song+ Mannequin- Britney Spears- Circus
book+ my Fairy books
scent+ Christmas cookies Steve brought in
quest+saving $400 in by next weekend
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, and a pastel rainbow-ey striped tee
drink+ semi-flat dr pepper. yay that.
so christmas was awesome this year! xD Annie cleared customs today, she should be home early next week! i got exactly what i wanted for christmas: the pink and crimson volumes of Andrew Lang's fairy tale compilations, a Mitzi Gaynor DVD with Bob Mackie costume featurette, white SD knee-high boots for Larxene, a stuffed Boo (which is awesome!), and LEGO BATMAN for the x-box. xD i love it so much. i think it may be the single best videogame.. ever! also a variety of hershey kisses (special dark, cocoa, andes mint, and caramel) were in my stocking with a 24 pack of watercolour pencils from JesusMike, and chocolate covered cherries from Kyu, because he knows it's not christmas without them.
we got Suzy a Cycle of the Werewolf hardcover (she lost her autographed copy due to the negligence of kyu's biological dad), a few paperbacks she'd been eyeing, and a new game for Kyu's old DS. she'd been wanting one, and he never played his anymore, so it got bequeathed. standard stocking chocolates were also given.
we got Wolfie a rap CD he's been looking for for about a decade, a Bobby Flay cookbook, and since he can't have sugar, beef jerky/ slim jim things for his share of the stocking. xD i taped them together, wrapped them, then coated the whole thing in clear tape, and we told him he couldn't use scissors at all. xD good times.
i got moose a Runaways (series 1- Alex is on it) poster and a pair of antlers. xD she got me nothing, for she is a poor, broke moose. xD
i got Roro the Complete Batman: the Animated Series, she got me the doll boots and she's also making stockings to go with them, which is awesome! xD i can't wait to get the outfit they'll go with most. i'm ordering it next weekend.
i got Kyu two PVC statues of Darkstalkers characters, a Morrigan, and a Lilith (the only other one in the series is a Felicia). he got me the Lang Fairytale books and the DVD.. both of which were totally "psst, you should buy me this!" presents xD i also put Reese's holiday peanut butter chocolate bell candies in his stocking, because he loves Reese's peanut butter cups, but won't eat them due to my allergy. xD i figured if i gave them to him, he'd indulge for once. standard stocking chocolates were also given.
i got Naku a DVD of all Wierd Al's music videos up through the Saga Begins, from a few years ago. it does not in fact include the video for White and Nerdy. she got me the boo plushie. which is soo cute! i keep mooshing it against my face. xD i am a ginormous Mario dork (though i prefer Luigi), and Boos are the best! Kyu got her the Hellboy Companion book, and she gave him a Superman S shield wristband, which he really likes. standard stocking chocolates were also given, with a BPRD logo (from Hellboy) tee and a selection of brown pencils for sketching. brown is one of her signature colours, and she's a great artist, so we were being encouraging. go us! xD
i got James a set of Oh My Goddess figures in their Battlesuits, which he's been looking for for ages. he gave me LEGO Batman. i adore it beyond words. Kyu got him a movie. i dunno what movie, something with John Woo? anyhow, he seemed to like it. xD he got Kyu the Complete Blue Seed anime. awesometastic! standard stocking chocolates were also given, along with a bottle of scald-your-face-off hot sauce and a tee shirt with a dragon design on it.
poor mom got nothing but the joy of spending time with us.. and watching Roro be goofy all hopped up on cold medication. xD don't feel bad for her though, she knows what she's getting for her birthday, and it is super awesome! xD
tonight Kyu and i head off to his grandpa's for Christmas 2! xD i'm trying to convince him to let me bring the XBox so i can play more LEGO Batman, but i still need to do some convincing. xD i really wish our second controller worked so we could do co-op play. xD when we get to that point, it shall be EPIC WIN!! xD i may buy myself a pretty rechargable other-coloured controller soon and let Kyu play with his standard boring one. i bought an off-brand one with a cord so i wouldn't have to deal with batteries at all, but it died before too long. i'll go with the real thing this time, i think.
i'm totally thinking of Annie as my biggest present, half from Kyu and half from myself, and for me Christmas won't be over until i've opened her. xD i do think LEGO Batman may just be almost as awesome though. ..i'll likely rescind that opinion once i have her and i'm all "SOOOOOO PRETTY!!!" xD *ker-flaky* at this point the impatience has dulled my thrill to the drgree that a game can catch up to it.. when she's here, i won't be impatient anymore, so she will likely eclipse my LEGO Batman high and reign supreme as the ULTIMATE CHRISTMAS GIFT! i just can't wait to hold my baby!! *ker-whine*
Friday, December 26, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Annie is coming home!
song+ none, my betteries are dead
book+ nothing
scent+ dust and comics
quest+saving $400 in 2 1/2 weeks
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, WW volunteer tee, and a pilferd hoodie that used to be James'
drink+ nothing currently
so this morning i finally got my shipping notice from DOD! Annie is on her way home after a 12 week wait to the day. does anyone know how to use a korean tracking number on the usps site? xD i only have this: em 909 168 705kr to go on. and i can't get it to work, but i know there's a trick to use, since i used it years ago when we ordered the others.. i just can't remember the trick. xD
i'm just so happy she's finally coming home! there's no chance of her being here for CHristmas (unless the Post Elves work a 2-day miracle) but she should be here for New Year's, i think, and i can be happy with that. hopefully my clothes order for later this month will arrive with considerably more expediency. xD i'm expecting a slight delay for production of the limited Elf Sha heads, but otherwise i figure it should fall somewhere around the 1 month point.
i think i've figured out a semi-definitive wishlist purchase order plan. the timelines are a bit looser than i'd hoped, but that pesky reality thing keeps rearing it's head and delaying my saving. X.x my plan is now DOB Arie (shepherdess/sheep combo for mom) by the end of February, DOB Libra (ChibiNeko) +extra body(little Arisma for my boss) by the end of April, DOT Shall (Xavin!!) ordered with my tax refund as soon as it hits, and MiniFee Lishe (Irish Noelle) and Miyu (Klara Prast) -probably through Denverdoll- as soon as i can afford to do the layaway payments. i may buy them outright, but i think i'd rather do layaway so i can space it out a little. kyu wants to have his Narshe (Chloe) ordered by March 15th, so he's working out a saving plan for that.
but yeah, i'm pretty much over the moon that Anastasia is finally coming home to me! yay and a half! xD i'm gonna have to get fresh batteries for my camera so i can take a bunch of arrival photos! sometime in the new year i'll have to get together with my friend who ordered a matching Normal Skin Kalix (named Richter) so we can take 'aren't they cute together?' pics and fix their faceups and manicures. xD ..there's speculation that to get the orders out DOD skimped on the sealing they usually do. it's okay though, because it'll make it easier to do the small alterations we both wanted anyway. xD
book+ nothing
scent+ dust and comics
quest+saving $400 in 2 1/2 weeks
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, WW volunteer tee, and a pilferd hoodie that used to be James'
drink+ nothing currently
so this morning i finally got my shipping notice from DOD! Annie is on her way home after a 12 week wait to the day. does anyone know how to use a korean tracking number on the usps site? xD i only have this: em 909 168 705kr to go on. and i can't get it to work, but i know there's a trick to use, since i used it years ago when we ordered the others.. i just can't remember the trick. xD
i'm just so happy she's finally coming home! there's no chance of her being here for CHristmas (unless the Post Elves work a 2-day miracle) but she should be here for New Year's, i think, and i can be happy with that. hopefully my clothes order for later this month will arrive with considerably more expediency. xD i'm expecting a slight delay for production of the limited Elf Sha heads, but otherwise i figure it should fall somewhere around the 1 month point.
i think i've figured out a semi-definitive wishlist purchase order plan. the timelines are a bit looser than i'd hoped, but that pesky reality thing keeps rearing it's head and delaying my saving. X.x my plan is now DOB Arie (shepherdess/sheep combo for mom) by the end of February, DOB Libra (ChibiNeko) +extra body(little Arisma for my boss) by the end of April, DOT Shall (Xavin!!) ordered with my tax refund as soon as it hits, and MiniFee Lishe (Irish Noelle) and Miyu (Klara Prast) -probably through Denverdoll- as soon as i can afford to do the layaway payments. i may buy them outright, but i think i'd rather do layaway so i can space it out a little. kyu wants to have his Narshe (Chloe) ordered by March 15th, so he's working out a saving plan for that.
but yeah, i'm pretty much over the moon that Anastasia is finally coming home to me! yay and a half! xD i'm gonna have to get fresh batteries for my camera so i can take a bunch of arrival photos! sometime in the new year i'll have to get together with my friend who ordered a matching Normal Skin Kalix (named Richter) so we can take 'aren't they cute together?' pics and fix their faceups and manicures. xD ..there's speculation that to get the orders out DOD skimped on the sealing they usually do. it's okay though, because it'll make it easier to do the small alterations we both wanted anyway. xD
Thursday, December 18, 2008
insecurity, i suppose
song+ Wicked soundtrack
book+ the Pagan Stone
scent+ peach and soap and floral lotion
quest+saving $400 in 2 1/2 weeks
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, and a black supergirl tee
drink+ nothing currently
it's been a while, i know. still no word on the shipping of my Delphine, i just want my Annie home. it's been about 3 months now. waiting this long really sucks.
i have my Christmas shopping all done and wrapped, sitting under the tree. it's a delightfully ghetto tree, but it's out first tree on our own, so we love it. James and Naku should be coming over for Christmas at our place, other than stocking stuffers to be purchased this weekend, we're done.
the bulk of my money for the next few weeks will go to trying to qualify for the DOD Christmas event. X.x that means my semi-secret not-so-stealthy project will have to wait a bit longer.. maybe the end of January or beginning of February. it's still next on my list, but other things came up. i think mom will understand though, since it's still gonna happen.
at this point i'm trying not to think about all the things that are making me excited or nervous, but i can't manage to completely clear my mind at any point in the day. X.x no wonder i'm not sleeping well. part of me is terrified that i'll never feel like a mature, responsible adult. X.x i don't want to feel old and boring, but i'd rather not feel like i'm only pretending to be in control of myself and my life.
i've been thinking about looking for another job. i still like my job a lot of the time, and i like a lot of the people i work with, but i know it's not the best place fer me, as it's way too easy to blow all my money on things i see here. i don't feel like i'm growing anymore and i want to be somewhere else before i feel like i'm stagnating. i'm not saying i'm gonna quit tomorrow or anything, i'm not even actively looking for anything else, just keeping myself open to possibilities. my biggest frustration with my current job is that i'm not paid anything near what i'm worth. i work too hard to make so little. i may be materialistic and needy, as i'm not having any trouble surviving, but i want a buffer of emergency spendability. i don't have that now.
i want to grow up a little, so i can have more fun. i want to do better, have better, be better. i think i want to look into what it would take to do costume design and have someone with some drive help me follow through. a good bit of my procrastinatory tendancies are rooted in my fear of failure, it's harder to fail if you never finish, and therefore can't be judged.
i want my wings. i know that getting a tattoo that will cover about a third of my back isn't exactly conducive to the growing up and possibly getting a better job, but it's something i've wanted almost all my life. something i've planned for for a long time. i think i'm ready to find a parlor that feels safe and look into getting it done already. i know that it's probably not something that most people would encourage me to do, but i'm gonna. i'd like to have it done by my birthday this year in fact. i'll probably get my star first as it'll be a good deal smaller and better for breaking through the fear of being jabbed repeatedly by a stranger. xD
i feel stagnant and disssatisfied, and logically i shouldn't when there's so much going on around me. X.x i want more. i'm not sure what of just yet, but i know i'll figure it out.
i'm happy living where i am, just me and Kyu. we needed it, we were ready, and it's done wonders for both of us. it's a little crowded, but getting about four rooms worth of stuff into a one bedroom loft isn't easy. xD we've both gotten rid of a lot of junk we were only keeping out of sentimentality, and we've done okay not-replacing it with new junk. i've even substantially cut back on my comics. they take up a ton of room, so i'm mostly switching to trades and hardcovers. cheaper in the long run and more space efficient, as i already have bookshelves. xD you can fit a lot more story on a shelf than in a comic longbox.
i'm anxous because i still feel like something big is coming up. it's right on the horizon, but i can't see what it is for the life of me. i've been saying that for months and bir things HAVE happened; Dad's strokes, moving to our own place, probably the best WWTx ever, ordering Annie, but none of those BIG things were THE big thing i've been sensing. every time i thought to myself "maybe this is it?" but i still feel it, something's coming and it's driving me crazy not-knowing, but being so close to it. i can tell i'm close.. almost there, but not enough, it sucks.
book+ the Pagan Stone
scent+ peach and soap and floral lotion
quest+saving $400 in 2 1/2 weeks
upper+ i totally think i can do it!
downer+ i won't have any me-money till spring X.x
attire+ jeans, old sneakers, and a black supergirl tee
drink+ nothing currently
it's been a while, i know. still no word on the shipping of my Delphine, i just want my Annie home. it's been about 3 months now. waiting this long really sucks.
the bulk of my money for the next few weeks will go to trying to qualify for the DOD Christmas event. X.x that means my semi-secret not-so-stealthy project will have to wait a bit longer.. maybe the end of January or beginning of February. it's still next on my list, but other things came up. i think mom will understand though, since it's still gonna happen.
at this point i'm trying not to think about all the things that are making me excited or nervous, but i can't manage to completely clear my mind at any point in the day. X.x no wonder i'm not sleeping well. part of me is terrified that i'll never feel like a mature, responsible adult. X.x i don't want to feel old and boring, but i'd rather not feel like i'm only pretending to be in control of myself and my life.
i've been thinking about looking for another job. i still like my job a lot of the time, and i like a lot of the people i work with, but i know it's not the best place fer me, as it's way too easy to blow all my money on things i see here. i don't feel like i'm growing anymore and i want to be somewhere else before i feel like i'm stagnating. i'm not saying i'm gonna quit tomorrow or anything, i'm not even actively looking for anything else, just keeping myself open to possibilities. my biggest frustration with my current job is that i'm not paid anything near what i'm worth. i work too hard to make so little. i may be materialistic and needy, as i'm not having any trouble surviving, but i want a buffer of emergency spendability. i don't have that now.
i want to grow up a little, so i can have more fun. i want to do better, have better, be better. i think i want to look into what it would take to do costume design and have someone with some drive help me follow through. a good bit of my procrastinatory tendancies are rooted in my fear of failure, it's harder to fail if you never finish, and therefore can't be judged.
i want my wings. i know that getting a tattoo that will cover about a third of my back isn't exactly conducive to the growing up and possibly getting a better job, but it's something i've wanted almost all my life. something i've planned for for a long time. i think i'm ready to find a parlor that feels safe and look into getting it done already. i know that it's probably not something that most people would encourage me to do, but i'm gonna. i'd like to have it done by my birthday this year in fact. i'll probably get my star first as it'll be a good deal smaller and better for breaking through the fear of being jabbed repeatedly by a stranger. xD
i feel stagnant and disssatisfied, and logically i shouldn't when there's so much going on around me. X.x i want more. i'm not sure what of just yet, but i know i'll figure it out.
i'm anxous because i still feel like something big is coming up. it's right on the horizon, but i can't see what it is for the life of me. i've been saying that for months and bir things HAVE happened; Dad's strokes, moving to our own place, probably the best WWTx ever, ordering Annie, but none of those BIG things were THE big thing i've been sensing. every time i thought to myself "maybe this is it?" but i still feel it, something's coming and it's driving me crazy not-knowing, but being so close to it. i can tell i'm close.. almost there, but not enough, it sucks.
