State of the Neko address: week 97

song+ Light Up the World- Glee
book+ no time to read for now
quest+ cleaning and packing
upper+ umm new year, new start?
downer+ health issues
attire+ pajamas
drink+ milk

my resolution to post Monday this week clearly didn't happen. between Kyu's kidney stones, Christmas, Moose's birthday breakfast and more dealing with the kidney stones there was enough stress building that i found myself sick as a dog Wednesday and Thursday. i'm feeling considerably better today though, so i'm trying to get back to something at least vaguely resembling productivity.

it's very nearly next year already, and naturally this has made me reflect on what 2011 was for me, and sadly the overall impression it leaves me with is disappointment for multiple reasons. i'm determined that 2012 will be better. i started this year thinking i'd turn things around and be brilliant at everything, making the whole world awesome in the process, then after a very short time and a series of freakouts i realized that not only would that not happen for me, the steps i was taking were really just wasting time i should have been using to do more productive things. halfway through the year i realized i was slipping further into a depression so deep i was having trouble motivating myself to do basic things like eat or shower. toward the end of the year efforts to break that perpetual slide brought about an almost frenzied drive to create artistic things, and while that helped a little, it burned through my supplies pretty quickly. what did finally stop that slide was as out of my control as the depression itself, and while i do feel substantially brighter now, i'm still not happy, and i'm out of canvas and a few other artistic things i burned through.

my focus now is continuing the project i keep putting aside: cleaning the apartment, sorting through then getting rid of or packing the things i find. our lease is up in about three months and we want to live somewhere we don't hate. honestly we're probably closer to loathing at this point, and i'm being entirely realistic when i say that even with three months to get ready to move we may cut it close, just based on the sheer volume of stuff we own. we own less now than we did a month ago, but it's slow going and i still have tons to go through.

so in closing something completely unrelated to anything else. for Christmas Kyu got me Zelda Skyward Sword. turns out i can't play it since i'm without the "motion plus" add-on for either of my controllers. xD we're gonna see if we can get one this weekend, but yeah. the one present i really wanted, and i can't play it.