third post of the year. go me?

i haven't been in much of a blogging mood for most of 2012, but i've been in a place mentally where i really need to TALK about some things, so this morning i started writing out my stories. i'm starting with those things that happened to make me into who i am, but that i refuse to be judged for. i've started another blog, entirely unrelated to this one where i can tell those stories entirely anonymously and vent, rant, and swear entirely apart from the eyes or ears of anyone i know. i've given anyone mentioned an animal or fairy tale nickname to avoid personal identifiers, and i have posts queued up to carry me into friday with a post a day. there's still plenty more i need to say, but getting the first 6 posts written (two went up today before i figured out how the queue worked properly) has me feeling enough better that i can offer more than a perfunctory “i'm not dead” post here.

i'd like to clarify that i'm not generally a swear-er, but to maintain the anonymous theme, i've altered my vocal cadence, followed traditional grammar/editing guidelines, peppered in expletives when most people would be upset enough to use them, and lessened my standard vocabulary so it doesn't read like neko/Faythe, i definitely sound like someone else on that blog.

there's not really much else to talk about here. the little that's happened lately has been secret confessions or hush-hush collaborations, and i'm not the type to disclose before someone's ready so.. yeah. xD i dunno, maybe i'll have art to share again sometime soon? i've been working, but those projects aren't done enough for picture-taking yet.

hey there

i'm not dead. just figured i'd throw it out there. i was sick, then depressed, then sick, then mildly productive, then sick, then depressed again and panic-stricken. other stuff happened too, nothing end of the world terrible, but i'd rather not talk about it, so i haven't. but that's why i haven't posted for nearly three months, and why there's a pretty good chance this isn't a return to form for me posting.

but yeah, at least i'm not dead?

State of the Neko address: week 98

song+ Alone- Glee
book+ no time to read for now
quest+ selling all my surplus doll things
upper+ REAL CHANCE AT VESUVIA
downer+ it'll take luck and work to make enough money in time
attire+ pajamas
drink+ milk

a day late again, but for damn good reason this week. xD yesterday morning was cleaning the bedroom so i could rearrange it for better New Year energy flow, then in the afternoon i spent seriously 8 hours cataloging and photographing all the doll clothes i have that never get used. some outfits i bought for dolls i no longer own, others are parts of sets where i really only wanted one of the items, and the rest are the result of my obsessive need to buy a whole collection when i really only want one small part of it. today i still have accessories and shoes to go through, then i'll be listing all the surplus for sale. if it sells quick enough, part of the proceeds will go to buying me a Vesuvia from Soom's event offer a bit later this month (available from the 11th to the 25th), if that doesn't happen, the next thing on the list is a new computer, followed by several things for the betterment of our living situation. but yeah, i hadn't realized quite how much we had in the way off doll clothing, when kyu saw my compiled list and organized bundles his response was "i think it's BREEDING" to which i said "no, what worries me is i can think of specific items i'm missing." i'll just have to see if those things turn up later.

Vesuvia is my dream doll, i know i've mentioned her before. i've tried to buy her, but the original release was small, and when she's offered for sale it's generally an incomplete doll at an absurd markup. she was initially $710 bald, blank and eye-less. i've never found the outfit or her eyes offered on the DOA marketplace, but i've (rarely) seen her. $2,000 for most of the doll- but not the scorpion tail, or $2,500 for all the parts.. blank and unpainted with damage to the special feet. they also still sold before i could manage to negotiate anything every time, so this is something i'm REALLY desperate to pull off. thus, the inventory clear-out is happening. i'm okay with having her in a normal skin tone, it was actually the Pearl Violet that had me hesitating ordering her in the first place and missing my chance, so anything i think can possibly make me money, i'm gonna try to sell in the next few weeks.