the fog is rolling in

song+ No Words -the Script -3
book+ ff12 guide
quest+ poke-plushes!
upper+ fun mini doll meet yesterday
downer+ allergies
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

i can feel the oppressive haze of indifference creeping in. that's the worst part of my chronic depression, when i'm not sad, and i want to do things, but it's the hardest thing in the world to even get out of bed. i want to be designing and sewing, or writing, maybe even painting or playing one of my numerous saves on any number of video games, but the hardest part of my day every time i wake up is getting out of bed. i've been dealing with tension headaches, airborne allergies, and light and sound sensitivity on top of that. it's made things generally unpleasant. it's hard to find the right words, there's so much i want to say, but there's a block keeping me from getting it out. it sucks.

happy easter!

song+ All I See -Kylie Minogue -X
book+ nothing
quest+ poke-plushes!
upper+ ah..something i'm sure?
downer+ difficulty on some of my poke-patterns
attire+ black pants and my union jack Tardis tee
drink+ water

i slept in this morning, so i had no time to post before i headed up to Wild West, but i'm still hitting the right day at least.

i don't have much to show for this week's project progress because i'm still figuring patterns. i think i'm mostly over the hurdle i've been caught on (with Cubone) for a few days though, so maybe soon.

really between drafting patterns and planning my decompression endeavor (most likely a power leveled FF12 run) i've had lots going on in my brain but very little outward progress. i've also been working off and on to clean up the downstairs of our apartment (the kitchen especially) so we can get the maintenance guy to come finally fix pretty much everything. really i've learned that when i hyper focus on one thing i burn out faster, when i switch between projects i'm more productive overall because it takes longer for me to get to that "i can't even look at this" point.

it's been a moderately productive week

song+ Love, Selfish Love -Patrick Stump -Truant Wave
book+ nothing
quest+ poke-plushes!
upper+ awesome spring storm outside
downer+ all our umbrellas are broken
attire+ black pants and my smitey-Thor tee
drink+ ginger ale

still in a creative mood, i sewed a skirt for Skelita Tuesday at knit night, and a vest Thursday evening. the robe that'll complete the outfit is waiting. instead i spent yesterday looking at available free pokemon plush patterns and thinking i could do better than some of them, so i drafted a Spheal for Kyu. it came out well overall, even if the front end got a little smooshy faced. i suppose starting with a perfectly spherical pokemon wasn't the smartest choice.

i spent last night altering and resizing an Ivysaur pattern i found, and this morning i'll be drawing the parts it totally neglected to cover (like ears) it should be ready to be test-sewn tonight for sure. then i think i wanna try and figure out Lapras, or maybe a Gengar pattern. i'm doing my best to draft them all in scale to MSD, which makes them about one sixth human scale (i think). sewing something that's 4-6 feet tall in scale to a 45cm doll is way easier really. xD

no pictures of anything because my desk and the surrounding areas look like a hurricane hit and there's nowhere unoffensive to take photos, but i'll do my best to get pictures in the next week.

ideas are percolating

song+ America's Suitehearts -Fall Out Boy -Folie a Deux
book+ nothing
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ feeling productive
downer+ insomnia is scrambling my brain
attire+ pajamas
drink+ ginger ale

so i'm in a creating kinda mood. i spent several hours yesterday finding free Monster High clothing patterns, tracing them from my screen (as i have no printer) and adjusting them to be easier to use. if i can make a mostly-functional garment from paper, i know it'll fit when i make it from fabric. i've come to realize that pattern drafting (for me) requires a very specific mindset, but alterations i can do (and enjoy!) pretty much any time. i figure i've got this morning to keep going with that before we head up to Wild West for game day. last week i managed to watch two games (even if i didn't really follow everything) so i'm hoping i can manage similarly today. if not, i'll probably have further pattern alteration i can work on.

my first project is an outfit for muffin's MH Skelita. being a day of the dead inspired skeleton girl she doesn't fit standard clothes well, and muffin doesn't like the frilly BRIGHT skirt she came wearing, so i offered to make something else. something flowing and adjustable, and dark. the other patterns i'm modifying will be personal-use, because my favorite thing about doll collecting is changing their clothes. like all the time. xD

after i have the stuff figured out for Skelita i wanna work out new looks for my EAH girls. i have specific ideas for Blondie and Cupid, and vague ones for Raven, Maddie and Apple, so i should have plenty to keep me busy. no idea how much will be finished this week, but it's an entertaining project for now.