Friday, December 5, 2008
dollish rambling
song+ Gimme Gimme Gimme- Mamma Mia the Movie Soundtrack
book+ Fables Covers! it's so nice
scent+ cigarette smoke and kittens. X.x
quest+taking care of christmas shopping
upper+ only a few people to shop for this year
downer+ i need $300+ to spend on DOD this December to get the event head *waaaaaaant*
attire+ stripey pajamas and kyu's hoodie over it
drink+ nothing currently
still no word on Delphine's shipping. X.x i'm at 10 weeks on my wait, but i finally know what her name is! she is (Grand Duchess) Anastasia Nikolaevna Romanova, Annie to those that she loves and trusts. i am so beyond ready to have her come home to me! to keep from going too crazy while i wait, i've been thinking about who i'm getting next, and when, so i thought i'd share.
next up is the stealth project. i'd talk about it, but that wouldn't be very stealthy would it? xD on the upside there's a small chance that my stealthy-ness could get me great deals on other things due to DOD's Christmas event! whoo! here's hoping!
at or around the time i'm being stealthy, i 'm hoping we can order Kyu's Narsha. at least, i'm hoping to have her ordered by then, his self-imposed deadline is March. for me, the earlier the better.
i'm ordering Shall to turn into Xavin with my tax refund no matter what. that'll be sometime between February and April. xD nice and vague, huh? i'm e-filing, and this year i plan to use the right information to hopefully get my money sooner.
as soon as my Christmas shopping is done, i'll be saving for my share of NY Dolpa registration and funds for spending at the con itself too. this is around all these other things, obviously.
worked in somewhere around the registration, but after Xavin, i'll tentatively be ordering myself and my boss a DOB Libra(girl) set, with two sets of magnetic kitty ears (one set for each of us) and an extra girl body. i'll be keeping the awake face, she'll be my ChibiNeko. Jacinda will get the sleepy face, we're gonna mod the eyes a bit more open and turn it into her FFIX character, who happens to be a kittyish person-thing. xD i'm gonna have lots of fun doing the facial markings and stuff. i plan on making her red mage costume, and maybe a few others too, and she's gonna dress it up and take pics for all her online friends. xD again, this isn't absolutely set in stone, but we're both really excited about it.
at some point i'd still like to do a FCS doll through Volks, but that's a long way away. in the dreaming department, i'm also looking for a smaller mini to turn into Klara from runaways to go with my Xavin. Bea is around 43cm, and i want Klara to be smaller, and to be able to pass for a young russian girl. i'm thinking someone about the size of Roro's little juniors, but i'll have to look and see if i like any of their girl faces. for now she's behind everyone else on the list, so i'm not looking too hard yet.
book+ Fables Covers! it's so nice
scent+ cigarette smoke and kittens. X.x
quest+taking care of christmas shopping
upper+ only a few people to shop for this year
downer+ i need $300+ to spend on DOD this December to get the event head *waaaaaaant*
attire+ stripey pajamas and kyu's hoodie over it
drink+ nothing currently
still no word on Delphine's shipping. X.x i'm at 10 weeks on my wait, but i finally know what her name is! she is (Grand Duchess) Anastasia Nikolaevna Romanova, Annie to those that she loves and trusts. i am so beyond ready to have her come home to me! to keep from going too crazy while i wait, i've been thinking about who i'm getting next, and when, so i thought i'd share.
at or around the time i'm being stealthy, i
i'm ordering Shall to turn into Xavin with my tax refund no matter what. that'll be sometime between February and April. xD nice and vague, huh? i'm e-filing, and this year i plan to use the right information to hopefully get my money sooner.
as soon as my Christmas shopping is done, i'll be saving for my share of NY Dolpa registration and funds for spending at the con itself too. this is around all these other things, obviously.
worked in somewhere around the registration, but after Xavin, i'll tentatively be ordering myself and my boss a DOB Libra(girl) set, with two sets of magnetic kitty ears (one set for each of us) and an extra girl body. i'll be keeping the awake face, she'll be my ChibiNeko. Jacinda will get the sleepy face, we're gonna mod the eyes a bit more open and turn it into her FFIX character, who happens to be a kittyish person-thing. xD i'm gonna have lots of fun doing the facial markings and stuff. i plan on making her red mage costume, and maybe a few others too, and she's gonna dress it up and take pics for all her online friends. xD again, this isn't absolutely set in stone, but we're both really excited about it.
at some point i'd still like to do a FCS doll through Volks, but that's a long way away. in the dreaming department, i'm also looking for a smaller mini to turn into Klara from runaways to go with my Xavin. Bea is around 43cm, and i want Klara to be smaller, and to be able to pass for a young russian girl. i'm thinking someone about the size of Roro's little juniors, but i'll have to look and see if i like any of their girl faces. for now she's behind everyone else on the list, so i'm not looking too hard yet.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
8 things
song+ Without Love- Hairspray Movie Soundtrack
book+ Fables Covers
scent+ dust and oreos
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i'm almost caught up!
downer+ i still have about $200 to go
attire+ jeans and a Wonder Woman tee
drink+ water. yay water.
8 Things tagged by Jenni
8 Favorite TV Shows(In no particular order)
How I Met Your Mother
Americas Next Top Model
Big Bang Theory
the Mentalist
CSI NY
Criminal Minds
Wheel of Fortune
Without A Trace
8 Things I Did Yesterday
woke up
ate breakfast
walked to work
worked
walked home
watched ANTM
looked up cycle 11 standings for ANTM on wikipedia
went to bed
8 Things to Look Forward to
getting my Delphine
weekends
friday paychecks!
my secret new year's project
ordering Xavin
going to NY Dolpa with Roro
reading my new Fables Covers Art of James Jean book
sleeping
8 Favorite Restaurants
taco bueno
milano's italian
chipotle
subway
..i think that's it. i used to list bennigan's though
8 Things on My Wish List (to someday accomplish)
Delphine!
Xavin
secret new year's project
my F2bM wishlist before it all gets discontinued
enough money for Dolpa next summer
an eventual dolly mini-me. i'm still thinking about it
an excess of money
a vacation
8 People I Tag
i don't know 8 people that haven't done it. xD
book+ Fables Covers
scent+ dust and oreos
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i'm almost caught up!
downer+ i still have about $200 to go
attire+ jeans and a Wonder Woman tee
drink+ water. yay water.
8 Things tagged by Jenni
8 Favorite TV Shows(In no particular order)
How I Met Your Mother
Americas Next Top Model
Big Bang Theory
the Mentalist
CSI NY
Criminal Minds
Wheel of Fortune
Without A Trace
8 Things I Did Yesterday
woke up
ate breakfast
walked to work
worked
walked home
watched ANTM
looked up cycle 11 standings for ANTM on wikipedia
went to bed
8 Things to Look Forward to
getting my Delphine
weekends
friday paychecks!
my secret new year's project
ordering Xavin
going to NY Dolpa with Roro
reading my new Fables Covers Art of James Jean book
sleeping
8 Favorite Restaurants
taco bueno
milano's italian
chipotle
subway
..i think that's it. i used to list bennigan's though
8 Things on My Wish List (to someday accomplish)
Delphine!
Xavin
secret new year's project
my F2bM wishlist before it all gets discontinued
enough money for Dolpa next summer
an eventual dolly mini-me. i'm still thinking about it
an excess of money
a vacation
8 People I Tag
i don't know 8 people that haven't done it. xD
Friday, October 31, 2008
cute little monster
song+ Silence- Sarah McLachlan- Remixed
book+ november previews
scent+ french bread
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i'm already off for the day
downer+ kyu won't be off for another hour at least
attire+ pajamas, house slippers, kitty ears and tail
drink+ water. yay water.
roro did it first.
also, even better than being a housecat, Staci guessed i was "the cat's pajamas" xD that's so much better!
book+ november previews
scent+ french bread
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i'm already off for the day
downer+ kyu won't be off for another hour at least
attire+ pajamas, house slippers, kitty ears and tail
drink+ water. yay water.
roro did it first.
| What Your Cute Monster Says About You |
 You are a very natural, real person. You're comfortable with who you are - and your spirit truly shines through. You are free of inhibitions and hang ups. Because of this freedom, you tend to be very creative. Your inner demon is greed. You can't help but lust after wealth and shiny objects. People think you're cute because you are so lively. Your natural glow makes you charming. |
also, even better than being a housecat, Staci guessed i was "the cat's pajamas" xD that's so much better!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
i'm booooooored
song+ nothing. i left my ipod at home
book+ november previews
scent+ dusty comics
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i know what costume i'm wearing to work tomorrow
downer+ i can't get overtime. it would be nice.
attire+ grey tinkerbell tee and jeans
drink+ water. yay water.
it's almost hallowe'en. i have my costume figured out, i'm gonna wear my pajamas, house slippers and kitteh ears and tail. i'll be a housecat! xD ..shut up, it's awesome.
DOD is starting to fall behind on delivering. they're still on the orders payed Sep 12. on the upside, that was the heaviest ordering day, so once they finish, they should breeze through the other days up to the 30th. i payed the 29th, so i'll be one of the last shipped, but i've been counting on a longer wait since the beginning. i should still have her by Thanksgiving, i think. i really need to get saving so i can order the next doll on my list. i'd like to have the funds to order Xavin (and everything for her customization) by the end of February. that's coming up pretty soon, really. especially when you consider there are so many other things that are higher priority.
so far this week i've racked up 2 hours of overtime. as being payed overtime isn't currently in the budget, i've been informed i get to clock out around 4 tomorrow. yeah it's an early start to hallowe'en, but i won't be doing anything and kyu will still be working, so essentially i'll be not-paid to sit around bored for 2 hours. sounds awesome. not. X.x
i really need to do something creative soon, i'm getting bored. i was undertaking the task of taking in all the storebought doll clothes that i got for Bea that were too big, but i'm through the shirts, and i can't let out the skirts until i find my seam ripper. i want something more creative.. like when i did the finger separation on the kids, that was fun and absorbing. it only took a few hours though, i need something that'll take longer, but not so long i walk away without finishing it.
i want to get better thread for my sewing machine, and i want to try a handful of doll-related crafts i've seen. the big obstacle to doing these fun things is that i'm sorely lacking in funds, and budgeted strictly through the new year. even cheap fun is too pricey for me lately. i hate being broke.
book+ november previews
scent+ dusty comics
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i know what costume i'm wearing to work tomorrow
downer+ i can't get overtime. it would be nice.
attire+ grey tinkerbell tee and jeans
drink+ water. yay water.
it's almost hallowe'en. i have my costume figured out, i'm gonna wear my pajamas, house slippers and kitteh ears and tail. i'll be a housecat! xD ..shut up, it's awesome.
DOD is starting to fall behind on delivering. they're still on the orders payed Sep 12. on the upside, that was the heaviest ordering day, so once they finish, they should breeze through the other days up to the 30th. i payed the 29th, so i'll be one of the last shipped, but i've been counting on a longer wait since the beginning. i should still have her by Thanksgiving, i think. i really need to get saving so i can order the next doll on my list. i'd like to have the funds to order Xavin (and everything for her customization) by the end of February. that's coming up pretty soon, really. especially when you consider there are so many other things that are higher priority.
so far this week i've racked up 2 hours of overtime. as being payed overtime isn't currently in the budget, i've been informed i get to clock out around 4 tomorrow. yeah it's an early start to hallowe'en, but i won't be doing anything and kyu will still be working, so essentially i'll be not-paid to sit around bored for 2 hours. sounds awesome. not. X.x
i really need to do something creative soon, i'm getting bored. i was undertaking the task of taking in all the storebought doll clothes that i got for Bea that were too big, but i'm through the shirts, and i can't let out the skirts until i find my seam ripper. i want something more creative.. like when i did the finger separation on the kids, that was fun and absorbing. it only took a few hours though, i need something that'll take longer, but not so long i walk away without finishing it.
i want to get better thread for my sewing machine, and i want to try a handful of doll-related crafts i've seen. the big obstacle to doing these fun things is that i'm sorely lacking in funds, and budgeted strictly through the new year. even cheap fun is too pricey for me lately. i hate being broke.
Monday, October 27, 2008
birthday rambling
song+ Hairspray- the movie soundtrack
book+ nothing
scent+ dusty comics
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i had an awesome birthday
downer+ money's still pretty tight
attire+ red and blue rugby tee, jeans
drink+ water. yay water.
i'm at four weeks on my wait for Delphine, and so far DOD is making good on their promise of shipping at the 5 week point. this makes me super excited. Jenni, i'll make sure to tell you and Roro when i get my notice. last time i got the actual package within a week of the notice.
my birthday was awesome, for those who wondered. i left work early and caught a super secret movie of shame with Moose and Roro. xD it was good. we then went home and watched Hairspray, because Roro hadn't ever seen it. it wasn't yet over when Kyu and James got home, so they left with a declaration of "we're going to the store" i called when our movie was over and was told that they were just heading back. when i asked why they took so long i was told they were at the mall. apparetly when they said "store" they meant the really big one with more inside. xD
they got back and before too long Ashley H showed up with her kid. i then watched Roro, Moose, and Ash play wii sports. i laughed a lot. xD cupcakes were enjoyed by all. i spent the rest of the weekend playing my recently acquired copy of Dragon Quest(Warrior) IV. good times. i still love that game as much as i ever did. i'll likely beat it before the week is up. Kyu is next in line to play it. the re-translation is bothering me a little, i know it's likely more accurate now, but i still refer to everything by the old crappy names. xD
book+ nothing
scent+ dusty comics
quest+ catching up on my subs at work
upper+ i had an awesome birthday
downer+ money's still pretty tight
attire+ red and blue rugby tee, jeans
drink+ water. yay water.
i'm at four weeks on my wait for Delphine, and so far DOD is making good on their promise of shipping at the 5 week point. this makes me super excited. Jenni, i'll make sure to tell you and Roro when i get my notice. last time i got the actual package within a week of the notice.
my birthday was awesome, for those who wondered. i left work early and caught a super secret movie of shame with Moose and Roro. xD it was good. we then went home and watched Hairspray, because Roro hadn't ever seen it. it wasn't yet over when Kyu and James got home, so they left with a declaration of "we're going to the store" i called when our movie was over and was told that they were just heading back. when i asked why they took so long i was told they were at the mall. apparetly when they said "store" they meant the really big one with more inside. xD
they got back and before too long Ashley H showed up with her kid. i then watched Roro, Moose, and Ash play wii sports. i laughed a lot. xD cupcakes were enjoyed by all. i spent the rest of the weekend playing my recently acquired copy of Dragon Quest(Warrior) IV. good times. i still love that game as much as i ever did. i'll likely beat it before the week is up. Kyu is next in line to play it. the re-translation is bothering me a little, i know it's likely more accurate now, but i still refer to everything by the old crappy names. xD
Monday, October 13, 2008
drive by posting
song+ Murder- Ashlee Simpson- Bittersweet World
book+ nothing
scent+ dusty comics
quest+ unclogging the thread jam in my sewing machine
upper+ we've settled nicely into the new place
downer+ money's still pretty tight
attire+ glittery Punisher tee and jeans
drink+ water. yay water.
i love the new place. we got the last of the stuff moved this weekend, and we've been unpacking things all along. we're settling in pretty nicely.
