Sunday, April 24, 2016

i'm the light blinking at the end of the road (blink back to let me know)

song+ Always -Panic! At the Disco -Vices and Virtues
book+ nothing presently
quest+ breathing
upper+ Scarbie yesterday
downer+ allergies are trying to murder me
attire+ denim skirt and a black empire waist tee
drink+ Sun Drop


this week has been a great one. last Sunday we had mom's birthday dinner, which was great, and started practicing for the song we're singing this Saturday for Bonnie's ward's RS Super Saturday (i think). Tuesday there was no knit night, but i worked on my own projects happily. Friday Jenni picked me up and we had snow cones and danced to fun stuff via Dance Central before heading to Bonnie's ward's camp fundraiser, a spaghetti dinner and dessert auction, where we had our first practice with our actual accompanist, which went well. yesterday i had a phenomenally amazing time at Scarborough Faire with my friend Didle, and only got a teeny bit sun burnt. so little it should definitely fade by this Saturday.

today i woke up before my alarm (a combination of allergies and sun burn) so i had time to relax and do my morning things at a comfy pace before i head up to Wild West for art things and a Dice Masters tournament this afternoon. it's entirely likely i'll come in just as dead last as the last tourney, but fun is fun, and the social aspect is a kind of therapy for me. really all i'm likely to do today is play a few games and make plans for the other Scarbie trip i have a ticket for this season. i'm also thinking about alternate costumes since wearing the same thing gets boring, and the (at this point still VERY theoretical) possibility of auditioning for SAPA next year. auditions aren't until January, so there's plenty of time to think about it still.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

scream and shout (let it all out)

song+ Scream and Shout -Britney Spears (ft Will.I.Am)
book+ nothing presently
quest+ multiple custom dolls
upper+ progress on multiple projects
downer+ allergies
attire+ leggings, a denim skirt and a Wonder Woman tee
drink+ milk


Happy Mom's Birthday! i'm about to head up to Wild West for socialization and (hopefully) a modicum of productivity. this afternoon mom will pick me up from there and we'll head to Jenni's for mom's birthday dinner.

this week's been a good one. i've made progress on various stages of multiple customs i'm working on. Thursday i finally got to play Dice Masters against Wes, we'd been trying for a month but things kept getting in the way. i got this year's free tickets for Scarborough from Muffin and plans are being made to use them. next Saturday i'm going for sure, then there should be another day too, with a different group later on.

all i know is today feels like a good day. i woke up minutes before my alarm to the sound of rain, the back pain i'd been carrying for a week has dissipated, and i've got a few hours to spend art-ing in the company of friends before i spend the evening in the company of family. it's definitely a layout for a good day.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

love is a ghost you can't control

song+ the Words -Christina Perri -Head or Heart
book+ nothing presently
quest+ multiple custom dolls
upper+ got to play Dice Masters for the first time in a month
downer+ lost the tournament
attire+ denim skirt and a Wonder Woman tee
drink+ cream soda


posting several hours late today, because i slept in this morning and had to rush to make it up for today's DM tournament. then i came home at the same time as Kyu and he wanted his desk for painting. since it's his desk and his computer that seemed plenty fair, i occupied myself otherwise.

the tournament was fun, only five of us entered, and the theme was Lady's Night. as in only female characters in any decks. it was funny to watch everyone try to find workable builds with it, and even coming in dead last, i had a good time. i also have plans to head up Tuesday and play Wes after his shift ends, but before mom picks me up for knit night. we've never managed to play each other, something always comes up.

i had a productive weekend at mom's, then i went on a baking binge after getting home (the reason for my sleeping in). we've got plans for more productivity next weekend too. at this point progress is mostly limited by how much space we have to throw things away. a trash can always has a maximum volume and we've found it more than once in our endeavors.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

all i know is you said hello (your eyes looked like coming home)

song+ Everything Has Changed -Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran
book+ nothing presently
quest+ multiple custom dolls
upper+ my time is my own again
downer+ still sore from last weekend
attire+ pajamas (for now)
drink+ milk


so day two of moving didn't go much better than day one. we weren't called over until 2 in the afternoon, and there was still a full day of work to do. my allergies were so bad it looked like i was coming down with pinkeye. i described progress to Rory as it looking like Ninja Warrior had tried to build a course out of the contents of a Hoarders episode. i had a brief blackout around three, followed by my knee dislocating while i was carrying boxes down the stairs. it stayed out of socket for about four hours, at its worst swelling to the size of a cantaloupe. all in all not a good day.

the rest of the week was basically spent recovering. today i get to go to game day again after some time off the last few weeks. i need to hurry and figure out which arty project i'll be taking up to work on until others show up to play. or to keep working on if i just don't want to play anything, as is sometimes the case. some days i just want to watch other people play and not try to think logically. when i'm manic it can be really hard to think in a way that works for strategy games, so it's easier to observe and art those times. i've been manic for quite a while now, closing in on something like two months now i think? it makes everything trickier and i'm ready to think in a straight line again, but honestly mania is still a better state than crushing depression. they both suck, but while i have troubles with mania, i can still DO things a bit easier than when everything is terrible and i just want to sleep for eternity. my insomnia is generally more intense when i'm depressed. like it's not a guarantee, mania keeps me from sleeping too, but it's more likely when i'm down.