so dang poor..

song+ Stars- tATu- 200km/hr in the Wrong Lane
book+ Starman Omnibus v 1-3
scent+ dust?
quest+ working on not-sucking at Guitar Hero
upper+ i'm making progress paying off all my obligations
downer+ i am utterly broke
attire+ lounging clothes
drink+ milk

so this weekend i joined a split for the Eliv & Iv outfits and the Iv (blue) fishy parts. i paid off my part of a group order (and heard it already shipped) and made the last payment on mom's Cuprit.. i am utterly broke. xD

next weekend i'm paying for my part of the fishy split, and then after that i need to pay off the last of the Hati/Skoll order i'm splitting with my friend. after that, i hope no more dolls grab me in a "MUST HAVE IT!" kinda way for the rest of the year, because i've been poor from dolly spending pretty much non-stop this year. X.x since the friend that's getting Skoll hasn't had any hours at work in a month and wasn't bonding with her Kid Delf Bory girl, she's most of the payment. within days she'd slid into being Klara. i've been looking for a shell for Klara for months, so it was somewhat serendipitous. xD it's another doll on my list taken care of, and now Chaunte doesn't have to feel bad about not being able to bond or pay for her share of the order.

i already have plans for next year's dolly spending though. xD first up will be Irish Noelle (a DoC Shiny Petsha) then Destiny and Nemesis (Kid Dollmore Paran girl and boy twins) and Justice (DoC elfy Petsha). Irish Noelle is very special to me, but i can't really articulate why. she's the embodiment of what could have been, but isn't. i love her deeply, but that doesn't keep me from thinking about how different things could be if not for one thing.. the thing she represents to me. Destiny, Nemesis and Justice are the concepts from mythology. Destiny will be easygoing, very "whatever will be will be" or "everything happens for a reason". she is that reason, but she only reacts to what happens and points out possibilities, she never forces anyone down any path. Nemesis is "righteous anger" that's what it means, so he will be very protective of his twin sister. he'll do what he thinks he has to to keep her safe and happy, no matter the cost. Justice will be the middle ground for the two. i'm gonna get her blind Soom eyes, and everything about her will be perfectly symmetrical. no personal opinions or beliefs for her, it's her job to make everything has the right/fair outcome. she makes sure crimes are punished and good deeds are rewarded. as soon as something happens, she doles out the appropriate reaction, it's just what she does. it doesn't matter to her why something is done, just that it was done at all.

i'm still working out the physical designs for them, but when i have them drawn up, i'll try to share. i look forward to hearing some feedback.