rambly thoughts

song+ Rusty Halo- the Script
book+ Witness- Nora Roberts
quest+ cleaning up my room so i can walk from one end to the other
upper+ i've been in a doing-things mood
downer+ finishing anything is still hit and miss with the worse than usual attention span
attire+ starry pajama pants and a navy tank
drink+ water

i feel frustrated and anxious in an itchy kinda way. like there's something that i really wanna be doing, but i can't figure out what it is? i dunno.

i'm thinking about taking time this week to go through my room and decide on things i could get rid of without feeling regret. maybe finally putting most of my clothes in my closet, which is honestly mostly being used for storage purposes presently. i wanna go through all my stuff and find wardrobe bits that have been forgotten or lost, i wanna organize and re-purpose what i can and actually wear the rest. i tend to wear the same few things over and over because they're all i can ever find, but i know i own way more, so i wanna find it all and integrate it to the stuff i wear. i know i own a TON of tee shirts, some of which can't be worn anymore, so i wanna look into craft projects to utilize the ones with designs i still love so i can look at them still. maybe i'll end up with a bunch of nerdy throw pillows, who knows?

i spent a few hours this morning looking at sewing tutorials for patternless skirts and the like, and i'd go for some of them, but i only know where my doll sewing fabric is. anything i'd bought for people-scaled projects was put somewhere else at some point and i still haven't found it. like i bought a really cool black and red textured cloth to sew a coat for myself, and never got around to doing anything with it. it's too heavy for doll sewing, and i know i still own it SOMEWHERE but i have no idea where it ended up. i still wanna make a coat out of it at some point, one with bright red buttons and lining i think. i like red as a winter color, it adds visual warmth. i can see it though: black and red half-trench coat with bright red buttons and a fluffy white scarf to offset the dark. i'll get to it eventually.

i have patterns i bought for various things where i bought the fabric at the same time and got distracted before i ever used it, and i know where my patterns are, but the fabric is all in hiding somewhere. when i find it though, you can bet my wardrobe will finally get those intended boosts. mostly skirts and dresses, but i like those, so it makes sense.

i guess at this point my plan isn't to look for that stuff, it's to clear out enough that i can (hopefully) rotate my bed and move my comics-bookcase so there's room to walk to my closet so i can actually use it. right now stuff blocks me from opening the door to it properly. organization wasn't really a priority when Kyu and i were moving our stuff into separate rooms, but now i'd like to do more than just sleep in my room. i'm in the process of moving my painting stuff down to the living room, and stashing my sewing things in the hall closet near the chest of drawers i keep my doll sewing fabrics organized in. when it's not plugged in my sewing machine lives in that closet already, so shifting the rest there makes sense. once that's out of my room i'll (i think) be able to shift things for better layout and i can get to the closets to go through them and see what i even have hiding away from me.

it's not something i expect to get done in a day. even aiming for the end of this week is pretty optimistic, because seriously me attention span's been terrible lately. it honestly took me close to two hours to draft this because i kept getting sidetracked. ugh. i'm trying though, that's what counts.