the fog is rolling in

song+ No Words -the Script -3
book+ ff12 guide
quest+ poke-plushes!
upper+ fun mini doll meet yesterday
downer+ allergies
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

i can feel the oppressive haze of indifference creeping in. that's the worst part of my chronic depression, when i'm not sad, and i want to do things, but it's the hardest thing in the world to even get out of bed. i want to be designing and sewing, or writing, maybe even painting or playing one of my numerous saves on any number of video games, but the hardest part of my day every time i wake up is getting out of bed. i've been dealing with tension headaches, airborne allergies, and light and sound sensitivity on top of that. it's made things generally unpleasant. it's hard to find the right words, there's so much i want to say, but there's a block keeping me from getting it out. it sucks.