more stuff, i guess

song+ One More Night -Maroon 5 -Overexposed
book+ nothing
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ new fun things!
downer+ negative word back from Kroger
attire+ pajamas
drink+ dr pepper

i spent some of the money Kyu gave me from his tax return on more dolls. two monster girls (Venus McFlytrap and Scarah Screams) and lots of clothes to take advantage of a MH line-wide 25% off Toys R Us was running, then basic Maddie and the two EAH play sets from Mattel.com while they were 20% off. they're due to arrive tomorrow. i'm still trying to figure out just where to display these girls, but i have an idea that may work out, we'll see. i have a definite preference of fairy tale girls over monster girls since my collection numbers 6 (and 2 play sets) to three, but the monsters i do have are really cute: a preppy pink vampire, a green punk plant girl, and a paler green 60s retro-mod banshee.

on another front, i did hear back from Kroger finally, and that job's not mine. i spent time Tuesday at the LDS employment center, so i do have some other leads to pursue. hopefully i'll find something good for me soon.

i suppose to close things out i'll end with pictures. the shot of my EAH girls was up on facebook yesterday, but it's here too for posterity. the shot of my MH girls is new, just for ya'll.

this was meant to go up hours ago. oops.

song+ Come and Get It -Selena Gomez -Stars Dance
book+ nothing
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ new fun things!
downer+ no word back on employment yet
attire+ pajamas
drink+ milk

Kyu and i started watching Arrow this last week. it only has a season and a half so i figured it wouldn't take us long to get through it, but we're not caught up yet. probably because we only watch a few episodes at a time. it's really good though, like i know as a comic fan there's tons of awesome nerdy things hidden in the dialog and sets and background designs, but those things aren't anything you NEED to notice to enjoy the show, it just adds a layer of "oh that's awesome!" if you do notice them.

i'm still losing time. i deal better when other people are around and we're doing things, but when i'm alone i keep blinking and realizing an hour (or more) has passed. it makes it harder to do things on my own, or keep to a schedule, i'm trying though. the losing time has doubled up with my raging insomnia to make things difficult, even when i know i should sleep because i have plans at normal-person times the next day i can't, which means i end up loopy and incoherent.

the only other notable thing from this week is Kyu's tax refund hit, so he bought me some dolls as a pre-arranged trade. i had some statues i don't want, and i was thinking of selling. two of them happen to be things he does want, so we agreed he could buy off my wishlist to a price point matching what i payed initially for them. i now own four dolls i want, and he has two statues he wants and we both walk away happy. it's a cell phone pic because my computer's being a butt and not recognizing my camera's SD card, but these are the new girls.

GF Apple White, CA Cupid, Blondie Lockes, and GF Madeline Hatter. the two GF girls are in nightgowns because they're from the sleepwear line, but they were on my list and having them first isn't gonna make getting their everyday looks later any less exciting.

happy February i guess?

song+ Bound To You -Burlesque soundtrack
book+ nothing
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ things continue to improve
downer+ no word back on employment yet
attire+ pajamas
drink+ Dr Pepper

this week was pretty interesting. Tuesday Mom and i ran around for a few hours between her dental appointment and knit night. midweek i downloaded the demo for Bravely Default and beat it, and also downloaded Zelda Four Swords while it was free. i've made significantly less progress there.

Saturday was our quilt class, and also a trip to the Dallas Museum of Art for an exhibit on Ed Hopper's sketches and artistic process. it was really interesting, and i liked having both Jenni and Mom there to talk to about it since we all viewed everything differently. that and visiting the art store with Mom have made me itchy to paint again, so i'm working on clearing space to set up my easel.

the other stuff that's happened this week is the kinda boring stuff i do every week in efforts to continue my recovery to real-person status. it's that stuff that i'm happy to be managing, but it doesn't sound like much when it's said out loud. i think my 2 biggest accomplishments this week both happened Saturday. i rode an elevator twice (with only minor panic) and i complimented a stranger on her shoes! i also figured out how to save incoming pictures to my phone, but that was unrelated to the getting better thing mostly, it was just leaving me frustrated not knowing how since it was left out of the instruction booklet that came with the phone.

it's been a good week

song+ Run Dry (X Heart X Fingers) -Patrick Stump -Soul Punk
book+ nothing
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ things continue to improve
downer+ no word back on employment yet
attire+ pajamas
drink+ Dr Pepper

lots of stuff has happened this week, most of it pretty good.

last Sunday i went through the process of applying to the stocking department of a local grocery store, and i also finally dyed my hair, so i'm not longer blonde with inches of black roots. the color was supposed to look redder than it does, it mostly just looks dark brown, but i'm okay with it. it looks employable, which was kinda the point.