Roro spent the weekend here, we had a dolly sleepover and played videogames. xD it was awesome! i'm working on a dress for "Bubbles" currently. well, not at this exact moment, but when i get home i'll un-clog the thread jam in my machine and get back to work on it. it should be supercute when it's done.
i'm still spazzing over the wait period for my Delphine. i'm either halfway there, or one quarter of the way there in regards to a shipping notice. xD i'm so excited for her to come home!
last week i worked on finger and toe separation for the kids already at home. i need to finish up with a super fine-grit sandpaper, but i can't find mine just yet, so it can wait. xD the hands and feet do look a lot more expressive now that they're not one massive blob. i love how it looks now. *ker-happy* xD
that's all for now i guess. still internet-less at home. that should be fixed late this month or early next month. i'll let ya'll know.
book+ nothing
scent+ dusty comics
quest+ unclogging the thread jam in my sewing machine
upper+ we've settled nicely into the new place
downer+ money's still pretty tight
attire+ glittery Punisher tee and jeans
drink+ water. yay water.
i love the new place. we got the last of the stuff moved this weekend, and we've been unpacking things all along. we're settling in pretty nicely.
Roro spent the weekend here, we had a dolly sleepover and played videogames. xD it was awesome! i'm working on a dress for "Bubbles" currently. well, not at this exact moment, but when i get home i'll un-clog the thread jam in my machine and get back to work on it. it should be supercute when it's done.
i'm still spazzing over the wait period for my Delphine. i'm either halfway there, or one quarter of the way there in regards to a shipping notice. xD i'm so excited for her to come home!
last week i worked on finger and toe separation for the kids already at home. i need to finish up with a super fine-grit sandpaper, but i can't find mine just yet, so it can wait. xD the hands and feet do look a lot more expressive now that they're not one massive blob. i love how it looks now. *ker-happy* xD
that's all for now i guess. still internet-less at home. that should be fixed late this month or early next month. i'll let ya'll know.
Monday, October 6, 2008
quick update
song+ Disease- Matchbox 20- More Than You Think You Are
book+ nothing
scent+ rain
quest+ getting throug the day
upper+ the bulk of the moving is done!
attire+ work clothes (we have no internet at home for now)
drink+ water. yay water.
we got most of our stuff moved this weekend. there's still some stuff we forgot and a day or so of cleanup to go. we didn't get all dad's stuff that was "dibs"ed packed away, sorry guys. i also didn't get the stuff of Roro's i had for safekeeping. X.x Lola (the old manager) does know we're not done, so it should all be safe for another week.
the new place is great. we still need to find a home for Zeero, we can't keep him another week. it's just not working. also Harley hates her kennel, but is making slight improvement in her traning. new neighbors are very friendly. it halps that we already knew a lot of them.
i forgot how out of shape i was. the walk to work just about killed me this morning. X.x it'll get better though, it was likely the humidity that was so awful. soon we hope to be riding our bikes to work. easier and faster.
if anyone can help with mucking and cleanup this saturday, please let me know. thanks!
also we're internet-less for the next bit, so posting will be limited to getting to work early, or borrowing the neighbor's computer. calling is a better bet if you need to reach us.
book+ nothing
scent+ rain
quest+ getting throug the day
upper+ the bulk of the moving is done!
attire+ work clothes (we have no internet at home for now)
drink+ water. yay water.
we got most of our stuff moved this weekend. there's still some stuff we forgot and a day or so of cleanup to go. we didn't get all dad's stuff that was "dibs"ed packed away, sorry guys. i also didn't get the stuff of Roro's i had for safekeeping. X.x Lola (the old manager) does know we're not done, so it should all be safe for another week.
the new place is great. we still need to find a home for Zeero, we can't keep him another week. it's just not working. also Harley hates her kennel, but is making slight improvement in her traning. new neighbors are very friendly. it halps that we already knew a lot of them.
i forgot how out of shape i was. the walk to work just about killed me this morning. X.x it'll get better though, it was likely the humidity that was so awful. soon we hope to be riding our bikes to work. easier and faster.
if anyone can help with mucking and cleanup this saturday, please let me know. thanks!
also we're internet-less for the next bit, so posting will be limited to getting to work early, or borrowing the neighbor's computer. calling is a better bet if you need to reach us.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
almost there!
song+ Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog
book+ nothing
scent+ nothing discernable
quest+ SLEEP
upper+juafter that short break, we have to finish here
attire+ sleep stuff
drink+ flat-ish warm-ish Dr Pepper. yum.
so today after work we saw the new place for the first time, and brought our friend mike over to help muck. i packed a little more, and then jenni and bonnie came over and plowed through dad's room. it's way cleaner than i expected it to get this weekend. THANKS GUYS!!
i'm about to go to sleep so i can wake up in a few hours to get started on moving day. by the time i'd taken a shower it was already 12:30. now that my wind-down is about done, i'm gonna get some sleep.
book+ nothing
scent+ nothing discernable
quest+ SLEEP
upper+juafter that short break, we have to finish here
attire+ sleep stuff
drink+ flat-ish warm-ish Dr Pepper. yum.
so today after work we saw the new place for the first time, and brought our friend mike over to help muck. i packed a little more, and then jenni and bonnie came over and plowed through dad's room. it's way cleaner than i expected it to get this weekend. THANKS GUYS!!
i'm about to go to sleep so i can wake up in a few hours to get started on moving day. by the time i'd taken a shower it was already 12:30. now that my wind-down is about done, i'm gonna get some sleep.
Friday, October 3, 2008
moving update: part 4
song+ Miss independant- Kelly Clarkson- Thankful
book+ none being read, several being packed xD
scent+ dust and dad's room smells
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+we're very close to moving day!
downer+we're n ot dome yet
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ root beer
so we got about 10 boxes/bags of stuff packed today, and also got dad's water bed pretty much drained. there's still about a box of books to go, then i'm going to bed. the rest should be finished up easily tomorrow (technically later today though). we'd like to start the moving around 10 saturday morning, hopefully that's good for everyone else. let me know if that absolutely won't work.
book+ none being read, several being packed xD
scent+ dust and dad's room smells
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+we're very close to moving day!
downer+we're n ot dome yet
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ root beer
so we got about 10 boxes/bags of stuff packed today, and also got dad's water bed pretty much drained. there's still about a box of books to go, then i'm going to bed. the rest should be finished up easily tomorrow (technically later today though). we'd like to start the moving around 10 saturday morning, hopefully that's good for everyone else. let me know if that absolutely won't work.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
i have a lot of books
song+ Home- Michael Buble- It's Time
book+ none being read, several being packed xD
scent+ ..salt? that's odd
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+we're very close to moving day!
downer+we're very close to moving day! xD
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ milk
today i got the rest of my statue/action figure/video game/strategy guide bookshelf emptied. i also cleared out the shelf that held my old journals and artbooks of varying types (a few cosplay books, a few volumes of art of various manga, some american comic-related stuff too) i also got some of my more oddly-shaped books packed away as box fillers. xD tomorrow i expect to get my trades and manga and the remains of my (non-illustrated) fiction packed up.
i've been labeling my boxes with semi-helpful hints as to what's inside as i go along, but apparently that makes too much sense, so kyu's not doing that. xD he'll just have to dig through every box he packed until he finds whatever he's looking for later. X.x that'll be fun to deal with. he's got the office mostly done, it should be finished up tomorrow. we still have tons to go through, but we've made good progress and we're still on-track for finishing packing up our stuff in time to move it all saturday.
today was much more packing than cleaning, and it feels really good to be at that point. there's still a lot of stuff to get rid of, but i'm at a much better stuff-to-junk ratio than i was yesterday or monday. i'm running out of places to put my packed boxes though. xD i'll have to figure this out soon, because i already have to crawl over the bed to get to the other side of the room, boxes block the way around. X.x it means we're getting somewhere though, right? i hate packing. i'm fine with the lugging and hauling, and i love unpacking, but putting everything in boxes is awful for me. i'm efficient at it, but i hate to do it. to me it's the worst part of moving by far.
i can't wait to be in the new place though. it'll be awesome to only have to deal with our messes and our stuff.
i'm also super excited about my Delphine order. i've heard rumors that DOD may ship the limiteds as soon as 5 weeks after payment, that would be awesome! (she'd arrive around the second week of November then) whether she ships at 5 weeks or ten (the translation is a little iffy) i expect her some time between my birthday and Christmas. that seems like a large range, but i figure it's better to plan for a longer wait and be pleasantly surprised if i get her sooner. she's just so pretty, i can't wait to play with her and show her off.
book+ none being read, several being packed xD
scent+ ..salt? that's odd
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+we're very close to moving day!
downer+we're very close to moving day! xD
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ milk
today i got the rest of my statue/action figure/video game/strategy guide bookshelf emptied. i also cleared out the shelf that held my old journals and artbooks of varying types (a few cosplay books, a few volumes of art of various manga, some american comic-related stuff too) i also got some of my more oddly-shaped books packed away as box fillers. xD tomorrow i expect to get my trades and manga and the remains of my (non-illustrated) fiction packed up.
i've been labeling my boxes with semi-helpful hints as to what's inside as i go along, but apparently that makes too much sense, so kyu's not doing that. xD he'll just have to dig through every box he packed until he finds whatever he's looking for later. X.x that'll be fun to deal with. he's got the office mostly done, it should be finished up tomorrow. we still have tons to go through, but we've made good progress and we're still on-track for finishing packing up our stuff in time to move it all saturday.
today was much more packing than cleaning, and it feels really good to be at that point. there's still a lot of stuff to get rid of, but i'm at a much better stuff-to-junk ratio than i was yesterday or monday. i'm running out of places to put my packed boxes though. xD i'll have to figure this out soon, because i already have to crawl over the bed to get to the other side of the room, boxes block the way around. X.x it means we're getting somewhere though, right? i hate packing. i'm fine with the lugging and hauling, and i love unpacking, but putting everything in boxes is awful for me. i'm efficient at it, but i hate to do it. to me it's the worst part of moving by far.
i can't wait to be in the new place though. it'll be awesome to only have to deal with our messes and our stuff.
i'm also super excited about my Delphine order. i've heard rumors that DOD may ship the limiteds as soon as 5 weeks after payment, that would be awesome! (she'd arrive around the second week of November then) whether she ships at 5 weeks or ten (the translation is a little iffy) i expect her some time between my birthday and Christmas. that seems like a large range, but i figure it's better to plan for a longer wait and be pleasantly surprised if i get her sooner. she's just so pretty, i can't wait to play with her and show her off.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
making progress
song+ Hotel Lobby- Hikaru Utada- Exodus
book+ nothing currently
scent+ dust. lots of dust
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+i've made visible progress~
downer+ not done yet
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ dr pepper
so today i got a lot more junk thrown out, and i packed my Square Arts action figures and Women of the DC Universe statues. xD that doesn't sound like much, but it really is, it took 3 boxes, each holding somewhere around 10-14 figures.. xD tomorrow i should be ready to pack up the bookshelf with my manga and trades on it! i put it off since i wanted all my books together and i knew there were still several scattered in with other things, i think i've found most of them though, so it'll make kyu happy to see one more obvious thing done tomorrow. he worked on the office today, i dunno how much he got done, but i'm sure it's a good amount.
it really does look like we can manage to have all our stuff ready to go by Saturday. kyu's optimistically thinking that if people help, we can get through dad's stuff too, and give the apartment a final cleaning Sunday. having lived with dad for years, and moved with him several times, that's just not possible. even if all our stuff is 100% done saturday and there's as many as 5 of us going through dad's crap, there's so much of it, it can't be done in a weekend. hell, last time we moved it took us at least 3 days of straight up cleaning to get the place half-decent, and that was with dad helping! he somehow takes the word "slob" to a whole new level.
i've made some cute doll stuff lately, but i packed it in one of the first boxes, so it won't be shown off for a while. xD i did the mature thing and packed the things most likely to distract me first.. except for the computer. xD the dolls are chillin', ready to have their own dedicated space in the new place. i'm looking forward to that too. now they live either on my side of the bed or in my computer chair, where ever i'm not. xD not the best solution, really. xD
book+ nothing currently
scent+ dust. lots of dust
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+i've made visible progress~
downer+ not done yet
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ dr pepper
so today i got a lot more junk thrown out, and i packed my Square Arts action figures and Women of the DC Universe statues. xD that doesn't sound like much, but it really is, it took 3 boxes, each holding somewhere around 10-14 figures.. xD tomorrow i should be ready to pack up the bookshelf with my manga and trades on it! i put it off since i wanted all my books together and i knew there were still several scattered in with other things, i think i've found most of them though, so it'll make kyu happy to see one more obvious thing done tomorrow. he worked on the office today, i dunno how much he got done, but i'm sure it's a good amount.
it really does look like we can manage to have all our stuff ready to go by Saturday. kyu's optimistically thinking that if people help, we can get through dad's stuff too, and give the apartment a final cleaning Sunday. having lived with dad for years, and moved with him several times, that's just not possible. even if all our stuff is 100% done saturday and there's as many as 5 of us going through dad's crap, there's so much of it, it can't be done in a weekend. hell, last time we moved it took us at least 3 days of straight up cleaning to get the place half-decent, and that was with dad helping! he somehow takes the word "slob" to a whole new level.
