i guess i'm a monthly blogger xD

song+ One of the Boys- Katy Perry- One of the Boys
book+ Superman/Batman- Torment
scent+ toaster strudel
quest+ making the Cuprit layaway payments on time
upper+ i'm feeling happier than i have in a while
downer+ kyu is feeling tantrum-y
attire+ comfy lounging pajamas + hoodie
drink+ Dublin dr Pepper, the nectar of the gods!

so i have my goat baby demons all paid off, and now i've entered a split for the outfit (including the wings), the wig (waist length blonde and wavy), the human tip toe feet, and the ice crown from SOOMs new doll, Cuprit the Black Frost. the other person is getting the doll, the horns, and the ice hooves of DOOM! xD she's being bought completely unpainted, but i'm looking forward to seeing how she gets done after her arrival.

in non-doll stuff, this weekend we went out and visited the paternal side of kyu's family. awkwardness abounded, apparently some unspoken negativity has been festering in the 4 years since we've been out there. nothing was said directly, but i heard myself referred to as "what's her name" and "that girl" multiple times. xD they know my name, they also know that i make kyu happier than they ever did. the negativity really only came from a few people, the others were very sweet and affectionate. you could tell by the good-bye hugs who resents me and who legitimately liked me being there. from my first meetings with them, kyu's Nana, Pop, and uncle Jeremy were loving and inviting. his biological dad was initially wary, but accepted me by the end of the first visit. the rest have only pretended to. that's fine, as unkind as it may be, i don't want to be accepted by judgmental backstabbers and a small horde of teenage mothers.. i'm not talking 17 or 18 either, i'm talking 14 and 15 at conception. X.x i think not being accepted by them is a sign i'm doing something right. the upside to all of it is that on the way home, we stopped at the Stephenville WalMart and bought a case of Dublin Dr Pepper (made with Imperial Sugar!) for like, 8 bucks. it is so much better than the regular stuff. Dublin DP and $3 movies are the only good things out there. xD

the downside to a day trip like that is that with all the driving, it takes a lot of willpower for me not to get carsick. X.x i spent most of the rest of yesterday sleeping after we got home so i could feel better. i do today, but if this trip does become a monthly thing, it'll totally have to stay a saturday thing so i can recover in time for work on monday. xD speaking of work, things got crazy a week ago when my boss took her vacation. they've calmed down again, but it's making me look forward to this summer, when i'm gonna take mine. i'm not sure when exactly i'm taking it, or what i'll do, but i have the hours saved up so i may as well use them, you know? i generally take my time off in the summer because a week then is enough to hold me until the holidays hit and things go crazy. at that point, i get Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years, and those scattered days get me through the frenzy.

i'm really gonna try to do better about posting. if i wait to long, someone give me a poke/text/call and be all "hey how are you? i'd know if you'd post in your stupid blog!" xD that would help me out, i think.

catching up, part 2!

song+ the HSM3 soundtrack xD
book+ my FF X-2 strategy guide
scent+ milk and chips
quest+saving about $800 by the end of march
upper+ i have a working DVD burner!
downer+ i have no blank CDs
attire+ comfy lounging pajamas
drink+ milk, yo!

took me a while, but i finally got around to it. xD

okay, first up, the DOD order: wigs for Larxene and Bea, clothes for Larxene, Annie, and Orlando. pics of all. xD Larxene looks very carol brady, but we like it more than the black. Vivi also stole the hat from Orlando's outfit.

there was also a Dollmore order and some F2bM stuff that arrived recently, but since it was all purchased for dolls that haven't been bought yet, there are no pics. xD

i'd been saving diligently to do an order for mom's DOB Arie, and my DOB Libra, then i came across these cuties: Soom Glot and Glati. they also come with normal legs, the horns are magnetic, and so are the wings that aren't pictured.

