Sunday Sunday

song+ Stay Stay Stay -Taylor Swift -Red
book+ fanfic really *shrug*
quest+ finding coherent thought
upper+ i think i have all a need for a FaithAnn size Dratini?
downer+ my brain has gone all "woobly-doo! pbbbth!" with flaily kermit arms and all
attire+ pajamas
drink+ orange soda

i woke up today to a text telling me dad stayed for ward choir practice today, so if i caught a ride to church with a friend next week it'd be a good way to see him. i'm considering it. xD i don't really miss church, but now amd then i miss the community feeling.

it's been hard to form thoughts into words i can share with other people lately. i know this happens a lot, so i mention it a lot, but it's worse than normal this time. i'm even managing to offend Kyu and he usually knows what i'm TRYING to say.

i still can't figure out what i should be DOING right now, but i've had Pokemon on the brain again, so i may see about using the material i have on-hand to do plushes of some i really like in scale for FaithAnn or Rosalie (depending on available fabric, i guess). like i know i have silk scraps in various shades of blue and one creme, so i'm pretty sure i could pull off a decent Dratini, or maybe even Dragonair, possibly both. either way, a one/three foot long serpentine dragon plush is easier to manage than a five/fifteen foot long one.

i've been pondering dolly Poke-plushes for ages now though, so just because i'm thinking about it again doesn't mean it's likely to happen soon. *shrug* i may just try playing one of them again. it's been a long time since i tried at Ruby, Sapphire, or Emerald. i still hold out hope for a current-gen remake honestly, though it's not really very likely.

i've also been thinking about experimenting with the watercolor paints Kyu bought me a while back because i said i was interested in learning how to use something other than straight acrylic for everything. i have a basic understanding, but no firsthand experience or technical know-how. i spend a lot of the time i devote to creative efforts trying not to be so controlling. some of my best stuff has happened when i let loose and let things change, but letting go at all is really hard for me, because i already feel so out of control of pretty much everything else in my life. even my most abstract work has a weight of precision to it, a painting style that's partly based on just letting the water carry the color where it will is honestly pretty freaking intimidating.