i've made some cute doll stuff lately, but i packed it in one of the first boxes, so it won't be shown off for a while. xD i did the mature thing and packed the things most likely to distract me first.. except for the computer. xD the dolls are chillin', ready to have their own dedicated space in the new place. i'm looking forward to that too. now they live either on my side of the bed or in my computer chair, where ever i'm not. xD not the best solution, really. xD
update, yo
song+Way Back Into Love (the Drew Barrymore movie Music and Lyrics)
book+Superman/Batman: Supergirl
scent+ dust. lots of dust
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+my payment is confirmed!
downer+ there's so much junk here.. X.x
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ dr pepper
so kyu and i are in the packing and cleaning process currently. we're hoping to have all our stuff ready to move by this saturday. we know going through all dad's stuff will take far longer. we made good progress on our room this weekend though. i'm almost to the point where i can pack up my eightybajillion statues and action figures. xD
i got my payment confirmed e-mail this weekend, which means i now have five to ten weeks to wait until my normal skin Delphine fullset (with two pairs of alternate shoes instead of the boots she's shown with) ships out. i can't wait to get her, she's just so beautiful!
but yeah, thinking saturday for our big moving day, i'll let ya'll know for sure closer to then, in case we need help. xD
book+Superman/Batman: Supergirl
scent+ dust. lots of dust
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+my payment is confirmed!
downer+ there's so much junk here.. X.x
attire+ junk clothes for cleaning
drink+ dr pepper
so kyu and i are in the packing and cleaning process currently. we're hoping to have all our stuff ready to move by this saturday. we know going through all dad's stuff will take far longer. we made good progress on our room this weekend though. i'm almost to the point where i can pack up my eightybajillion statues and action figures. xD
i got my payment confirmed e-mail this weekend, which means i now have five to ten weeks to wait until my normal skin Delphine fullset (with two pairs of alternate shoes instead of the boots she's shown with) ships out. i can't wait to get her, she's just so beautiful!
but yeah, thinking saturday for our big moving day, i'll let ya'll know for sure closer to then, in case we need help. xD
Thursday, September 25, 2008
assorted rambling
song+ Little Miss Obsessive- Ashlee Simpson- Bittersweet World
book+ October Previews
scent+ strawberry toaster strudel
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+i'm paying for Delphine tomorrow
downer+ i'm utterly broke for the next while
attire+ brown summer pajamas
drink+ milk
our lease for the new place is ready to be signed. kyu and i are gonna go by on our lunch break tomorrow to sign it and pick up our key. tonight we're gonna work on getting our office packed, tomorrow and over the weekend we're gonna work on our room. then we'll get to the hard things: all of dad's crap. X.x
hopefully by next weekend we'll be ready to sleep at the new place, as it's much closer to work. then we could just go to the old place to pack and clean every day, but go home to something better. we still need to look into cable and internet providers, then decide on one and get it set up. xD i know we'll be able to afford it, it's part of why we chose this place over the slightly nicer one we were also looking into. i'd rather not be cut off from everything for a month while we wait for things to be worked out, being internet-less sucks.
tomorrow Wolfie is taking care of the stuff that needs to be done to get the car street legal again. namely the tags and registration, i think. tomorrow i'll pay for my Delphine order. i'm so happy i'll be getting her! i've already talked to Jenni, and Delphine will ship to her house and not our place. this is because any package worth this much needs to be signed for. we don't really know the management of our new place yet, and if they'd be willing to sign at all. Jenni also lives close enough to the post office that if for some reason no one is home to sign, it's not a half-hour trip to pick the package up. also i trust her. xD that's not an afterthought, i figured it'd be obvious enough on it's own..
i'm going crazy trying to figure out how i wanna lay out the new place. i haven't seen the upstairs part of our floorplan, so i have no idea where to even start. i figure i know what'll go downstairs, but i can't be sure until i know what'll fit upstairs. fo those who don't know, we got a one-bedroom two-floor apartment. living room/kitchen downstairs, bedroom/potty and i dunno what else upstairs. xD knowing would help me freak out a little less in my obsessive planning. i know it's not all up to me, as i won't be living there alone, but it's easier to get kyu to voice his opinion when i can give him options and say "which of these do you like more? okay, what do you want to change about it?" he hates not being asked, but getting him to offer an opinion is like pulling teeth.
in the new place we're gonna work more to get Harley trained (since there won't be anyone un-training her while we're gone during the day) so we can keep it cleaner. we might also employ the use of a baby gate to keep her downstairs, we have yet to decide on that one.
in things unrelated to anything else (well, tangentially related to doll stuff, but ya'll know what i mean) it's been really nice having Roro home again. it's good to know that if i wanna talk, i can, if i wanna visit, i can. this is dependent on previous commitments, but far better than being in different timezones limited by job schedules and the prohibitive cost of plane tickets. X.x i know you miss your other friends, Roro, but i'm here for you. i promise.
in attempting to be a responsible adult, i've got my checks pretty much budgeted all the way through christmas. X.x there's a small margin allowing for spurts of OLS, but most of my spending is planned out. x amount going to rent, y to savings, etc. it should make things easier for the first few months in the new place, and keep things easier for a while thereafter. in the same attempt at grownuptitude (which should totally be a word) i'm working on clearing out some of my accumulated crap. i get severe pack-rattiness from both mom and dad, and i've been working on controlling it, but i slipped up for a while and now have a lot of stuff. like, more than will likely fit in the new place with us. some i'm definitely keeping, but i'm gonna ruthlessly weed out the stuff that i don't honestly care about anymore but still have. it's scary to think about, but i'm sure it'll make things better for both me and kyu. i think he's gonna get rid of some of his stuff too, but since he has less in the first place, it'll be easier for him. xD
i can't wait till i have time and space to work on stuff for the dolls again. it'll be nice to be able to reach my sewing machine without having to push past all my other stuff.
book+ October Previews
scent+ strawberry toaster strudel
quest+ getting everything packed up
upper+i'm paying for Delphine tomorrow
downer+ i'm utterly broke for the next while
attire+ brown summer pajamas
drink+ milk
our lease for the new place is ready to be signed. kyu and i are gonna go by on our lunch break tomorrow to sign it and pick up our key. tonight we're gonna work on getting our office packed, tomorrow and over the weekend we're gonna work on our room. then we'll get to the hard things: all of dad's crap. X.x
hopefully by next weekend we'll be ready to sleep at the new place, as it's much closer to work. then we could just go to the old place to pack and clean every day, but go home to something better. we still need to look into cable and internet providers, then decide on one and get it set up. xD i know we'll be able to afford it, it's part of why we chose this place over the slightly nicer one we were also looking into. i'd rather not be cut off from everything for a month while we wait for things to be worked out, being internet-less sucks.
tomorrow Wolfie is taking care of the stuff that needs to be done to get the car street legal again. namely the tags and registration, i think. tomorrow i'll pay for my Delphine order. i'm so happy i'll be getting her! i've already talked to Jenni, and Delphine will ship to her house and not our place. this is because any package worth this much needs to be signed for. we don't really know the management of our new place yet, and if they'd be willing to sign at all. Jenni also lives close enough to the post office that if for some reason no one is home to sign, it's not a half-hour trip to pick the package up. also i trust her. xD that's not an afterthought, i figured it'd be obvious enough on it's own..
i'm going crazy trying to figure out how i wanna lay out the new place. i haven't seen the upstairs part of our floorplan, so i have no idea where to even start. i figure i know what'll go downstairs, but i can't be sure until i know what'll fit upstairs. fo those who don't know, we got a one-bedroom two-floor apartment. living room/kitchen downstairs, bedroom/potty and i dunno what else upstairs. xD knowing would help me freak out a little less in my obsessive planning. i know it's not all up to me, as i won't be living there alone, but it's easier to get kyu to voice his opinion when i can give him options and say "which of these do you like more? okay, what do you want to change about it?" he hates not being asked, but getting him to offer an opinion is like pulling teeth.
in the new place we're gonna work more to get Harley trained (since there won't be anyone un-training her while we're gone during the day) so we can keep it cleaner. we might also employ the use of a baby gate to keep her downstairs, we have yet to decide on that one.
in things unrelated to anything else (well, tangentially related to doll stuff, but ya'll know what i mean) it's been really nice having Roro home again. it's good to know that if i wanna talk, i can, if i wanna visit, i can. this is dependent on previous commitments, but far better than being in different timezones limited by job schedules and the prohibitive cost of plane tickets. X.x i know you miss your other friends, Roro, but i'm here for you. i promise.
in attempting to be a responsible adult, i've got my checks pretty much budgeted all the way through christmas. X.x there's a small margin allowing for spurts of OLS, but most of my spending is planned out. x amount going to rent, y to savings, etc. it should make things easier for the first few months in the new place, and keep things easier for a while thereafter. in the same attempt at grownuptitude (which should totally be a word) i'm working on clearing out some of my accumulated crap. i get severe pack-rattiness from both mom and dad, and i've been working on controlling it, but i slipped up for a while and now have a lot of stuff. like, more than will likely fit in the new place with us. some i'm definitely keeping, but i'm gonna ruthlessly weed out the stuff that i don't honestly care about anymore but still have. it's scary to think about, but i'm sure it'll make things better for both me and kyu. i think he's gonna get rid of some of his stuff too, but since he has less in the first place, it'll be easier for him. xD
i can't wait till i have time and space to work on stuff for the dolls again. it'll be nice to be able to reach my sewing machine without having to push past all my other stuff.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Delphine is a Wonderous Thing
song+ All the Love In the World- the Corrs- In Blue
book+ nothing currently
scent+ dr pepper and ranch dip
quest+ finding a way to get Delphine
upper+ she's so gorgeous!!
downer+ i won't know if i can afford her for several days
attire+ minimalist pajamas
drink+ dr pepper
i fell in love today.
seriously, i found the most beautifully gorgeous doll today and i want her so much. it's more like a need, she's all i've thought about for the last several hours.
she's a limited edition. only available for ordering until 12a.m , Sept. 30 (Korean time) and she comes with this amazing outfit, in three skintones. the grey pictured, a white as pale as paper, and the pinkish tone the regular dolls come in.
all the official images are of the grey, so i did this
photo manipulation to give a general idea of how the normal skin might look. it's still on the grey side, but you get the general idea, i think. if it turns out that i can order her, i'm going for the normal tone. i hope her makeup is still the silvery tone shown on her eyes, and i love the pale pink blushing. also, i'm not positive, but the lips look vaguely brownish on the grey skin, which i think is lovely. i waaaaaant! *whines*
she's an elven vampire, which is normally so not my thing, but look! not oddly creepy with foot-long ears or super obvious fangs. everything about her just seems so perfect to me. i'm lovestruck, for serious. X.x
i don't even know what i'd call her, or anything about how she'd act, because i don't want to get my hopes up too high in case things don't work out. i don't know what i'll do though if things don't work out. X.x
she's just soo gorgeous! i love her face and her perfectly manicured hands. her dress though, that's the best part by far. it's amazing. this dress is freakin epic. how could i not love this dress?
book+ nothing currently
scent+ dr pepper and ranch dip
quest+ finding a way to get Delphine
upper+ she's so gorgeous!!
downer+ i won't know if i can afford her for several days
attire+ minimalist pajamas
drink+ dr pepper
i fell in love today.seriously, i found the most beautifully gorgeous doll today and i want her so much. it's more like a need, she's all i've thought about for the last several hours.
she's a limited edition. only available for ordering until 12a.m , Sept. 30 (Korean time) and she comes with this amazing outfit, in three skintones. the grey pictured, a white as pale as paper, and the pinkish tone the regular dolls come in.
all the official images are of the grey, so i did this
photo manipulation to give a general idea of how the normal skin might look. it's still on the grey side, but you get the general idea, i think. if it turns out that i can order her, i'm going for the normal tone. i hope her makeup is still the silvery tone shown on her eyes, and i love the pale pink blushing. also, i'm not positive, but the lips look vaguely brownish on the grey skin, which i think is lovely. i waaaaaant! *whines*she's an elven vampire, which is normally so not my thing, but look! not oddly creepy with foot-long ears or super obvious fangs. everything about her just seems so perfect to me. i'm lovestruck, for serious. X.x
i don't even know what i'd call her, or anything about how she'd act, because i don't want to get my hopes up too high in case things don't work out. i don't know what i'll do though if things don't work out. X.x
she's just soo gorgeous! i love her face and her perfectly manicured hands. her dress though, that's the best part by far. it's amazing. this dress is freakin epic. how could i not love this dress?
Thursday, September 11, 2008
avoidance, hurrah!
song+ All That I Am- Rob Thomas- Something To Be
book+ nothing currently
scent+ dusty comics?
quest+ getting apartment forms filled out and turned in
upper+ the bunny on my desk has people-legs sticking out of his mouth and that makes me smile
downer+ i should think that was rather apparent
attire+ dark wash jeans, tinkerbell tee, sneakers
drink+ dr pepper
so i know i've been slacking lately, but i think it's kinda understandable. to quote something i said to Roro a week or two ago, to deal with stress i do a combo of mood eating, internalizing into tummy issues, avoidance, and lashing out at people who don't deserve it. that's totally healthy, right? xD i'm not gonna post about dad's stroke here, because at this point everyone has either posted about it or read about it elsewhere.
speaking of Roro, it's great having all of us together again, even if it's only been a day and the novelty hasn't worn off yet. xD i look forward to being able to see everyone under cheerier circumstances soon. we haven't filled out or turned in the applications for the new apartment yet, but even so, kyu and i are tentatively planning on being moved by my birthday. it should be rather obvious we plan on keeping the new place considerably cleaner, so i look forward to having everyone over. i've been really (understandably) tired lately and i'm taking tomorrow (friday) off PTO, but with the move approaching i was thinking of holding off on that till i knew exactly what was going on. after i fell asleep during lunch and nearly ended up with my face in my macaroni, i decided that i needed a day off for sure..
i tend to take the friday of Wizard World off too, so i try to think about the vacation time i have in total while i schedule this stuff. i'm going to WWTx again this year, but i dunno if i'll go friday or if i'll just limit myself to saturday and sunday. i know what costumes i'd like to have done, but i dunno if i can afford them, so i may just work on improving the ones i've already done. fixing the things i ran out of time on. there's also two costumes i got the stuff for last year so Moose could dress up, but i abandoned them when i discovered she wouldn't be able to go after all. i can finish those this year for whenever she can wear them, and i can feel awesome and stuff. xD
i realized i've been using my ipod pretty heavily for music therapy this week. usually i charge it once or twice a month, since i listen a little on tuesday and wednesday, but not much beyond that. this week i've had to charge it twice, and my phone an extra time too. xD i know for other people charging a phone more than once a week is normal, but i use it for its calculator feature more than i call people. xD i've never been a phone-friendly person.