Tuesday i was mom as usual for knit night, and it was fun. Wednesday took Kyu out of town for a work trip, and it was stressful for him because his boss is prone to bouts of previously unimaginable idiocy, but also i panicked at like 11:30 because it felt so weird not feeling him in the apartment. like normally even if we're not talking, i can tell he's still around, but this was different so i made him text me close to midnight until i calmed down.

Thursday i had lunch out with Michelle, and late that evening Kyu made it back home. Friday was lunch with James, which was nice since we did our December lunch pre-Christmas so it had been longer than normal since we last saw each other. i think seeing him every day is what i miss most about working at Lone Star, but making do with monthly lunch dates is better than not seeing him at all.

yesterday Jenni picked me up so we could sew our block in time for the next quilt class, which we did. our method now is that she does the cutting and sewing since she's more precise there, and i do the ironing and pinning, and fetching and carrying if any of that needs to be done. we do both blocks at the same time assembly line style and it's faster than it was when we both did our own, taking turns on everything.

figuring things out, getting things done

song+ This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race -Fall Out Boy -Infinity On High
book+ nothing presently
quest+ finding a job!
upper+ i have an awesome new fully functional phone!
downer+ time is still tripping me up
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

my phone was replaced Friday evening. i love my new one. it makes normal phone noises and does normal phone things. that doesn't sound like a big deal, but it's awesome, trust me. i'm adjusting to the swipe texting, and having to manually add words to my dictionary right and left, but it's nice having a phone that i know will actually do what it's supposed to.

Kyu and i are now at the point where our lease will be up soon, so we're starting to pack things a little while also looking for where we wanna move. i'm trying to focus my job search in areas i'll still be able to get to reasonably easily after we relocate. we're not looking to go too far since he still has to be able to get to his job, but we're both pretty sick of living smack on campus neither of us attends.

i'd like to attend classes, and have nothing against this particular campus, but living a little further from it wouldn't break my heart. drunk college kids shouting outside at 3am is annoying, regardless of whether or not i was awake anyway. Kyu wants me working part-time so i can work around classes, i'm okay with that since i think i'm getting closer to finally figuring out what i wanna do with my life. it's narrowed down to like 3 choices at this point at least instead of like, 10. xD i think talking to an adviser once i've started taking classes will help me figure out the rest.

time keeps slipping

song+ the Nutcracker Suite (all jumbled and out of order, but still recognizable)
book+ fanfic. copious amounts of it
quest+ finding a job
upper+ Kyu bought me hair dye
downer+ time keeps getting away from me despite my best efforts
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

it completely slipped my mind that it's Sunday again already. i've been having real trouble processing time in a linear manner lately, which is kinda annoying when i'm trying so hard to re-regulate so i can successfully job hunt. i've lost hours where i can't recall what's been happening at all, and my sleeping has been erratic regardless of my best efforts to regulate it.

my appetite's been pretty shoddy too, but it think that's a reflection of the bizarre sleep pattern i'm struggling with. i hit a really apathetic day Friday, where no matter what i did, i just couldn't make myself FEEL anything. like i wasn't bored, or excited or anything else, just kinda there. it was really strange and i didn't like it, but it had mostly passed by Saturday and today i got frustrated, so i think whatever it was cleared up.

man, i always feel bad when my posts are really short, but i'm having trouble finding words, so i think this is kinda it for this post.

happy new year!

song+ Goodnight Goodnight -Maroon 5 -It Won't Be Soon Before Long
book+ my Blue Dragon guide
quest+ finding a job
upper+ feeling almost entirely human again
downer+ my lungs keep trying to evacuate my body for no reason
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

i totally almost titled this post "happy next year" by accident, which doesn't really make sense. except for random coughing jags (which have decreased their frequency even if they won't go completely away yet) i'm feeling much much better.

i kinda lost track of time between the being sick, and the holidays breaking up Kyu's work week (his being home or not is about 80% of my 'is it weekend?' check), and the two weeks of no knit night. i'm looking forward to things settling back to normal this week. i feel like i should have more to say, but i really don't since i've honestly just been sleeping and trying to wrangle my lungs. i dunno, maybe i'll do better next week.