impossible to resist, obviously. Roro pointed them out and will be getting the blue one, just the doll and parts, no clothes or painting. i'll be getting both with their outfits, but all unpainted. they're taking the place of two other dolls on my list, the pink one will replace Libra and be my new minime Momo, and the blue one will be Annie's little brother Nicolai. one set of horns (and possibly hooves, depending on compatibility) will be put aside for use on mom's sheepygirl. a sheepygirl with sheepy parts will be amazingly cute! xD mom, i'll be ordering your Arie about a month later than i planned, but she should be ordered by the end of April and you'll still get her, i promise! ..just imagine those legs in fluffy fleecy pantaloons! (painted a bit differently, of course) it's too cute to think of, to pull a Roro, it makes my brain explode!

it's been a while, but i'm back!

song+ Lace and Leather- Britney Spears- Circus
book+ Huntress Year One
scent+ resin.. i just took doll photos
quest+saving about 1K by the end of march
upper+ i'm getting a new DVD burner this weekend
downer+ i currently have a gaping hole in the front of my computer
attire+ jeans and a green stripey tee
drink+ milk, yo!

i have internet again! huzzah! there's lots to catch up on, and i dunno if i'm gonna do it in one entry or break it into a few over the next few days. it depends on how monstrous this ends up. xD

first up was dolly thanksgiving with Roro. i'm not gonna post all the pics, but here's a group shot, and one of Bea in a blonde bob. so cute! featured in the group shot are Vivi, Bea, Declan, Ichigo and Seanan



next up was christmas. this is the stuff before anyone came over when Vivi dove head first into Kyu's stocking to get some candy. so cute! at this point Vivi was wearing a new fur wig i made for him, Bea was in Vivi's old wig until her new hair could arrive, Larxene had lost her hair, so was wearing Orlando's default wig, and Orlando had long since decided that bald is beautiful. xD



i know i mentioned around new year's that Annie was almost home. here i have her arrival pics. thanks again, Jen, for letting me ship her to your house! she decided that silver/grey hair is not for her, so much that there's only one single shot of her in her default wig. when i found the missing black wig, Larxene kept the shorter one and gave her original slightly longer one to Annie. the tall, gorgeous boy is Richter, Annie's boyfriend. i met my friend Fahrenheit through the event waiting room, Richter is her Kalix, the other half of the set. he's so pretty too!



within a week i'd fixed the bizarre pale grey of her lips, and also re-done Larxene's to an old school movie star red, which we like very much! the Annie shot is very succubus, i think. xD within days they'd developed a schtick where Larxene plays the gruff but lovable hero to Annie's beautiful damsel. it's kinda cute to see them interact because they're almost polar opposites personality-wise.



everyone stayed like that until my latest shipment came in. it's mostly clothes, but it also had the blonde hair Bea and Larxene had been asking for for the past 6 months or so, and the head that will be Xavin soon.

i think that's it for now, and the new stuff will be up a little later.

Christmas cheer!

song+ Mannequin- Britney Spears- Circus
book+ my Fairy books
scent+ Christmas cookies Steve brought in
quest+saving $400 in by next weekend
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, and a pastel rainbow-ey striped tee
drink+ semi-flat dr pepper. yay that.

so christmas was awesome this year! xD Annie cleared customs today, she should be home early next week! i got exactly what i wanted for christmas: the pink and crimson volumes of Andrew Lang's fairy tale compilations, a Mitzi Gaynor DVD with Bob Mackie costume featurette, white SD knee-high boots for Larxene, a stuffed Boo (which is awesome!), and LEGO BATMAN for the x-box. xD i love it so much. i think it may be the single best videogame.. ever! also a variety of hershey kisses (special dark, cocoa, andes mint, and caramel) were in my stocking with a 24 pack of watercolour pencils from JesusMike, and chocolate covered cherries from Kyu, because he knows it's not christmas without them.

we got Suzy a Cycle of the Werewolf hardcover (she lost her autographed copy due to the negligence of kyu's biological dad), a few paperbacks she'd been eyeing, and a new game for Kyu's old DS. she'd been wanting one, and he never played his anymore, so it got bequeathed. standard stocking chocolates were also given.