this weekend should be fun though, there's a tentative plan to have James and Naku over friday to visit with Roro. i dunno what we're gonna do, but there's a good chance we'll eat the frozen lasagna in the freezer. maybe mess with some Sims2 stuff, but that's more a solitary thing than something for three people to be messing with.. especially since mine's abnormally laggy. xD i need to clean up my computer and get rid of space-wasting files i never use. i'm thinking of clearing out some of the useless crap that came pre-installed on my computer. like, i never use the microsoft office suite, but it's there, and doesn't need to be. there's other stuff that i don't even know what it is, and a lot of that can probably go. i'd like it if my machine ran at a decent speed and didn't glitch the crap out of Sims graphics, which are not fancy at all. X.x i don't think i'm asking too much.
but yeah, i did all the stuff i absolutely had to have done by friday today, so tomorrow i can sleep in and try to finally feel remotely human again. it'll also give me time to finally finish all the things i've fallen behind on and meant to do.. like fixing Larxene's faceup. that's been dependant on buying the proper sealant. the brand i bought apparently has a reputation for eating DoD resin, which would be absolutely horrendous since she cost me so much and i love her face. X.x from now on i'll finish my research before i spend any money (which is usually my policy, but this one time i got impatient). i know we sell an appropriate (and highly regarded) matte sealant in the store, so i'll get some this weekend. i already have watercolour pencils, soft-bristle brushes, and pastels for doing the actual faceup. it's gonna be a lot of fun, i think. i'm not gonna do any seam-sanding or body blushing yet. i'll get to all that when i'm doing it for my Xavin. realistically i won't have her ordered by Christmas like i'd hoped for, but at the latest, this spring. if i can't get anything saved up, i'll use my tax refund for her. it's what we did for the others, i just want her sooner, and i was trying to avoid Korea's summer monsoon season as it adds to wait times considerably. i learned that the hard way last time. xD when i'm done with Larxene though, i'll post before and after pics.
on a note unrelated to anything else here (cause that's how i roll) i think i've done more filing in this week than at any other point in the entirety of my employment. X.x i've filed about 2 months of paperwork in the past 3 days, and they were a busy 2 months too. ugh. i don't usually mind, but this week was redonk. like almost repetitive-motion-injury amounts of paperwork. *dies a little*
book+ nothing currently
scent+ dusty comics?
quest+ getting apartment forms filled out and turned in
upper+ the bunny on my desk has people-legs sticking out of his mouth and that makes me smile
downer+ i should think that was rather apparent
attire+ dark wash jeans, tinkerbell tee, sneakers
drink+ dr pepper
so i know i've been slacking lately, but i think it's kinda understandable. to quote something i said to Roro a week or two ago, to deal with stress i do a combo of mood eating, internalizing into tummy issues, avoidance, and lashing out at people who don't deserve it. that's totally healthy, right? xD i'm not gonna post about dad's stroke here, because at this point everyone has either posted about it or read about it elsewhere.
speaking of Roro, it's great having all of us together again, even if it's only been a day and the novelty hasn't worn off yet. xD i look forward to being able to see everyone under cheerier circumstances soon. we haven't filled out or turned in the applications for the new apartment yet, but even so, kyu and i are tentatively planning on being moved by my birthday. it should be rather obvious we plan on keeping the new place considerably cleaner, so i look forward to having everyone over. i've been really (understandably) tired lately and i'm taking tomorrow (friday) off PTO, but with the move approaching i was thinking of holding off on that till i knew exactly what was going on. after i fell asleep during lunch and nearly ended up with my face in my macaroni, i decided that i needed a day off for sure..
i tend to take the friday of Wizard World off too, so i try to think about the vacation time i have in total while i schedule this stuff. i'm going to WWTx again this year, but i dunno if i'll go friday or if i'll just limit myself to saturday and sunday. i know what costumes i'd like to have done, but i dunno if i can afford them, so i may just work on improving the ones i've already done. fixing the things i ran out of time on. there's also two costumes i got the stuff for last year so Moose could dress up, but i abandoned them when i discovered she wouldn't be able to go after all. i can finish those this year for whenever she can wear them, and i can feel awesome and stuff. xD
i realized i've been using my ipod pretty heavily for music therapy this week. usually i charge it once or twice a month, since i listen a little on tuesday and wednesday, but not much beyond that. this week i've had to charge it twice, and my phone an extra time too. xD i know for other people charging a phone more than once a week is normal, but i use it for its calculator feature more than i call people. xD i've never been a phone-friendly person.
this weekend should be fun though, there's a tentative plan to have James and Naku over friday to visit with Roro. i dunno what we're gonna do, but there's a good chance we'll eat the frozen lasagna in the freezer. maybe mess with some Sims2 stuff, but that's more a solitary thing than something for three people to be messing with.. especially since mine's abnormally laggy. xD i need to clean up my computer and get rid of space-wasting files i never use. i'm thinking of clearing out some of the useless crap that came pre-installed on my computer. like, i never use the microsoft office suite, but it's there, and doesn't need to be. there's other stuff that i don't even know what it is, and a lot of that can probably go. i'd like it if my machine ran at a decent speed and didn't glitch the crap out of Sims graphics, which are not fancy at all. X.x i don't think i'm asking too much.
but yeah, i did all the stuff i absolutely had to have done by friday today, so tomorrow i can sleep in and try to finally feel remotely human again. it'll also give me time to finally finish all the things i've fallen behind on and meant to do.. like fixing Larxene's faceup. that's been dependant on buying the proper sealant. the brand i bought apparently has a reputation for eating DoD resin, which would be absolutely horrendous since she cost me so much and i love her face. X.x from now on i'll finish my research before i spend any money (which is usually my policy, but this one time i got impatient). i know we sell an appropriate (and highly regarded) matte sealant in the store, so i'll get some this weekend. i already have watercolour pencils, soft-bristle brushes, and pastels for doing the actual faceup. it's gonna be a lot of fun, i think. i'm not gonna do any seam-sanding or body blushing yet. i'll get to all that when i'm doing it for my Xavin. realistically i won't have her ordered by Christmas like i'd hoped for, but at the latest, this spring. if i can't get anything saved up, i'll use my tax refund for her. it's what we did for the others, i just want her sooner, and i was trying to avoid Korea's summer monsoon season as it adds to wait times considerably. i learned that the hard way last time. xD when i'm done with Larxene though, i'll post before and after pics.
on a note unrelated to anything else here (cause that's how i roll) i think i've done more filing in this week than at any other point in the entirety of my employment. X.x i've filed about 2 months of paperwork in the past 3 days, and they were a busy 2 months too. ugh. i don't usually mind, but this week was redonk. like almost repetitive-motion-injury amounts of paperwork. *dies a little*
Friday, August 29, 2008
yeah, that's right! i'm awesome! also doll photos.
song+ Thank You For The Music- Mamma Mia
book+ september previews
scent+ milk and salad? xD
quest+ saving money for apartment costs and doll stuff
upper+ i have a costume commision in the works
downer+ we still have to deal with dad for a while
attire+ pinstriped pajama pants and a black undershirt
drink+ milk
book+ september previews
scent+ milk and salad? xD
quest+ saving money for apartment costs and doll stuff
upper+ i have a costume commision in the works
downer+ we still have to deal with dad for a while
attire+ pinstriped pajama pants and a black undershirt
drink+ milk
Your result for The Commonly Confused Words Test...
English Genius
You scored 100% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 93% Advanced, and 93% Expert!
You did so extremely well, even I can't find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don't. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you're not afraid to use it properly! Way to go!
Roro had this quiz on her blog, and i love these things, so i did it too. i love being told how smart i am. xD anyhow, on to the doll photos! these were all taken without Bea's wig on since it kept getting caught in the velcro and such. enjoy the baldness! xD also, i'm working on re-doing Larxene's lips. i'll show them off when i'm done so everyone can let me know what they think.
supercute outfit, but the hat's a little large. xD
supercute skort! also the boots on this outfit really fit her, which is amazing to me!
this shirt totally makes her look pregnant. the skirt is cute, but she doesn't have anything that matches it.
this one looks infinitely better without the overshirt, which is yards too loose on her. i love this skirt, but kyu said it looked kinda dumpy..
Vivi wears these pants. he loves them. the sweater makes her look chunky though, she prefers the shirt without it.
Bea loves these pants! the tops that came with them, not so much. X.x also, she says the hat looks kinda like a Rastafarian Poodle (kyu thinks it resembles a motorcycle helmet covered in fluffy wool). the second image is to show how much better the pants look when they're not bunching funny under a too-tight top.
pajama love! these are just amazingly comfy.
cute guitar purse, but the dress needs a fitting, it comes close to exposing her. xD Larxene can wear it as a supercute skirt though with a tee shirt.
this dress is cute, but it needs to be taken in at the torso. Bea loves the necklace that came with it though, she hasn't taken the pearls off in months.
this is a cute dress that fits pretty well on it's own. yay for that! it also came with this cute bracelet and a hairclip she wears all the time. xD
this dress looked really cute on the doll it's meant for. it looks remarkably hookerish on Bea. like it seriously barely covers her thigh joint at all. it flashed the joint while posing her. X.x
this dress is awesome! there's a slit in the back for mobility. also the shoes that came with all four of these prom-looking dresses fit, so that gives lots more options when getting dressed.
apair of short-alls that i bought while ordering some shirts from F2bM for Roro. check out that sideboob. xD she'll wear a shirt under this normally, but i was tired at this point.
Friday, August 15, 2008
something.. in three parts. xD
song+ Something's Coming- West Side Story
book+ re-reading whatever looks good
scent+ gummi bears
quest+ getting a new apartment
upper+ i have two awesome games i'm switching between
downer+ i hate feeling off
attire+ sneakers, jeans, my camo c*o*l*t*s tee
drink+ water
this is a little in response to roro's late night musings on the self, but i was gonna get around to saying something like this before too long anyhow.
for a few months now, things have been off for me. it's hard to explain precicely what i mean, but it's a lot of littler things. i'm sore all the time, my bones and muscles are all achey. my back stores up tension like a spring, and every few days i can get it to pop and release a bit, but it'll collect it again. i'll get roaring headaches out of nowhere, and my tummy acid will act up for no reason. getting four hours of sleep feels the same as getting fourteen, i'm still way too tired all the time. i'm not sick though. i can tell the difference, especially since moose is feeling a lot of this too.
something's coming, something big. it could be good or bad, i'm not sure what it is, or when it'll arrive. i do know that whatever's gonna happen will affect pretty much everyone i know, and likely several people i don't. this, whatever it is, has been building for a long time now, and when it gets here, several of us will likely say something along the lines of "oh, this is what i was waiting for.." even if not everyone knows they're waiting.
it's getting close enough to make me itchy, and i'm frustrated that i can't seem to figure it out yet. i hate feeling surprised, like i missed a clue somewhere. i want to know without a doubt so i can be entirely prepared. i like knowing i can handle whatever is coming, and i dunno that i can, and that's bad for me.
in things unlelated to what likely reads as something rather like paranoia, kyu and i are gonna try to take a tour of our (hopefully) future apartment this saturday. if things go well we'll see about what exactly it'll take to get the place. we're both pretty young with not much rental history (if any at all, really) but i'm pretty sure lola will give us a good recommendation if we need one. we're both far better with money than dad, we realize the importance of paying bills before buying fun things, and we've budgeted extensively to ensure we're not getting in over our heads. we budgeted as though one of us would be footing all the bills on our own to ensure we could make it in a worst-case one of us loses their job type scenario, and while it'd be hard, it's possible.
at this point, i just want to make sure the new place feels right for both of us. my ideal apartment is one floor (i'm not too picky about 1st floor vs 2nd), two rooms. one for sleeping, one for art stuff. i want it big enough that my stuff doesn't crowd me, but small enough that we can heat and cool the place without spending redonk wads of cash. i'd like to be a little closer to work, so we could ride our bikes on good weather days (once kyu replaces his). we're leaning towards the Woodland something-or-other, off bowen. it's really close to our bank, and a post office. there's three close grocery stores, and it's close to the rec center if we ever decide to join and get back in shape. it's also priced reasonably enough that we could probably swing cable and internet. being able to tivo/dvr/whatever things on tv would save the frustration of wanting to strangle kyu for watching his wrestling stuff. X.x
if that place turns out to be completely impossible, our back up place is where several work friends live, so we know it's affordable. it's a bills paid place on the fringes of the UTA campus. it's not quite what i'd like, as i'm apparently a little snobby, but it's perfectly livable. i could be happy there, but i see myself far happier in our first choice, even if i'd be a little poorer.
the part of this that corresponds to roro's thoughts is this:
i also sometimes feel like i'm flailing, directionless. i know i'm moving forward, but because i do know what i want, and i can see how far i am, i get depressed. i'm not an excessively social person, but i've been making an effort to get out and spend more time with people i'm not related to. i like solitude and aloney-ness, not just the quiet thinky time, but knowing if i called out no one would be able to answer. in some ways i find that comforting. it doesn't make much sense, but that's me all over. xD i'm not afraid of being alone, of living alone.. i'm afraid of almost everything else, and for me the only way to get through any day, is to push on and try to deny my fear at all. i'm afraid to learn to drive, but i'm also afraid of being so dependant on other people. i'm afraid of what dad will do if we leave him alone, but i'm more afraid of what i'll do if i have to stay with him much longer. i was afraid when i moved out from mom's place, but i was more afraid of what would happen between us if i stayed. most of my life decisions have been based on which choice scares me more, and when i look at where i am vs where i know i'm capable of being, i feel like i'm faltering. like i'll maybe never get there. the worst part, i think is that while i know what i want, i have no way of knowing if it's the right thing to want. what if i chose the wrong thing and i won't know until it's too late to head in another direction?
ha, go figure, late-night isn't the only time to think deep, depressing thoughts. xD *loffles to roro for being so freakin awesometastic all the time*
book+ re-reading whatever looks good
scent+ gummi bears
quest+ getting a new apartment
upper+ i have two awesome games i'm switching between
downer+ i hate feeling off
attire+ sneakers, jeans, my camo c*o*l*t*s tee
drink+ water
this is a little in response to roro's late night musings on the self, but i was gonna get around to saying something like this before too long anyhow.
for a few months now, things have been off for me. it's hard to explain precicely what i mean, but it's a lot of littler things. i'm sore all the time, my bones and muscles are all achey. my back stores up tension like a spring, and every few days i can get it to pop and release a bit, but it'll collect it again. i'll get roaring headaches out of nowhere, and my tummy acid will act up for no reason. getting four hours of sleep feels the same as getting fourteen, i'm still way too tired all the time. i'm not sick though. i can tell the difference, especially since moose is feeling a lot of this too.
