a midweek post? what heresy is this?

song+
book+ the Dice Masters rulebook?
quest+ organizing my craft supplies
upper+ finished another project
downer+ lack of funds to start the next ones
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

this won't be much of a post, just sharing (fuzzy cell phone) photos of the custom MLP: EG-style Pinkie Pie i made from a Draculaura for a neighbor. i worked on her over the Christmas weekend, and did a few paint touch ups before delivering her today. she went over very well, and since i had fun working on her, i'd say a positive experience all around. i learned a few more things to make future projects easier and better overall too.

the last two have different lighting and were taken after fixing the paint chips in her left eye. the cutie mark is a little far back, but not so much it's completely invisible. if i do another EG-style doll i'll know better.

these words are knives enough to leave scars (the fear of falling apart)

song+ This Is Gospel -Panic! At the Disco -Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die
book+ nothing?
quest+ nothing presently
upper+ buh?
downer+ manic brain
attire+ pajamas
drink+ strawberry soda

yet another pre-drafted post this week. so i did take pictures of Muffin's gift, but they turned out crap, so i asked her to take a few for me, and she did, because she's awesome. she likes it and i'm glad. it feels good when someone appreciates the effort you go to to make them happy.



kyu liked his gift too, and since it's still here at home it was easier to take photos of it.



now i'm working on a custom for a neighbor. i mentioned that i'd done a custom MH doll this Christmas, she said that her little girl loves MH and MLP, but the version where they're humans in a high school. i said i had a workable body for her favorite pony/girl, but lacked the yarn for the right hair. i offered to do the doll for free if she bought the yarn for the re-root, so i'm doing a conversion now; Draculaura is being turned into Equestria Girls Pinkie Pie. i pulled together the outfit and painted the shoes and her new face on Thursday afternoon. the yarn and head went with me to mom's so i could work on the re-root in my downtime this weekend.

i can't go any further than this

song+ Meet Me Halfway -Black Eyed Peas -the END
book+ nothing?
quest+ nothing presently
upper+ i finished my Christmas projects!
downer+ it's a little cold
attire+ leggings, denim skirt and a Wonder Woman tee
drink+ water

i'll be heading up to the comic shop soon, not to work on anything, but to show off completed Christmas gift-crafts before i have to wrap them for delivery. i'll also take the time to get decent photos of them for a post here and a thread in the customizing sub-forum of the MH group i'm part of.

both projects (one plush for Kyu, one doll for Muffin) turned out really well and i'm super proud of them, so i'm excited to post pictures when there's no longer risk of the gifts being spoiled pre-gifting. since pre-Christmas with Muffin is tonight, next weekend's post should be safe for photos. whoo!

there's that up-turned chin (and the grin of impetuous youth)

song+ I Believe In You -How to Succeed In Business Without Really Trying
book+ nothing?
quest+ finishing Christmas gifts
upper+ my thumb us nearly normal!
downer+ lingering grip troubles
attire+ pajamas
drink+ water

today's post was pre-drafted because mom's internet has been spotty the last month or so, and pre-drafting guarantees a Sunday post. i'm at mom's through Monday this weekend, so i can't just wait until i'm home and put it up then.

the rooting on Muffin's present got done late Thursday night and into stupid-early Friday morning, but it's done and glued and when i'm home again Monday the glue should be set enough to style the hair. in spite of the head breaking two needles, the re-root went pretty smoothly, considering it was my first in actual doll hair instead of yarn. all that's left for next week is the hair styling and the painting of her face, then she should be done. this timing will actually barely squeak into on-time since Muffin's out of town this Christmas, so we're doing the gift exchange featuring her early this year.

i'm taking along supplies to work on other Christmas gifts that need doing, and i figure mom has tasks in mind for this weekend, so i shouldn't be bored much, if at all. my big issue is still managing to get a decent amount of sleep. we'll see how that works out though.

tap on my window, knock on my door (wanna make you feel beautiful)

song+ She Will Be Loved -Maroon5 -Songs About Jane
book+ nothing?
quest+ finishing Muffin's gift
upper+ my thumb is feeling much better
downer+ rabid insomnia
attire+ leggings, a denim skirt, and a Flash Hoodie
drink+ Dr Pepper

so my thumb still isn't healed yet, but the swelling is much less intense, and i can nearly bend it normally again. i've reached the point i can gently stretch it before i re-tape it, which i definitely couldn't do this time last week.

the last few days i've been unable to sleep at all, which has sucked, but it's something i'm (sadly) used to so i've coped okay. i'm hoping to pass out soon since i've been up nearly two days at this point, but i wanted to get a post up before trying for that.

7 day Q&A: day7

61. How do you drink your coffee or tea?
i don't. i do drink cocoa though, in many different varieties, most of which could be classified as "a sugar coma in a cup," which was Kyu's verdict on one variety in high school. pumpkin, mint, vanilla, or overloaded with marshmallows, i love them all.
62. What makes you smile every time?
puns, i love terrible jokes. certain game franchises, like Zelda, Dragon Quest, and most Mario games. desserts, Italian food.
63. Do you like people coming up to you for help?
sometimes? it depends on my comfort level with the person. i like having my expertise appreciated, but i won't be taken advantage of or used.
64. Are you comfortable talking about sex?
yes. it's never been an awkward subject for me. whether in regard to myself or someone else, i'm aware that it's a thing that happens and different people like it different ways, like so many other things in life.
65. Are you open to new things?
yes, but cautiously. between my anxiety and my allergies i've learned caution can prevent lost time and money. i obsess easily, so i pretty much always over-research before i undertake anything new.
66. Post four selfies (or pictures) that you originally took to your friends.
i don't do selfies, my rampant narcissism dislikes being confronted by reality. i do idealized self portraits?