we got Wolfie a rap CD he's been looking for for about a decade, a Bobby Flay cookbook, and since he can't have sugar, beef jerky/ slim jim things for his share of the stocking. xD i taped them together, wrapped them, then coated the whole thing in clear tape, and we told him he couldn't use scissors at all. xD good times.

i got moose a Runaways (series 1- Alex is on it) poster and a pair of antlers. xD she got me nothing, for she is a poor, broke moose. xD

i got Roro the Complete Batman: the Animated Series, she got me the doll boots and she's also making stockings to go with them, which is awesome! xD i can't wait to get the outfit they'll go with most. i'm ordering it next weekend.

i got Kyu two PVC statues of Darkstalkers characters, a Morrigan, and a Lilith (the only other one in the series is a Felicia). he got me the Lang Fairytale books and the DVD.. both of which were totally "psst, you should buy me this!" presents xD i also put Reese's holiday peanut butter chocolate bell candies in his stocking, because he loves Reese's peanut butter cups, but won't eat them due to my allergy. xD i figured if i gave them to him, he'd indulge for once. standard stocking chocolates were also given.

i got Naku a DVD of all Wierd Al's music videos up through the Saga Begins, from a few years ago. it does not in fact include the video for White and Nerdy. she got me the boo plushie. which is soo cute! i keep mooshing it against my face. xD i am a ginormous Mario dork (though i prefer Luigi), and Boos are the best! Kyu got her the Hellboy Companion book, and she gave him a Superman S shield wristband, which he really likes. standard stocking chocolates were also given, with a BPRD logo (from Hellboy) tee and a selection of brown pencils for sketching. brown is one of her signature colours, and she's a great artist, so we were being encouraging. go us! xD

i got James a set of Oh My Goddess figures in their Battlesuits, which he's been looking for for ages. he gave me LEGO Batman. i adore it beyond words. Kyu got him a movie. i dunno what movie, something with John Woo? anyhow, he seemed to like it. xD he got Kyu the Complete Blue Seed anime. awesometastic! standard stocking chocolates were also given, along with a bottle of scald-your-face-off hot sauce and a tee shirt with a dragon design on it.

poor mom got nothing but the joy of spending time with us.. and watching Roro be goofy all hopped up on cold medication. xD don't feel bad for her though, she knows what she's getting for her birthday, and it is super awesome! xD

tonight Kyu and i head off to his grandpa's for Christmas 2! xD i'm trying to convince him to let me bring the XBox so i can play more LEGO Batman, but i still need to do some convincing. xD i really wish our second controller worked so we could do co-op play. xD when we get to that point, it shall be EPIC WIN!! xD i may buy myself a pretty rechargable other-coloured controller soon and let Kyu play with his standard boring one. i bought an off-brand one with a cord so i wouldn't have to deal with batteries at all, but it died before too long. i'll go with the real thing this time, i think.

i'm totally thinking of Annie as my biggest present, half from Kyu and half from myself, and for me Christmas won't be over until i've opened her. xD i do think LEGO Batman may just be almost as awesome though. ..i'll likely rescind that opinion once i have her and i'm all "SOOOOOO PRETTY!!!" xD *ker-flaky* at this point the impatience has dulled my thrill to the drgree that a game can catch up to it.. when she's here, i won't be impatient anymore, so she will likely eclipse my LEGO Batman high and reign supreme as the ULTIMATE CHRISTMAS GIFT! i just can't wait to hold my baby!! *ker-whine*

Annie is coming home!

song+ none, my betteries are dead
book+ nothing
scent+ dust and comics
quest+saving $400 in 2 1/2 weeks
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, WW volunteer tee, and a pilferd hoodie that used to be James'
drink+ nothing currently

so this morning i finally got my shipping notice from DOD! Annie is on her way home after a 12 week wait to the day. does anyone know how to use a korean tracking number on the usps site? xD i only have this: em 909 168 705kr to go on. and i can't get it to work, but i know there's a trick to use, since i used it years ago when we ordered the others.. i just can't remember the trick. xD

i'm just so happy she's finally coming home! there's no chance of her being here for CHristmas (unless the Post Elves work a 2-day miracle) but she should be here for New Year's, i think, and i can be happy with that. hopefully my clothes order for later this month will arrive with considerably more expediency. xD i'm expecting a slight delay for production of the limited Elf Sha heads, but otherwise i figure it should fall somewhere around the 1 month point.