something's coming, something big. it could be good or bad, i'm not sure what it is, or when it'll arrive. i do know that whatever's gonna happen will affect pretty much everyone i know, and likely several people i don't. this, whatever it is, has been building for a long time now, and when it gets here, several of us will likely say something along the lines of "oh, this is what i was waiting for.." even if not everyone knows they're waiting.
it's getting close enough to make me itchy, and i'm frustrated that i can't seem to figure it out yet. i hate feeling surprised, like i missed a clue somewhere. i want to know without a doubt so i can be entirely prepared. i like knowing i can handle whatever is coming, and i dunno that i can, and that's bad for me.
in things unlelated to what likely reads as something rather like paranoia, kyu and i are gonna try to take a tour of our (hopefully) future apartment this saturday. if things go well we'll see about what exactly it'll take to get the place. we're both pretty young with not much rental history (if any at all, really) but i'm pretty sure lola will give us a good recommendation if we need one. we're both far better with money than dad, we realize the importance of paying bills before buying fun things, and we've budgeted extensively to ensure we're not getting in over our heads. we budgeted as though one of us would be footing all the bills on our own to ensure we could make it in a worst-case one of us loses their job type scenario, and while it'd be hard, it's possible.
at this point, i just want to make sure the new place feels right for both of us. my ideal apartment is one floor (i'm not too picky about 1st floor vs 2nd), two rooms. one for sleeping, one for art stuff. i want it big enough that my stuff doesn't crowd me, but small enough that we can heat and cool the place without spending redonk wads of cash. i'd like to be a little closer to work, so we could ride our bikes on good weather days (once kyu replaces his). we're leaning towards the Woodland something-or-other, off bowen. it's really close to our bank, and a post office. there's three close grocery stores, and it's close to the rec center if we ever decide to join and get back in shape. it's also priced reasonably enough that we could probably swing cable and internet. being able to tivo/dvr/whatever things on tv would save the frustration of wanting to strangle kyu for watching his wrestling stuff. X.x
if that place turns out to be completely impossible, our back up place is where several work friends live, so we know it's affordable. it's a bills paid place on the fringes of the UTA campus. it's not quite what i'd like, as i'm apparently a little snobby, but it's perfectly livable. i could be happy there, but i see myself far happier in our first choice, even if i'd be a little poorer.
the part of this that corresponds to roro's thoughts is this:
i also sometimes feel like i'm flailing, directionless. i know i'm moving forward, but because i do know what i want, and i can see how far i am, i get depressed. i'm not an excessively social person, but i've been making an effort to get out and spend more time with people i'm not related to. i like solitude and aloney-ness, not just the quiet thinky time, but knowing if i called out no one would be able to answer. in some ways i find that comforting. it doesn't make much sense, but that's me all over. xD i'm not afraid of being alone, of living alone.. i'm afraid of almost everything else, and for me the only way to get through any day, is to push on and try to deny my fear at all. i'm afraid to learn to drive, but i'm also afraid of being so dependant on other people. i'm afraid of what dad will do if we leave him alone, but i'm more afraid of what i'll do if i have to stay with him much longer. i was afraid when i moved out from mom's place, but i was more afraid of what would happen between us if i stayed. most of my life decisions have been based on which choice scares me more, and when i look at where i am vs where i know i'm capable of being, i feel like i'm faltering. like i'll maybe never get there. the worst part, i think is that while i know what i want, i have no way of knowing if it's the right thing to want. what if i chose the wrong thing and i won't know until it's too late to head in another direction?
ha, go figure, late-night isn't the only time to think deep, depressing thoughts. xD *loffles to roro for being so freakin awesometastic all the time*
Saturday, August 9, 2008
steampunk quiz and jerkish doings
song+ Ay Ya Ya (Outta My Head)- Bittersweet World- Ashlee Simpson
book+ nothing currently. odd
scent+ yummeh danish!
quest+ deciding where to go
upper+ kyu and i spent some time with james yeasterday!
downer+ the weekend is only 2 days long..
attire+ tank top and shorts
drink+milk, and juice for later. xD
Roro took this quiz, and i wondered how i'd do myself, so here it is.
the hacking was reported, but i dunno how long it'll take them to get to the report, or if they'll even be able to do anything. i'm not trying to be all "waah! i matter more than anyone else" or anything, which is why i'm venting here. it just makes me angry and sad that someone would do this to anyone, much less (likely) a total stranger like myself.
book+ nothing currently. odd
scent+ yummeh danish!
quest+ deciding where to go
upper+ kyu and i spent some time with james yeasterday!
downer+ the weekend is only 2 days long..
attire+ tank top and shorts
drink+milk, and juice for later. xD
Roro took this quiz, and i wondered how i'd do myself, so here it is.
Your result for The Steampunk Style Test...
The Aristocrat
86% Elegant, 28% Technological, 70% Historical, 12% Adventurous and 14% Playful!
You are the Aristocrat, the embodiment of steampunk elegance and poise. For you, dressing steampunk is first and foremost about simply looking good, with accessories and details to follow. However, this does not mean that you ignore the demands of creating a “steampunk look.” Your outfits weave together a balance between technology and style, and between period accuracy and beautiful anachronism. While your fashion inspiration may come from anywhere across the Victorian social spectrum, you always find a way to make your outfit beautiful. You will probably be found in the clothes of the steam age elite simply because of the greater elegance available to them. Chances are you dress this way because you like it, and you would still dress in this manner even if steampunk was not a popular interest.
in other news, my gaia account got hacked thursday. i went to sign in friday and it kept telling me i was doing it wrong. i signed in on one of my alternate accounts and looked at my friendslist and my main account had been renamed "nakokoi" and stripped of all its items. i'm upset about losing tons of gold, and 5 years of items, many of which were gifts, but i'm really pissed that my name and password were changed so i can't even use the account at all. i'm gonna rename my mule in a bit, but it's still really frustrating losing so much history.the hacking was reported, but i dunno how long it'll take them to get to the report, or if they'll even be able to do anything. i'm not trying to be all "waah! i matter more than anyone else" or anything, which is why i'm venting here. it just makes me angry and sad that someone would do this to anyone, much less (likely) a total stranger like myself.
Monday, July 28, 2008
apartment hunting
song+ Thank You For The Music- Mamma Mia!
book+ August Previews
scent+ artificial strawberry flavouring. yum!
quest+ deciding on a new place soon
upper+ i've been feeling pretty good lately
downer+ my computer can't access the internet
attire+ summer pajamas
drink+milk
so since no other viable solution has presented itself so far as the dad thing goes, kyu and i have decided to look for a two bedroom apartment. we're going to try for a place that also has reasonably priced one-bedroom/efficiency options so dad can do that. this way we don't have to live with him, which is getting harder and harder, but we'll be close enough to make sure he doesn't kill anyone.. himself included. there's a relatively nice bills-paid place on the fringes of UTA housing, a lot of our work friends live there, so we're gonna look there this weekend. there's another place a bit further from work (about halfway between there and here) that we may look at, but i dunno if dad could afford to live there. we'll see how things work out.. i'll try to keep everyone updated.
when the time comes to unpack and organize the new place, i plan to take tons of photos. getting them uploaded is another matter, as i'm sure we're all well aware of my proclivity toward procrastination. i have ideas for both floorplans i've seen, but since it'll be kyu's place too i figure waiting on his opinion is the right thing to do.. that doesn't mean i want to though. xD i am filled with bizarre secret passions; organizing and decorating.. i loff them. flipping through a bedding catalog sends me to my zen place.. as does costuming. i sometimes forget to eat when i'm experimenting with variable stitch functions. xD whoo!
otherwise things have been pretty calm around here. dad's agreed to see a doctor, i heard this news something like fourth-hand, but it's still news. xD i still can't drive, moose has been taking us to and from work every day. they fixed the leaky pipe under our apartment, it was causing a perpetual puddle that spanned half the living room. the next day our sink backed up. good times!
book+ August Previews
scent+ artificial strawberry flavouring. yum!
quest+ deciding on a new place soon
upper+ i've been feeling pretty good lately
downer+ my computer can't access the internet
attire+ summer pajamas
drink+milk
so since no other viable solution has presented itself so far as the dad thing goes, kyu and i have decided to look for a two bedroom apartment. we're going to try for a place that also has reasonably priced one-bedroom/efficiency options so dad can do that. this way we don't have to live with him, which is getting harder and harder, but we'll be close enough to make sure he doesn't kill anyone.. himself included. there's a relatively nice bills-paid place on the fringes of UTA housing, a lot of our work friends live there, so we're gonna look there this weekend. there's another place a bit further from work (about halfway between there and here) that we may look at, but i dunno if dad could afford to live there. we'll see how things work out.. i'll try to keep everyone updated.
when the time comes to unpack and organize the new place, i plan to take tons of photos. getting them uploaded is another matter, as i'm sure we're all well aware of my proclivity toward procrastination. i have ideas for both floorplans i've seen, but since it'll be kyu's place too i figure waiting on his opinion is the right thing to do.. that doesn't mean i want to though. xD i am filled with bizarre secret passions; organizing and decorating.. i loff them. flipping through a bedding catalog sends me to my zen place.. as does costuming. i sometimes forget to eat when i'm experimenting with variable stitch functions. xD whoo!
otherwise things have been pretty calm around here. dad's agreed to see a doctor, i heard this news something like fourth-hand, but it's still news. xD i still can't drive, moose has been taking us to and from work every day. they fixed the leaky pipe under our apartment, it was causing a perpetual puddle that spanned half the living room. the next day our sink backed up. good times!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
5 things (ganked from jenni)
song+ Defying Gravity- Wicked OCR
book+ the Olympians series
scent+ rice and something.. i dunno
quest+ gettingmy music organized again
upper+ i have new stuff to read!
downer+ it's not the weekend yet
attire+ tank top and shorts
drink+ cherry limeade sunkist
5. Places you want to visit:
1. a real beach
2. New York
3. London
4. Rome
5. Hawaii
4. Things people might not know about you:
1. i'm perpetually working out costume construction. i work on mentally deconstructing all the clothes i look at every day too see if i could do better.
2. i can identify a lot of fibers by touch alone. i was able to do this before i knew what i was doing.
3. my core beliefs are frequently opposed to what people assume i believe. specifically that i'm pro-life, totally fine with gay marriage, and ambivalent about guns.
4. i've had disturbingly realistic reoccurring dreams of the future since early childhood, and so far only a small handful (less than 5) have ever been different from how things have turned out for me.
3. Jobs you have had.
1. customer service for verizon internet
2. warehouse/mailroom slave at lone star
3. subservice drone (then asst mgr) also at lone star
2. People that you know will reply.
1. err.. jenni already did it..
2. maybe mom?
1.Your favorite food.
1. italian. specifically lasagna, but i love almost anything in red sauce.. my tummy just has trouble with the acidity in it.
book+ the Olympians series
scent+ rice and something.. i dunno
quest+ gettingmy music organized again
upper+ i have new stuff to read!
downer+ it's not the weekend yet
attire+ tank top and shorts
drink+ cherry limeade sunkist
5. Places you want to visit:
1. a real beach
2. New York
3. London
4. Rome
5. Hawaii
4. Things people might not know about you:
1. i'm perpetually working out costume construction. i work on mentally deconstructing all the clothes i look at every day too see if i could do better.
2. i can identify a lot of fibers by touch alone. i was able to do this before i knew what i was doing.
3. my core beliefs are frequently opposed to what people assume i believe. specifically that i'm pro-life, totally fine with gay marriage, and ambivalent about guns.
4. i've had disturbingly realistic reoccurring dreams of the future since early childhood, and so far only a small handful (less than 5) have ever been different from how things have turned out for me.
3. Jobs you have had.
1. customer service for verizon internet
2. warehouse/mailroom slave at lone star
3. subservice drone (then asst mgr) also at lone star
2. People that you know will reply.
1. err.. jenni already did it..
2. maybe mom?
1.Your favorite food.
1. italian. specifically lasagna, but i love almost anything in red sauce.. my tummy just has trouble with the acidity in it.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
mid-july randomness
song+ Little Miss Obsessive- Bittersweet World- Ashlee Simpson
book+ issues 1 and 2 of the american Gothic Lolita Bible
scent+ err.. nothing stands out
quest+ getting to the office while lola is there
upper+ so much cool stuff is coming out soon!
downer+ i have no money
attire+ tank top and pajama shorts
drink+ milk! i loff milk!
lots of things to post for now, none of earth-shattering importance though. i've been thinking of cutting and perming my hair. like going from the first style here to the second. not with the slight colour change, this was just the best representation i could find. i did a new animated icon based on the second style, which has been up for a week or two, and a new portrait with my current hair that i just finished today. i had a hard time figuring out the texture for the jacquard on a traditional cheongsam.
the trailer up above is new. i'm super excited because i love the final fantasy series, but i figured i'd never really get to play ff13, because it was supposed to be ps3 exclusive, and i sure can't afford a ps3. well, monday at the SquareEnix panel at e3 (the Electronic Entertainment Expo) it was announced that while it's still ps3 exclusive in japan, the us and europe will get a simultaneous ps3/xbox360 release of it! yay! kyu already has an xbox, so that's great news to me! xD i put the newest trailer there at the top so everyone can see how danged pretty it's gonna be. still no release date, but people are speculating next year for japan, and possibly 2010 worldwide.
let's see.. monday was roro's birthday. happy birthday roro!
i was at the mall a while back getting my opal ring cut off and re-sized, and i was told about a major sale at samuel's. i went in and looked for fun, and over the past month and a half, i paid off the ring i got an awesome deal on. i got like 65% off, and it's gorgeous and i love it! i'll try to take pics soon. the sparklies are distracting though.
batman comes out this weekend, and i can't wait! xD this summer has been awesome for comic book movies. between Iron Man, Incredible Hulk, Wanted, Hellboy 2, and Batman: Dark Knight anyone can find one they'll like!
i think that's all for now, but i'm thinking of doing an end of the week "here are the comics i read this week" feature soon. we'll see if i ever get around to it. xD
book+ issues 1 and 2 of the american Gothic Lolita Bible
scent+ err.. nothing stands out
quest+ getting to the office while lola is there
upper+ so much cool stuff is coming out soon!
downer+ i have no money
attire+ tank top and pajama shorts
drink+ milk! i loff milk!
