
both. when i'm depressed i sleep like the dead. when i'm manic i have trouble sleeping at all and a kitten sneeze a block away could wake me.
Saturday, December 5, 2015
7 day Q&A: day6
51. Do you believe in angels?
yes, but not the pop culture beauties with bird wings.
52. Explain your url.
it's an old nickname? it was something i figured i'd remember. high school kids poorly translating things into languages they don't speak.
53. Order or chaos?
order. OCD means chaos gets me twitchy.
54. Black or white?
color. as a backdrop to art, white. as a wardrobe staple, black. in any other choice grey, and color wherever possible.
55. Is there a one that got away?
not really? if i'd made different choices and pursued other paths, i wouldn't be me now.
56. Are birds cute or annoying?
annoying. flying things in general freak me out. it's the unpredictability factor.
57. Does the other sex make you nervous?
no more than my own does. people in general make me nervous, and being bi, attraction can happen with anyone, causing additional nerves.
58. Past, present or future?
present. i can't change the past and the future often leaves me panicky.
59. Do you care about the big picture or your close territory?
i tend to focus on details hoping that gets me to the bigger picture in time.
60. Cute or sexy?
this is a vague question. overall i'm more excited by cute things, sexy can be so subjective that it's sometimes more off-putting.
yes, but not the pop culture beauties with bird wings.
52. Explain your url.
it's an old nickname? it was something i figured i'd remember. high school kids poorly translating things into languages they don't speak.
53. Order or chaos?
order. OCD means chaos gets me twitchy.
54. Black or white?
color. as a backdrop to art, white. as a wardrobe staple, black. in any other choice grey, and color wherever possible.
55. Is there a one that got away?
not really? if i'd made different choices and pursued other paths, i wouldn't be me now.
56. Are birds cute or annoying?
annoying. flying things in general freak me out. it's the unpredictability factor.
57. Does the other sex make you nervous?
no more than my own does. people in general make me nervous, and being bi, attraction can happen with anyone, causing additional nerves.
58. Past, present or future?
present. i can't change the past and the future often leaves me panicky.
59. Do you care about the big picture or your close territory?
i tend to focus on details hoping that gets me to the bigger picture in time.
60. Cute or sexy?
this is a vague question. overall i'm more excited by cute things, sexy can be so subjective that it's sometimes more off-putting.
Friday, December 4, 2015
7 day Q&A: day5
41. Is small talk easy for you?
no. if i'm comfortable enough to really talk with someone, it's likely to be about things that matter,
42. Do you get along with classmates?
i haven't been in school for a long time, but i did well enough then. like we weren't super close, but things were generally cordial.
43. Best beauty tips?
do what makes you happy? if you feel uncomfortable, you don't usually look very good.
44. What ordinary things make you happy on a daily basis?
milk. puns, cute clothes, seeing things i've made or customized.
45. Are you creative?
i like to think so. i've been called as much by plenty, and i love doing crafty things, so yeah?
46. Name three things you look for in a partner.
..i don't really? i haven't dated much, but there was very little overlap among those people. and that overlap was mostly coincidence and not things i really care about?
47. Skirts or jeans?
skirts. i've never really been a fan of pants.
48. Do you fancy rompers?
not for myself no. i think they're cute on kids, and on some dolls and tiny skinny people.
49. Define your style in a few words: clothing style, talking style, dream house.
eclectic, colorful. i like a little of almost every style, so to some people my likes are just a huge mess.
50. Does practice make it perfect?
no, perfection is unattainable, but practice means improvement.
no. if i'm comfortable enough to really talk with someone, it's likely to be about things that matter,
42. Do you get along with classmates?
i haven't been in school for a long time, but i did well enough then. like we weren't super close, but things were generally cordial.
43. Best beauty tips?
do what makes you happy? if you feel uncomfortable, you don't usually look very good.
44. What ordinary things make you happy on a daily basis?
milk. puns, cute clothes, seeing things i've made or customized.
45. Are you creative?
i like to think so. i've been called as much by plenty, and i love doing crafty things, so yeah?
46. Name three things you look for in a partner.
..i don't really? i haven't dated much, but there was very little overlap among those people. and that overlap was mostly coincidence and not things i really care about?
