it's too late to apologize

song+ Apologize -One Republic -Dreaming Out Loud
book+ nothing presently
quest+ finishing Suzy and Wolfie's move
upper+ stuff? probably?
downer+ yesterday made me WISH i could get blackout drunk
attire+ pajamas (for now)
drink+ water

ugh. yesterday was awful. my help has been offered for the last TWO WEEKS to prep for this move, so naturally it was accepted for a few hours Wednesday morning, then again Friday night (when the packing finally started) and all day yesterday. i had to convince them to start in the morning yesterday too. in a day and i half i solo-packed-and-cleaned a hoarder's kitchen. the only help i got was when Jeremy took the last two multi-bag loads of trash to the dumpster. that's the last two loads of SEVEN. Kyu was busy trying to get the new place fit for human residence as the prior tenant said "it's a little messy" and meant something closer to "i lost an apocalyptic war with roaches, good luck". my everything hurts, my knees and feet are still swollen today and my allergies are going NUTS from all the dog hair and pee that got kicked into the air. i wish we were done, but the kitchen, Jeremy's room, and one closet of Suzy's are all that actually got packed. additional "help" showed up around 5: two couples and their 4 kids, who brought a trailer and did little else. a neighbor with a truck was similarly helpful, and a lot less offensively racist. i made it home around 11 last night and was so tired i had trouble sleeping. we pick back up today, but i don't know when.

i know odds are basically nil i'll get to head up and play anything today, because Kyu and i did 85% of this move easy, and it still needs doing. we're both feeling pretty solidly at this point though that we'll never help them move again. in the last 15 years i've helped with multiple moves for them. they're ALWAYS under-prepared with last minute scrambling, hand-wringing, and "oh i just don't know how this happened, where did the time go?" excuses. this one was easily the worst. Kyu and i signed on for another year here in this apartment, but if we hadn't, we could be ready to move in a month. it'd be about a week of packing and a few days of cleaning and we'd be fine. this disaster with his parents is making both of us consider again what we'd be fine getting rid of, making our move even easier when it happens next year.

because i know they're both terrible at mornings, realistically i have two hours to put my feet up and do something mindless. i'm absolutely gonna do that, so i don't stab someone later.