lots of things to post for now, none of earth-shattering importance though. i've been thinking of cutting and perming my hair. like going from the first style here to the second. not with the slight colour change, this was just the best representation i could find. i did a new animated icon based on the second style, which has been up for a week or two, and a new portrait with my current hair that i just finished today. i had a hard time figuring out the texture for the jacquard on a traditional cheongsam.the trailer up above is new. i'm super excited because i love the final fantasy series, but i figured i'd never really get to play ff13, because it was supposed to be ps3 exclusive, and i sure can't afford a ps3. well, monday at the SquareEnix panel at e3 (the Electronic Entertainment Expo) it was announced that while it's still ps3 exclusive in japan, the us and europe will get a simultaneous ps3/xbox360 release of it! yay! kyu already has an xbox, so that's great news to me! xD i put the newest trailer there at the top so everyone can see how danged pretty it's gonna be. still no release date, but people are speculating next year for japan, and possibly 2010 worldwide.
let's see.. monday was roro's birthday. happy birthday roro!
i was at the mall a while back getting my opal ring cut off and re-sized, and i was told about a major sale at samuel's. i went in and looked for fun, and over the past month and a half, i paid off the ring i got an awesome deal on. i got like 65% off, and it's gorgeous and i love it! i'll try to take pics soon. the sparklies are distracting though.
batman comes out this weekend, and i can't wait! xD this summer has been awesome for comic book movies. between Iron Man, Incredible Hulk, Wanted, Hellboy 2, and Batman: Dark Knight anyone can find one they'll like!
i think that's all for now, but i'm thinking of doing an end of the week "here are the comics i read this week" feature soon. we'll see if i ever get around to it. xD
Saturday, July 5, 2008
so i like, totally skipped june..
song+ the theme to Zelda: Ocarina of Time
book+ Zelda: Twilight Princess guide
scent+ nothing really. summer?
quest+ not losing my mind
upper+ kyu and i think we know where we want to live
downer+ we don't know what to do with dad
attire+ tank top and pajama shorts
drink+ dr pepper
it's not that nothing has happened lately, so i haven't had anything to talk about.. it's more that everything is driving me crazy and i didn't want to make everyone else crazy too. i've done a lot of avoidance, and rationalizing, anything else that came to mind to try to get me past this stuff, but i'm at the point where i can't do that anymore, so here it all is.
i suppose i'll start with myself. i've always been a bit neurotic, and kinda tightly wound, but i've prided myself on it not being obvious to anyone else. i feel like i've been falling apart, in every way. i have trouble thinking, speaking, doing anything. have you ever felt like the only thing keeping you together at all was the fear you were losing your mind? i feel like i've broken, but i was a little afraid that if i told anyone, i'd lose that last little bit of me thats trying to hold everything in one place. in the past when i've felt myself slipping, i've managed to pull myself together and live again before anyone could ask "hey, are you okay?" i've pretended to be fine on numerous occasions because i can't help thinking that admitting i'm less than fine and that maybe i need help is like saying "okay, i fail, go ahead and laugh at me now!" i'm more than aware of my flaws and weaknesses, i just don't want anyone else to be. i can't help feeling that lately it's more obvious to the normally oblivious that i'm not fine. i don't want to be weak or transparent, i like being mysterious.. though some would be inclined to call me distant. i'm one of the most open, loudmouthed, secretive, quiet people in existence, and i like being a bundle of contradictory confusion. i just don't like feeling like i don't know who that person is.
the next thing is my job. i love my job. i like what i do, i like (most of) the people i work with, i get a big kick out of being able to read my comics the day before they hit stores.the only downside to this job that i love doing, is that i don't make a whole lot of money. kyu makes the same amount i do: not much. (him not loving his job is irrelevant to this point) this is just to say "we don't make all that much."
1) old, we all know this. so old he gets social security; in theory to pay for his living expenses.
2) diabetic, and not medicating. this has led to several physical side effects.
3) unemployed, and still chasing innumerable get-rich-quick schemes.. this ties into #1.
4) stubborn as a goat.
individually i could probably deal with these things, but together, they are combining in ways that may have lead to the psychotic break i may or may not be experiencing.
when dad lost his last job, i thought "it's okay, we can take on the extra burden for a few months, just until he finds something new." the thing is, he hasn't found anything. i don't think he's looked for anything, and even if he did, he's so gone, i can't see anyone taking him seriously! at least half my income, and half of kyu's too, is going to dad so he can pay the bills, and in spite of this, he's fallen behind a few times because he puts his INFURIATING schemes first in his prioritizing. we've had to say to him "pay the bills, then look at your whatever-plans!" i get that some of this is his optimism, but more and more, it's that his mind is deteriorating because he won't take care of himself. he can't walk in a straight line, he's lost almost all function and sensation in his hands and feet. he's been going blind for a long time, but won't do anything, because he's possibly too far gone and doesn't want his rights taken from him, i think. naturally, he won't talk about it, he just pretends everything is fine. he doesn't listen to anyone, ever. he forgets to eat, and when he does eat, it's those taboo foods for diabetics. i THINK we got him to stop drinking, but i'm really not sure, and neither is kyu. he forgets to feed the pets, never thinks that the reason the dog is leaving messes on the carpet is because he won't walk her when he's the only one home during the day.
my own psychotic break notwithstanding, we are at the point where we can't live like this anymore. we've found a few options that we can afford, that we can take the dog with us to. the downside is our top choice doesn't have washer/ dryer hookups. i've gotten kinda spoiled in that regard. our lease is up at the end of this month. we may talk to lola and see if we can negotiate another month or two (not 6 to 12) to get everything taken care of. our big problem is we have no idea what to do with dad. we've essentially got 3 options:
1) get him an efficiency he can swing on his social security
2) put him in an assisted living home
3) (sarcasm)euthanasia.(/sarcasm)
unfortunately, even if he didn't gamble away his money on whatever, i seriously believe he's lacking the capacity to live on his own, which means option one is moot. with option two, i dunno what it would cost, and i'd feel really bad for whomever got stuck with him. this obviously needs to be looked into more closely. option three's out because.. well killing people is illegal. xD it's okay though, i was mostly joking on that one. i threw in the fake tags because kyu thought it wasn't obvious enough i don't really mean it..
this is what i really needed to have that meeting about. the one where i didn't expect anyone else to volunteer to take anything on, i just need advice and ideas. is there another option i've missed somehow? even after we figure out just what we're doing and how it'll all get paid for, there's the issue of "how do we tell him he can't drive anymore? like ever.." because yes, to me the safety and security of the potential legion of people he's possibly endangering on the road every day is secondary to how much the rest of this is driving me batty.
book+ Zelda: Twilight Princess guide
scent+ nothing really. summer?
quest+ not losing my mind
upper+ kyu and i think we know where we want to live
downer+ we don't know what to do with dad
attire+ tank top and pajama shorts
drink+ dr pepper
it's not that nothing has happened lately, so i haven't had anything to talk about.. it's more that everything is driving me crazy and i didn't want to make everyone else crazy too. i've done a lot of avoidance, and rationalizing, anything else that came to mind to try to get me past this stuff, but i'm at the point where i can't do that anymore, so here it all is.
i'm trying to do this logically, but forgive me if i wander a bit.
i suppose i'll start with myself. i've always been a bit neurotic, and kinda tightly wound, but i've prided myself on it not being obvious to anyone else. i feel like i've been falling apart, in every way. i have trouble thinking, speaking, doing anything. have you ever felt like the only thing keeping you together at all was the fear you were losing your mind? i feel like i've broken, but i was a little afraid that if i told anyone, i'd lose that last little bit of me thats trying to hold everything in one place. in the past when i've felt myself slipping, i've managed to pull myself together and live again before anyone could ask "hey, are you okay?" i've pretended to be fine on numerous occasions because i can't help thinking that admitting i'm less than fine and that maybe i need help is like saying "okay, i fail, go ahead and laugh at me now!" i'm more than aware of my flaws and weaknesses, i just don't want anyone else to be. i can't help feeling that lately it's more obvious to the normally oblivious that i'm not fine. i don't want to be weak or transparent, i like being mysterious.. though some would be inclined to call me distant. i'm one of the most open, loudmouthed, secretive, quiet people in existence, and i like being a bundle of contradictory confusion. i just don't like feeling like i don't know who that person is.
the next thing is my job. i love my job. i like what i do, i like (most of) the people i work with, i get a big kick out of being able to read my comics the day before they hit stores.the only downside to this job that i love doing, is that i don't make a whole lot of money. kyu makes the same amount i do: not much. (him not loving his job is irrelevant to this point) this is just to say "we don't make all that much."
that leads into the next several things: DAD. he is:
1) old, we all know this. so old he gets social security; in theory to pay for his living expenses.
2) diabetic, and not medicating. this has led to several physical side effects.
3) unemployed, and still chasing innumerable get-rich-quick schemes.. this ties into #1.
4) stubborn as a goat.
individually i could probably deal with these things, but together, they are combining in ways that may have lead to the psychotic break i may or may not be experiencing.
when dad lost his last job, i thought "it's okay, we can take on the extra burden for a few months, just until he finds something new." the thing is, he hasn't found anything. i don't think he's looked for anything, and even if he did, he's so gone, i can't see anyone taking him seriously! at least half my income, and half of kyu's too, is going to dad so he can pay the bills, and in spite of this, he's fallen behind a few times because he puts his INFURIATING schemes first in his prioritizing. we've had to say to him "pay the bills, then look at your whatever-plans!" i get that some of this is his optimism, but more and more, it's that his mind is deteriorating because he won't take care of himself. he can't walk in a straight line, he's lost almost all function and sensation in his hands and feet. he's been going blind for a long time, but won't do anything, because he's possibly too far gone and doesn't want his rights taken from him, i think. naturally, he won't talk about it, he just pretends everything is fine. he doesn't listen to anyone, ever. he forgets to eat, and when he does eat, it's those taboo foods for diabetics. i THINK we got him to stop drinking, but i'm really not sure, and neither is kyu. he forgets to feed the pets, never thinks that the reason the dog is leaving messes on the carpet is because he won't walk her when he's the only one home during the day.
there's another thing that really bothers kyu, but that won't be discussed here.. if at all.
my own psychotic break notwithstanding, we are at the point where we can't live like this anymore. we've found a few options that we can afford, that we can take the dog with us to. the downside is our top choice doesn't have washer/ dryer hookups. i've gotten kinda spoiled in that regard. our lease is up at the end of this month. we may talk to lola and see if we can negotiate another month or two (not 6 to 12) to get everything taken care of. our big problem is we have no idea what to do with dad. we've essentially got 3 options:
1) get him an efficiency he can swing on his social security
2) put him in an assisted living home
3) (sarcasm)euthanasia.(/sarcasm)
unfortunately, even if he didn't gamble away his money on whatever, i seriously believe he's lacking the capacity to live on his own, which means option one is moot. with option two, i dunno what it would cost, and i'd feel really bad for whomever got stuck with him. this obviously needs to be looked into more closely. option three's out because.. well killing people is illegal. xD it's okay though, i was mostly joking on that one. i threw in the fake tags because kyu thought it wasn't obvious enough i don't really mean it..
this is what i really needed to have that meeting about. the one where i didn't expect anyone else to volunteer to take anything on, i just need advice and ideas. is there another option i've missed somehow? even after we figure out just what we're doing and how it'll all get paid for, there's the issue of "how do we tell him he can't drive anymore? like ever.." because yes, to me the safety and security of the potential legion of people he's possibly endangering on the road every day is secondary to how much the rest of this is driving me batty.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
general life updates
song+ Little Miss Obsessive- Bittersweet World- Ashlee Simpson
book+ june previews
scent+ sweat.. it's kinda icky
quest+ teaching kyu to ride a bike sufficiently to get to work
upper+ he's made good progress
downer+ he's still yelling at it and throwing the bike every 15-25 feet.
attire+ as little as possible. it's hot here.
drink+ milk
so i got my sewing machine thursday, and i've opened it and taken pictures, but they won't hit my computer for a few days yet, because i'm damn tired. this week's comic acquisition was delayed a day due to memorial day. so i worked really hard all week because we had one less day to get a larger than normal workload done. kyu and i also worked a toy sale in the old store one location today for time and a half in store credit. we were there from 10:30 to around 6:10. after that, wolfie took us to go buy bikes and helmets.
i forgot to really mention last week that dad's car is screwed up. there's a leak in the radiator, and there's a blown head gasket. the mechanic said it'd be $1375.76 to fix it. that's a kinda arbitrary number, but that's what they said. dad expected me or kyu to apply for financing for it. we both figure if we refuse to go into debt to go to school, we sure as hell aren't gonna go into debt to fix a car that will just break again in a few months, so he's on his own for that. to solve our getting-to-work conundrum, we essentially had two choices: 1) give people gas money and slowly go broke, and 2) buy a bike and a helmet each of us for what it takes to keep moby (wolfie's truck) in enough gas to get us to and from for 2 weeks. we went with option 2.
the downside to this is that kyu's biological father is a mentally deficient screwup whose idea of teaching kyu to swim was throwing him around for a few hours (no actual swimming involved) which would later lead to him very nearly drowning (granted, he was the one to save him, but it's still pretty boneheaded). his idea of teaching him to ride a bike was putting him on it and saying "go, don't fall over" leading to kyu hitting a tree with enough force to give him a knee injury that still bothers him today. a few years ago, his uncle tried to do better for him. he said more or less "relax, always use the back brake first, and try to have fun" which was better than anything else he'd been told.
i taught kyu to swim in the first summers we dated. he's not good enough to race or rough house, but he's better than a dog paddle and he can face the deep end alone. besides, i'm sure he has little to no interest in racing or rough housing. now i'm teaching him to ride a bike.. today's lesson was getting on, looping the parking lot three or four times, then riding up the hill to Milano's for dinner. Milano's makes some of he best italian i've ever eaten. i can't wait to be hungry enough to eat my leftovers xD we rode part of the way back, but going downhill on a something as steep as this part of Park Springs is asking for trouble, even when you know how to ride, so we walked and coasted for a lot of the return trip.
as hot and sweaty and tired as we both are, i'm very proud of the progress kyu made today. he didn't fall off, or hit anything. his main issues are wobbly balance and steering (which are very much related, they take turns being the cause for the other) and his anger. if he takes his mood pill, it's likely to make a huge difference. even without it though, i think that he could soon be comfortable enough to not get angry and throw the bike.. which only happened about five times today, i was expecting it to happen a lot more.
plans for tomorrow include another lesson in bike-riding. we're probably gonna stick to the parking lot for a while (after another few lessons we'll likely go to veteran's park). it'll likely be an all-day affair, but i'll have my phone on me. if anyone wants to call and pass along encouraging thoughts to kyu it would be great, he can't really see how well he's doing.
we'll still be getting rides to work next week, but i'm hoping that by the time i'm back from my vacation (that would be in about 2 weeks, the third week of june) he can handle the trip to work. my tentative training advancement schedule is parking lot -> veteran's park -> the street (at least a little) -> something just out of walking distance -> test run on a day off to see how long it takes to get to work -> riding to and from work every day.