47. Skirts or jeans?
skirts. i've never really been a fan of pants.
48. Do you fancy rompers?
not for myself no. i think they're cute on kids, and on some dolls and tiny skinny people.
49. Define your style in a few words: clothing style, talking style, dream house.
eclectic, colorful. i like a little of almost every style, so to some people my likes are just a huge mess.
50. Does practice make it perfect?
no, perfection is unattainable, but practice means improvement.
Thursday, December 3, 2015
7 day Q&A: day4
31. Believe in love at first sight?
yes, but not the fairy-tale kind. that takes additional effort.
32. Link a song that you liked five years ago.
ah.. (Give A Little) i think this song was out then? if not i'm not too far off.
33. Link a song that you liked ten years ago.
this is hard. (Two Hearts) i'm really not good with time. i may be thinking of an album from a different year entirely.
34. Have you changed a lot in the last two years?
i hope so? i've been working hard to improve myself.
35. Favorite fruit?
probably strawberry, though i'm also fond of pineapple and kiwi.
36. Do you say things just because people want to hear them?
no, i'm probably more honest than most people would prefer.
37. Do your friends get you?
as much as they can. they all try, and that matters more to me, that they care enough to try.
38. What are you the most proud of?
um, like ever? or currently? i'm currently pleased with my progress on Muffin's Christmas gift. ever, i'm proud of how well i've kept developing my artistic skills.
39. What disney character do you emotionally relate to?
Belle? wanting more, loving books, feeling trapped by tedium.
40. Who is your favorite hero/ine?
Wonder Woman. so many awesome stories to choose from.
yes, but not the fairy-tale kind. that takes additional effort.
32. Link a song that you liked five years ago.
ah.. (Give A Little) i think this song was out then? if not i'm not too far off.
33. Link a song that you liked ten years ago.
this is hard. (Two Hearts) i'm really not good with time. i may be thinking of an album from a different year entirely.
34. Have you changed a lot in the last two years?
i hope so? i've been working hard to improve myself.
35. Favorite fruit?
probably strawberry, though i'm also fond of pineapple and kiwi.
36. Do you say things just because people want to hear them?
no, i'm probably more honest than most people would prefer.
37. Do your friends get you?
as much as they can. they all try, and that matters more to me, that they care enough to try.
38. What are you the most proud of?
um, like ever? or currently? i'm currently pleased with my progress on Muffin's Christmas gift. ever, i'm proud of how well i've kept developing my artistic skills.
39. What disney character do you emotionally relate to?
Belle? wanting more, loving books, feeling trapped by tedium.
40. Who is your favorite hero/ine?
Wonder Woman. so many awesome stories to choose from.
Wednesday, December 2, 2015
7 day Q&A: day3
21. No sleeping or no eating for a week? (don’t worry you would stay alive, you’d just suffer. so basically: staying hungry or tired?)
no sleeping. thanks to mania i know i handle it okay, but not eating makes me grumpy.
22. Do you think you’re better than your peers?
at some things, yes. at others i feel like a complete failure, so it probably levels out to feeling average?
23. Do you feel comfortable at social gatherings?
oh hell no. i do my best, but there's inevitably awkwardness at some point, even just around people i know and love.
24. Are you hard to impress?
kinda, yeah. i know some very impressive people, and that sets the bar pretty high for new encounters.
25. What is the most physically appealing thing in the sex you're attracted to?
i'm a sucker for defined calf muscles. also dark-haired, scruffy-faced, blue-eyed guys, which i never realized was my type until i analyzed my TV crushes.
26. What is the most mentally appealing thing in the sex you're attracted to?
for either gender i like knowing my opinion will be respected. both sexes are capable of steamrolling their partners and trivializing concerns. that's not cool.
27. What do you think about one night stands?
i don't judge if someone prefers to operate that way, but it's not for me. i'd need a level of trust that can't be built in one day.
28. What position do you sleep in?
i don't. i roll over constantly. i described it to mom as "sleeping like a rotisserie chicken" which is pretty accurate.
29. Are you a dreamer? Are you motivated enough to achieve your goals?
yes, and no. failure is my most enduring fear. fear of failing has often made it difficult to act at all. when i do manage something it feels good, but it's always harder than can be seen.
