Sunday, January 26, 2014

it's been a good week

song+ Run Dry (X Heart X Fingers) -Patrick Stump -Soul Punk
book+ nothing
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ things continue to improve
downer+ no word back on employment yet
attire+ pajamas
drink+ Dr Pepper


lots of stuff has happened this week, most of it pretty good.

last Sunday i went through the process of applying to the stocking department of a local grocery store, and i also finally dyed my hair, so i'm not longer blonde with inches of black roots. the color was supposed to look redder than it does, it mostly just looks dark brown, but i'm okay with it. it looks employable, which was kinda the point.

Tuesday i was mom as usual for knit night, and it was fun. Wednesday took Kyu out of town for a work trip, and it was stressful for him because his boss is prone to bouts of previously unimaginable idiocy, but also i panicked at like 11:30 because it felt so weird not feeling him in the apartment. like normally even if we're not talking, i can tell he's still around, but this was different so i made him text me close to midnight until i calmed down.

Thursday i had lunch out with Michelle, and late that evening Kyu made it back home. Friday was lunch with James, which was nice since we did our December lunch pre-Christmas so it had been longer than normal since we last saw each other. i think seeing him every day is what i miss most about working at Lone Star, but making do with monthly lunch dates is better than not seeing him at all.

yesterday Jenni picked me up so we could sew our block in time for the next quilt class, which we did. our method now is that she does the cutting and sewing since she's more precise there, and i do the ironing and pinning, and fetching and carrying if any of that needs to be done. we do both blocks at the same time assembly line style and it's faster than it was when we both did our own, taking turns on everything.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

figuring things out, getting things done

song+ This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race -Fall Out Boy -Infinity On High
book+ nothing presently
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ i have an awesome new fully functional phone!
downer+ time is still tripping me up
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water


my phone was replaced Friday evening. i love my new one. it makes normal phone noises and does normal phone things. that doesn't sound like a big deal, but it's awesome, trust me. i'm adjusting to the swipe texting, and having to manually add words to my dictionary right and left, but it's nice having a phone that i know will actually do what it's supposed to.

Kyu and i are now at the point where our lease will be up soon, so we're starting to pack things a little while also looking for where we wanna move. i'm trying to focus my job search in areas i'll still be able to get to reasonably easily after we relocate. we're not looking to go too far since he still has to be able to get to his job, but we're both pretty sick of living smack on campus neither of us attends.

i'd like to attend classes, and have nothing against this particular campus, but living a little further from it wouldn't break my heart. drunk college kids shouting outside at 3am is annoying, regardless of whether or not i was awake anyway. Kyu wants me working part-time so i can work around classes, i'm okay with that since i think i'm getting closer to finally figuring out what i wanna do with my life. it's narrowed down to like 3 choices at this point at least instead of like, 10. xD i think talking to an adviser once i've started taking classes will help me figure out the rest.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

time keeps slipping

song+ the Nutcracker Suite (all jumbled and out of order, but still recognizable)
book+ fanfic. copious amounts of it
quest+ finding a job
upper+ Kyu bought me hair dye
downer+ time keeps getting away from me despite my best efforts
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water


it completely slipped my mind that it's Sunday again already. i've been having real trouble processing time in a linear manner lately, which is kinda annoying when i'm trying so hard to re-regulate so i can successfully job hunt. i've lost hours where i can't recall what's been happening at all, and my sleeping has been erratic regardless of my best efforts to regulate it.

my appetite's been pretty shoddy too, but it think that's a reflection of the bizarre sleep pattern i'm struggling with. i hit a really apathetic day Friday, where no matter what i did, i just couldn't make myself FEEL anything. like i wasn't bored, or excited or anything else, just kinda there. it was really strange and i didn't like it, but it had mostly passed by Saturday and today i got frustrated, so i think whatever it was cleared up.

man, i always feel bad when my posts are really short, but i'm having trouble finding words, so i think this is kinda it for this post.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

happy new year!

song+ Goodnight Goodnight -Maroon 5 -It Won't Be Soon Before Long
book+ my Blue Dragon guide
quest+ finding a job
upper+ feeling almost entirely human again
downer+ my lungs keep trying to evacuate my body for no reason
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water


i totally almost titled this post "happy next year" by accident, which doesn't really make sense. except for random coughing jags (which have decreased their frequency even if they won't go completely away yet) i'm feeling much much better.

i kinda lost track of time between the being sick, and the holidays breaking up Kyu's work week (his being home or not is about 80% of my 'is it weekend?' check), and the two weeks of no knit night. i'm looking forward to things settling back to normal this week. i feel like i should have more to say, but i really don't since i've honestly just been sleeping and trying to wrangle my lungs. i dunno, maybe i'll do better next week.