i think i've figured out a semi-definitive wishlist purchase order plan. the timelines are a bit looser than i'd hoped, but that pesky reality thing keeps rearing it's head and delaying my saving. X.x my plan is now DOB Arie (shepherdess/sheep combo for mom) by the end of February, DOB Libra (ChibiNeko) +extra body(little Arisma for my boss) by the end of April, DOT Shall (Xavin!!) ordered with my tax refund as soon as it hits, and MiniFee Lishe (Irish Noelle) and Miyu (Klara Prast) -probably through Denverdoll- as soon as i can afford to do the layaway payments. i may buy them outright, but i think i'd rather do layaway so i can space it out a little. kyu wants to have his Narshe (Chloe) ordered by March 15th, so he's working out a saving plan for that.

but yeah, i'm pretty much over the moon that Anastasia is finally coming home to me! yay and a half! xD i'm gonna have to get fresh batteries for my camera so i can take a bunch of arrival photos! sometime in the new year i'll have to get together with my friend who ordered a matching Normal Skin Kalix (named Richter) so we can take 'aren't they cute together?' pics and fix their faceups and manicures. xD ..there's speculation that to get the orders out DOD skimped on the sealing they usually do. it's okay though, because it'll make it easier to do the small alterations we both wanted anyway. xD

insecurity, i suppose

song+ Wicked soundtrack
book+ the Pagan Stone
scent+ peach and soap and floral lotion
quest+saving $400 in 2 1/2 weeks
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, and a black supergirl tee
drink+ nothing currently

it's been a while, i know. still no word on the shipping of my Delphine, i just want my Annie home. it's been about 3 months now. waiting this long really sucks.

i have my Christmas shopping all done and wrapped, sitting under the tree. it's a delightfully ghetto tree, but it's out first tree on our own, so we love it. James and Naku should be coming over for Christmas at our place, other than stocking stuffers to be purchased this weekend, we're done.

the bulk of my money for the next few weeks will go to trying to qualify for the DOD Christmas event. X.x that means my semi-secret not-so-stealthy project will have to wait a bit longer.. maybe the end of January or beginning of February. it's still next on my list, but other things came up. i think mom will understand though, since it's still gonna happen.

at this point i'm trying not to think about all the things that are making me excited or nervous, but i can't manage to completely clear my mind at any point in the day. X.x no wonder i'm not sleeping well. part of me is terrified that i'll never feel like a mature, responsible adult. X.x i don't want to feel old and boring, but i'd rather not feel like i'm only pretending to be in control of myself and my life.

i've been thinking about looking for another job. i still like my job a lot of the time, and i like a lot of the people i work with, but i know it's not the best place fer me, as it's way too easy to blow all my money on things i see here. i don't feel like i'm growing anymore and i want to be somewhere else before i feel like i'm stagnating. i'm not saying i'm gonna quit tomorrow or anything, i'm not even actively looking for anything else, just keeping myself open to possibilities. my biggest frustration with my current job is that i'm not paid anything near what i'm worth. i work too hard to make so little. i may be materialistic and needy, as i'm not having any trouble surviving, but i want a buffer of emergency spendability. i don't have that now.

i want to grow up a little, so i can have more fun. i want to do better, have better, be better. i think i want to look into what it would take to do costume design and have someone with some drive help me follow through. a good bit of my procrastinatory tendancies are rooted in my fear of failure, it's harder to fail if you never finish, and therefore can't be judged.