30. What is the weirdest thing in your room?
ah.. probably the shoe box full of decapitated fashion dolls. (it's more fun if i don't explain, i think.)
no sleeping. thanks to mania i know i handle it okay, but not eating makes me grumpy.
22. Do you think you’re better than your peers?
at some things, yes. at others i feel like a complete failure, so it probably levels out to feeling average?
23. Do you feel comfortable at social gatherings?
oh hell no. i do my best, but there's inevitably awkwardness at some point, even just around people i know and love.
24. Are you hard to impress?
kinda, yeah. i know some very impressive people, and that sets the bar pretty high for new encounters.
25. What is the most physically appealing thing in the sex you're attracted to?
i'm a sucker for defined calf muscles. also dark-haired, scruffy-faced, blue-eyed guys, which i never realized was my type until i analyzed my TV crushes.
26. What is the most mentally appealing thing in the sex you're attracted to?
for either gender i like knowing my opinion will be respected. both sexes are capable of steamrolling their partners and trivializing concerns. that's not cool.
27. What do you think about one night stands?
i don't judge if someone prefers to operate that way, but it's not for me. i'd need a level of trust that can't be built in one day.
28. What position do you sleep in?
i don't. i roll over constantly. i described it to mom as "sleeping like a rotisserie chicken" which is pretty accurate.
29. Are you a dreamer? Are you motivated enough to achieve your goals?
yes, and no. failure is my most enduring fear. fear of failing has often made it difficult to act at all. when i do manage something it feels good, but it's always harder than can be seen.
30. What is the weirdest thing in your room?
ah.. probably the shoe box full of decapitated fashion dolls. (it's more fun if i don't explain, i think.)
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
7 day Q&A: day2
11. If you could change just one thing about the world what would it be?
i'd eliminate the stigma associated with mental health issues.
12. What is the most noticeable feature in your looks in your opinion?
probably my boobs. i'd love to say something else, but honestly they're pretty noticeable. currently my hair's pretty notable too, i guess.
13. Do you fear death?
no. struggling with depression throughout puberty means i thought it through pretty thoroughly. not afraid of it. in no hurry to get there, but unafraid.
14. Do you fear life?
more than i fear death. it's more i fear failing to make it mean anything.
15. What calms your nerves?
music, sleep, a loving hug and a bag of gummy candy, complete solitude. it depends on the stress source really.
16. Is there someone who gives a crap?
yes, more than one person.
17. Are you romantic?
sometimes? in theory i enjoy romance, in reality it frequently feels forced. there are romantic things i like, but as a whole, i guess i'm not traditionally romantic.
18. Stars or the sun?
stars. i love the stars, and i've always been a night person.
19. Rain for 90 days or drought for 90 days?
rain. love the rain. i sleep better during summer storm season than any other time of year.
20. What season do you enjoy most? What month?
i tend to like whatever i'm in, but i guess fall? not too hot or cold, plus PUMPKIN EVERYTHING and my favorite holiday. October specifically, my birthday and Halloween.
i'd eliminate the stigma associated with mental health issues.
12. What is the most noticeable feature in your looks in your opinion?
probably my boobs. i'd love to say something else, but honestly they're pretty noticeable. currently my hair's pretty notable too, i guess.
13. Do you fear death?
no. struggling with depression throughout puberty means i thought it through pretty thoroughly. not afraid of it. in no hurry to get there, but unafraid.
14. Do you fear life?
more than i fear death. it's more i fear failing to make it mean anything.
15. What calms your nerves?
music, sleep, a loving hug and a bag of gummy candy, complete solitude. it depends on the stress source really.
16. Is there someone who gives a crap?
yes, more than one person.
17. Are you romantic?
sometimes? in theory i enjoy romance, in reality it frequently feels forced. there are romantic things i like, but as a whole, i guess i'm not traditionally romantic.
18. Stars or the sun?
stars. i love the stars, and i've always been a night person.
19. Rain for 90 days or drought for 90 days?
rain. love the rain. i sleep better during summer storm season than any other time of year.
20. What season do you enjoy most? What month?
i tend to like whatever i'm in, but i guess fall? not too hot or cold, plus PUMPKIN EVERYTHING and my favorite holiday. October specifically, my birthday and Halloween.
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