anyhow (to channel dad) send positive thoughts in our direction. you know- prayer, ritual sacrifice, whatever xD any love and encouragement will be appreciated.
book+ june previews
scent+ sweat.. it's kinda icky
quest+ teaching kyu to ride a bike sufficiently to get to work
upper+ he's made good progress
downer+ he's still yelling at it and throwing the bike every 15-25 feet.
attire+ as little as possible. it's hot here.
drink+ milk
so i got my sewing machine thursday, and i've opened it and taken pictures, but they won't hit my computer for a few days yet, because i'm damn tired. this week's comic acquisition was delayed a day due to memorial day. so i worked really hard all week because we had one less day to get a larger than normal workload done. kyu and i also worked a toy sale in the old store one location today for time and a half in store credit. we were there from 10:30 to around 6:10. after that, wolfie took us to go buy bikes and helmets.
i forgot to really mention last week that dad's car is screwed up. there's a leak in the radiator, and there's a blown head gasket. the mechanic said it'd be $1375.76 to fix it. that's a kinda arbitrary number, but that's what they said. dad expected me or kyu to apply for financing for it. we both figure if we refuse to go into debt to go to school, we sure as hell aren't gonna go into debt to fix a car that will just break again in a few months, so he's on his own for that. to solve our getting-to-work conundrum, we essentially had two choices: 1) give people gas money and slowly go broke, and 2) buy a bike and a helmet each of us for what it takes to keep moby (wolfie's truck) in enough gas to get us to and from for 2 weeks. we went with option 2.
the downside to this is that kyu's biological father is a mentally deficient screwup whose idea of teaching kyu to swim was throwing him around for a few hours (no actual swimming involved) which would later lead to him very nearly drowning (granted, he was the one to save him, but it's still pretty boneheaded). his idea of teaching him to ride a bike was putting him on it and saying "go, don't fall over" leading to kyu hitting a tree with enough force to give him a knee injury that still bothers him today. a few years ago, his uncle tried to do better for him. he said more or less "relax, always use the back brake first, and try to have fun" which was better than anything else he'd been told.
i taught kyu to swim in the first summers we dated. he's not good enough to race or rough house, but he's better than a dog paddle and he can face the deep end alone. besides, i'm sure he has little to no interest in racing or rough housing. now i'm teaching him to ride a bike.. today's lesson was getting on, looping the parking lot three or four times, then riding up the hill to Milano's for dinner. Milano's makes some of he best italian i've ever eaten. i can't wait to be hungry enough to eat my leftovers xD we rode part of the way back, but going downhill on a something as steep as this part of Park Springs is asking for trouble, even when you know how to ride, so we walked and coasted for a lot of the return trip.
as hot and sweaty and tired as we both are, i'm very proud of the progress kyu made today. he didn't fall off, or hit anything. his main issues are wobbly balance and steering (which are very much related, they take turns being the cause for the other) and his anger. if he takes his mood pill, it's likely to make a huge difference. even without it though, i think that he could soon be comfortable enough to not get angry and throw the bike.. which only happened about five times today, i was expecting it to happen a lot more.
plans for tomorrow include another lesson in bike-riding. we're probably gonna stick to the parking lot for a while (after another few lessons we'll likely go to veteran's park). it'll likely be an all-day affair, but i'll have my phone on me. if anyone wants to call and pass along encouraging thoughts to kyu it would be great, he can't really see how well he's doing.
we'll still be getting rides to work next week, but i'm hoping that by the time i'm back from my vacation (that would be in about 2 weeks, the third week of june) he can handle the trip to work. my tentative training advancement schedule is parking lot -> veteran's park -> the street (at least a little) -> something just out of walking distance -> test run on a day off to see how long it takes to get to work -> riding to and from work every day.
anyhow (to channel dad) send positive thoughts in our direction. you know- prayer, ritual sacrifice, whatever xD any love and encouragement will be appreciated.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
the long awaited scarborough pics!
song+ Outta My Head (Ay Ya Ya)- Bittersweet World- Ashlee Simpson
book+ the Hollow
scent+ artificial fruit?
quest+ getting through the week
upper+ rides to and from work are all figured out for the week
downer+ dad's car is all screwed up
attire+ err, a tank and socks. it's hot here.
drink+ cherry Capri Sun
i finally ordered my new sewing machine. i was gonna just buy one at walmart, but they only had the same model that i already had, the one that totally died around christmas. i did the online thing, so i'll get an email in a few days when it ships. it's a bit fancier than the old one, but still far from my dream machine that costs a few grand. i do know when to settle though, so for now, this one will do.
moose sent her camera home with me so i could post the scarbie pics this past weekend, but i fell asleep before i got around to it, and then she took her camera back, thinking a normal person would have already done it. well, here they finally are. in addition to these, i'll get images of the fan i bought and my quill before too long.. surely sometime in the next few weeks xD
naku was a good girl and posted most of her pics almost immediately. she got some really good ones too, ones i never knew she'd taken. xD my fave is moose pretending to lick james' face, followed by me pretending to lick moose. classic cary humor there.
anyhow, after a few days of procrastination and miscommunication, i present to you, the ren faire!
these made us think of mom
this lady had the awesomest wings, turns out she makes them. xD if anyone seriously wants a pair, she sells them here.
beware of barbarians, they're a real grabby bunch these days.
whoo! the duel! there was a short video of this too, but i dunno how to post it here xD
ginormo turtle! those are fully grown rabbits next to it.
check out moose with a battle axe and me with a rapier! it's so pretty..
moose archery sequence! the bullseye hit when the sales guy finally stopped "correcting" her. her arrow was the one with the green and red feathers just to the left of her finger.
and because we promiseed roro we'd take something to represent her, then totally spaced, we looked for cute things to photograph while we were there. this hat seemed cute enough. so i grandly present moose wearing a plushie purple dragon hat. xD
book+ the Hollow
scent+ artificial fruit?
quest+ getting through the week
upper+ rides to and from work are all figured out for the week
downer+ dad's car is all screwed up
attire+ err, a tank and socks. it's hot here.
drink+ cherry Capri Sun
i finally ordered my new sewing machine. i was gonna just buy one at walmart, but they only had the same model that i already had, the one that totally died around christmas. i did the online thing, so i'll get an email in a few days when it ships. it's a bit fancier than the old one, but still far from my dream machine that costs a few grand. i do know when to settle though, so for now, this one will do.
moose sent her camera home with me so i could post the scarbie pics this past weekend, but i fell asleep before i got around to it, and then she took her camera back, thinking a normal person would have already done it. well, here they finally are. in addition to these, i'll get images of the fan i bought and my quill before too long.. surely sometime in the next few weeks xD
naku was a good girl and posted most of her pics almost immediately. she got some really good ones too, ones i never knew she'd taken. xD my fave is moose pretending to lick james' face, followed by me pretending to lick moose. classic cary humor there.
anyhow, after a few days of procrastination and miscommunication, i present to you, the ren faire!
these made us think of mom
this lady had the awesomest wings, turns out she makes them. xD if anyone seriously wants a pair, she sells them here.
beware of barbarians, they're a real grabby bunch these days.
whoo! the duel! there was a short video of this too, but i dunno how to post it here xD
ginormo turtle! those are fully grown rabbits next to it.
check out moose with a battle axe and me with a rapier! it's so pretty..
moose archery sequence! the bullseye hit when the sales guy finally stopped "correcting" her. her arrow was the one with the green and red feathers just to the left of her finger.
and because we promiseed roro we'd take something to represent her, then totally spaced, we looked for cute things to photograph while we were there. this hat seemed cute enough. so i grandly present moose wearing a plushie purple dragon hat. xD
Saturday, May 17, 2008
fun day today
song+ Easy Breezy- Hikaru Utada -Exodus
book+ the Narnia series
scent+ care bears fruit snacks
quest+ posting more often again
upper+ scarborough next weekend
downer+ today went way too fast
attire+ comfy pajama bottoms and a tank top
drink+ nothing currently
so today was really really fun. it started when my alarm went off at 7 so i'd have time to do morning things and be ready to leave at 9:30 for moose's senior recital. that didn't work so well since i fell back asleep, but mom called and re-woke me early enough that i was still ready to go on time. she sang really well, though i still think she could have rocked "on my own" from les mis better than one of her other solo songs. she rocked her duet hardcore though, a lot of people cried. xD not me since i have no soul, but you know, regular people.
after the recital moose and i hurried home to change and find movie times so we could go see prince caspian. speaking as a person who 1) is never 100% satisfied with movie adaptions of books, 2) comprehends the difference between "based on ___ by whomever" and "taken word for word from the original!" and 3) has loved the Chronicles of Narnia since early childhood; i will say the following.. it was a really good movie, but it was seriously flawed, and not as awesome as it could have been.
i knew going in that this one wouldn't be half as accurate to the source material as the first one was, because then you wouldn't have a movie, you'd have several hours of character development, a ton of CG and a 10 minute battle. the book Prince Caspian is easily the weak link in the chain of narnia stories, it's seriously all the character development you need to get out of the way so you can have fun with the next two (which are awesome on an epic scale for any who haven't ever read them). i'm okay with things being changed to make a movie, but some of the changes didn't make sense in the context of the last book/movie the Last Battle which they really need to make because it's when you really get any closure for any of the characters you've come to love. i felt that Lucy and Edmund were exactly where they needed to be character-wise to be ready for the Dawn Treader. the seeds were planted well for Susan's eventual loss of faith and betrayal of narnia, but the two romantic bits were entirely a waste of film. my main frustration was the added Peter/Caspian rivalry over power. High King Peter was never that spoiled or power-hungry. he never acted like he did in the movie, he never took the lives of his followers for granted or invaded the telmarine stronghold. while that was a really cool fight scene that showed off what they could do with the mythical creatures better than a fight on even ground ever could, it just didn't make sense to me. also they left out several chapters of really awesome aslan stuff including bacchus, and dancing with the dryads and nyads. i don't understand cutting all that and putting in a needless White Witch cameo. she shouldn't show up again until caspian is an old man, as the Lady of the Green Kirtle in the Silver Chair. i was however thrilled that they kept my absolute favourite part of the book, the scene with reepicheep and peepiceek and the other mice talking to aslan about the honor in a mouse's tail. that part makes me tear up when i read it and it made me cry a little in the theatre. i guess i was basically fine with plot-related changes, but not the character stuff, which was unfortunately 75% of the changes. X.x it was still really good and i'm definitely looking forward to the next one, and i'd recommend it to anyone looking for a good movie, i just hope that Dawn Treader is a bit more respectful of the source material.
anyway, after the movie the moose and i totally hit bennigans for potato skins, monte cristos and brownie sundaes. xD most of which was brought home and put in the fridge. it's kinda strange, but as of last weekend i don't like potatoes anymore. it kinda freaks me out, since i used to love potatoes, but something in me just changed while i was sick. it's seriously bizarre. after putting our feast in the fridge we settled in to nap until moose had to go to work. all in all, i had a really good day and i was happy to spend it with one of my favourite people.
speaking of spending time with people, i did get the second week of june off from work. that's the 9th through the 13th. if anyone wants to do anything on one of those days, let me know. moose and i are thinking of doing something early in the week, but i'm keeing things relatively open, so we'll see what happens.
book+ the Narnia series
scent+ care bears fruit snacks
quest+ posting more often again
upper+ scarborough next weekend
downer+ today went way too fast
attire+ comfy pajama bottoms and a tank top
drink+ nothing currently
so today was really really fun. it started when my alarm went off at 7 so i'd have time to do morning things and be ready to leave at 9:30 for moose's senior recital. that didn't work so well since i fell back asleep, but mom called and re-woke me early enough that i was still ready to go on time. she sang really well, though i still think she could have rocked "on my own" from les mis better than one of her other solo songs. she rocked her duet hardcore though, a lot of people cried. xD not me since i have no soul, but you know, regular people.
after the recital moose and i hurried home to change and find movie times so we could go see prince caspian. speaking as a person who 1) is never 100% satisfied with movie adaptions of books, 2) comprehends the difference between "based on ___ by whomever" and "taken word for word from the original!" and 3) has loved the Chronicles of Narnia since early childhood; i will say the following.. it was a really good movie, but it was seriously flawed, and not as awesome as it could have been.
i knew going in that this one wouldn't be half as accurate to the source material as the first one was, because then you wouldn't have a movie, you'd have several hours of character development, a ton of CG and a 10 minute battle. the book Prince Caspian is easily the weak link in the chain of narnia stories, it's seriously all the character development you need to get out of the way so you can have fun with the next two (which are awesome on an epic scale for any who haven't ever read them). i'm okay with things being changed to make a movie, but some of the changes didn't make sense in the context of the last book/movie the Last Battle which they really need to make because it's when you really get any closure for any of the characters you've come to love. i felt that Lucy and Edmund were exactly where they needed to be character-wise to be ready for the Dawn Treader. the seeds were planted well for Susan's eventual loss of faith and betrayal of narnia, but the two romantic bits were entirely a waste of film. my main frustration was the added Peter/Caspian rivalry over power. High King Peter was never that spoiled or power-hungry. he never acted like he did in the movie, he never took the lives of his followers for granted or invaded the telmarine stronghold. while that was a really cool fight scene that showed off what they could do with the mythical creatures better than a fight on even ground ever could, it just didn't make sense to me. also they left out several chapters of really awesome aslan stuff including bacchus, and dancing with the dryads and nyads. i don't understand cutting all that and putting in a needless White Witch cameo. she shouldn't show up again until caspian is an old man, as the Lady of the Green Kirtle in the Silver Chair. i was however thrilled that they kept my absolute favourite part of the book, the scene with reepicheep and peepiceek and the other mice talking to aslan about the honor in a mouse's tail. that part makes me tear up when i read it and it made me cry a little in the theatre. i guess i was basically fine with plot-related changes, but not the character stuff, which was unfortunately 75% of the changes. X.x it was still really good and i'm definitely looking forward to the next one, and i'd recommend it to anyone looking for a good movie, i just hope that Dawn Treader is a bit more respectful of the source material.
anyway, after the movie the moose and i totally hit bennigans for potato skins, monte cristos and brownie sundaes. xD most of which was brought home and put in the fridge. it's kinda strange, but as of last weekend i don't like potatoes anymore. it kinda freaks me out, since i used to love potatoes, but something in me just changed while i was sick. it's seriously bizarre. after putting our feast in the fridge we settled in to nap until moose had to go to work. all in all, i had a really good day and i was happy to spend it with one of my favourite people.
speaking of spending time with people, i did get the second week of june off from work. that's the 9th through the 13th. if anyone wants to do anything on one of those days, let me know. moose and i are thinking of doing something early in the week, but i'm keeing things relatively open, so we'll see what happens.
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