i want my wings. i know that getting a tattoo that will cover about a third of my back isn't exactly conducive to the growing up and possibly getting a better job, but it's something i've wanted almost all my life. something i've planned for for a long time. i think i'm ready to find a parlor that feels safe and look into getting it done already. i know that it's probably not something that most people would encourage me to do, but i'm gonna. i'd like to have it done by my birthday this year in fact. i'll probably get my star first as it'll be a good deal smaller and better for breaking through the fear of being jabbed repeatedly by a stranger. xD

i feel stagnant and disssatisfied, and logically i shouldn't when there's so much going on around me. X.x i want more. i'm not sure what of just yet, but i know i'll figure it out.

i'm happy living where i am, just me and Kyu. we needed it, we were ready, and it's done wonders for both of us. it's a little crowded, but getting about four rooms worth of stuff into a one bedroom loft isn't easy. xD we've both gotten rid of a lot of junk we were only keeping out of sentimentality, and we've done okay not-replacing it with new junk. i've even substantially cut back on my comics. they take up a ton of room, so i'm mostly switching to trades and hardcovers. cheaper in the long run and more space efficient, as i already have bookshelves. xD you can fit a lot more story on a shelf than in a comic longbox.

i'm anxous because i still feel like something big is coming up. it's right on the horizon, but i can't see what it is for the life of me. i've been saying that for months and bir things HAVE happened; Dad's strokes, moving to our own place, probably the best WWTx ever, ordering Annie, but none of those BIG things were THE big thing i've been sensing. every time i thought to myself "maybe this is it?" but i still feel it, something's coming and it's driving me crazy not-knowing, but being so close to it. i can tell i'm close.. almost there, but not enough, it sucks.

dollish rambling

song+ Gimme Gimme Gimme- Mamma Mia the Movie Soundtrack
book+ Fables Covers! it's so nice
scent+ cigarette smoke and kittens. X.x
quest+taking care of christmas shopping
upper+ only a few people to shop for this year
downer+ i need $300+ to spend on DOD this December to get the event head *waaaaaaant*
attire+ stripey pajamas and kyu's hoodie over it
drink+ nothing currently

still no word on Delphine's shipping. X.x i'm at 10 weeks on my wait, but i finally know what her name is! she is (Grand Duchess) Anastasia Nikolaevna Romanova, Annie to those that she loves and trusts. i am so beyond ready to have her come home to me! to keep from going too crazy while i wait, i've been thinking about who i'm getting next, and when, so i thought i'd share.

next up is the stealth project. i'd talk about it, but that wouldn't be very stealthy would it? xD on the upside there's a small chance that my stealthy-ness could get me great deals on other things due to DOD's Christmas event! whoo! here's hoping!

at or around the time i'm being stealthy, i'm hoping we can order Kyu's Narsha. at least, i'm hoping to have her ordered by then, his self-imposed deadline is March. for me, the earlier the better.

i'm ordering Shall to turn into Xavin with my tax refund no matter what. that'll be sometime between February and April. xD nice and vague, huh? i'm e-filing, and this year i plan to use the right information to hopefully get my money sooner.

as soon as my Christmas shopping is done, i'll be saving for my share of NY Dolpa registration and funds for spending at the con itself too. this is around all these other things, obviously.

worked in somewhere around the registration, but after Xavin, i'll tentatively be ordering myself and my boss a DOB Libra(girl) set, with two sets of magnetic kitty ears (one set for each of us) and an extra girl body. i'll be keeping the awake face, she'll be my ChibiNeko. Jacinda will get the sleepy face, we're gonna mod the eyes a bit more open and turn it into her FFIX character, who happens to be a kittyish person-thing. xD i'm gonna have lots of fun doing the facial markings and stuff. i plan on making her red mage costume, and maybe a few others too, and she's gonna dress it up and take pics for all her online friends. xD again, this isn't absolutely set in stone, but we're both really excited about it.

at some point i'd still like to do a FCS doll through Volks, but that's a long way away. in the dreaming department, i'm also looking for a smaller mini to turn into Klara from runaways to go with my Xavin. Bea is around 43cm, and i want Klara to be smaller, and to be able to pass for a young russian girl. i'm thinking someone about the size of Roro's little juniors, but i'll have to look and see if i like any of their girl faces. for now she's behind everyone else on the list, so i'm not looking too hard yet.