67. Are there any movie scenes that make you cry every time?
no, very little makes me cry, i'm that soulless monster that's always dry-eyed at movies.
68. Do you have friends you consider as family?
yes. that's the only kind of friend i manage, the kind that are family by choice.
69. Are you a morning person?
ha! no. i'm a night owl. mornings are a terror that should only happen to other people.
70. Heavy or light sleeper?
both. when i'm depressed i sleep like the dead. when i'm manic i have trouble sleeping at all and a kitten sneeze a block away could wake me.

7 day Q&A: day6

51. Do you believe in angels?
yes, but not the pop culture beauties with bird wings.
52. Explain your url.
it's an old nickname? it was something i figured i'd remember. high school kids poorly translating things into languages they don't speak.
53. Order or chaos?
order. OCD means chaos gets me twitchy.
54. Black or white?
color. as a backdrop to art, white. as a wardrobe staple, black. in any other choice grey, and color wherever possible.
55. Is there a one that got away?
not really? if i'd made different choices and pursued other paths, i wouldn't be me now.
56. Are birds cute or annoying?
annoying. flying things in general freak me out. it's the unpredictability factor.
57. Does the other sex make you nervous?
no more than my own does. people in general make me nervous, and being bi, attraction can happen with anyone, causing additional nerves.
58. Past, present or future?
present. i can't change the past and the future often leaves me panicky.
59. Do you care about the big picture or your close territory?
i tend to focus on details hoping that gets me to the bigger picture in time.
60. Cute or sexy?
this is a vague question. overall i'm more excited by cute things, sexy can be so subjective that it's sometimes more off-putting.

7 day Q&A: day5

41. Is small talk easy for you?
no. if i'm comfortable enough to really talk with someone, it's likely to be about things that matter,
42. Do you get along with classmates?
i haven't been in school for a long time, but i did well enough then. like we weren't super close, but things were generally cordial.
43. Best beauty tips?
do what makes you happy? if you feel uncomfortable, you don't usually look very good.
44. What ordinary things make you happy on a daily basis?
milk. puns, cute clothes, seeing things i've made or customized.
45. Are you creative?
i like to think so. i've been called as much by plenty, and i love doing crafty things, so yeah?
46. Name three things you look for in a partner.
..i don't really? i haven't dated much, but there was very little overlap among those people. and that overlap was mostly coincidence and not things i really care about?
47. Skirts or jeans?
skirts. i've never really been a fan of pants.
48. Do you fancy rompers?
not for myself no. i think they're cute on kids, and on some dolls and tiny skinny people.
49. Define your style in a few words: clothing style, talking style, dream house.
eclectic, colorful. i like a little of almost every style, so to some people my likes are just a huge mess.
50. Does practice make it perfect?
no, perfection is unattainable, but practice means improvement.

7 day Q&A: day4

31. Believe in love at first sight?
yes, but not the fairy-tale kind. that takes additional effort.
32. Link a song that you liked five years ago.
ah.. (Give A Little) i think this song was out then? if not i'm not too far off.
33. Link a song that you liked ten years ago.
this is hard. (Two Hearts) i'm really not good with time. i may be thinking of an album from a different year entirely.
34. Have you changed a lot in the last two years?
i hope so? i've been working hard to improve myself.
35. Favorite fruit?
probably strawberry, though i'm also fond of pineapple and kiwi.
36. Do you say things just because people want to hear them?
no, i'm probably more honest than most people would prefer.
37. Do your friends get you?
as much as they can. they all try, and that matters more to me, that they care enough to try.
38. What are you the most proud of?
um, like ever? or currently? i'm currently pleased with my progress on Muffin's Christmas gift. ever, i'm proud of how well i've kept developing my artistic skills.
39. What disney character do you emotionally relate to?
Belle? wanting more, loving books, feeling trapped by tedium.
40. Who is your favorite hero/ine?
Wonder Woman. so many awesome stories to choose from.

7 day Q&A: day3

21. No sleeping or no eating for a week? (don’t worry you would stay alive, you’d just suffer. so basically: staying hungry or tired?)
no sleeping. thanks to mania i know i handle it okay, but not eating makes me grumpy.
22. Do you think you’re better than your peers?
at some things, yes. at others i feel like a complete failure, so it probably levels out to feeling average?
23. Do you feel comfortable at social gatherings?
oh hell no. i do my best, but there's inevitably awkwardness at some point, even just around people i know and love.
24. Are you hard to impress?
kinda, yeah. i know some very impressive people, and that sets the bar pretty high for new encounters.
25. What is the most physically appealing thing in the sex you're attracted to?
i'm a sucker for defined calf muscles. also dark-haired, scruffy-faced, blue-eyed guys, which i never realized was my type until i analyzed my TV crushes.
26. What is the most mentally appealing thing in the sex you're attracted to?
for either gender i like knowing my opinion will be respected. both sexes are capable of steamrolling their partners and trivializing concerns. that's not cool.
27. What do you think about one night stands?
i don't judge if someone prefers to operate that way, but it's not for me. i'd need a level of trust that can't be built in one day.
28. What position do you sleep in?
i don't. i roll over constantly. i described it to mom as "sleeping like a rotisserie chicken" which is pretty accurate.
29. Are you a dreamer? Are you motivated enough to achieve your goals?
yes, and no. failure is my most enduring fear. fear of failing has often made it difficult to act at all. when i do manage something it feels good, but it's always harder than can be seen.
30. What is the weirdest thing in your room?
ah.. probably the shoe box full of decapitated fashion dolls. (it's more fun if i don't explain, i think.)

7 day Q&A: day2

11. If you could change just one thing about the world what would it be?
i'd eliminate the stigma associated with mental health issues.
12. What is the most noticeable feature in your looks in your opinion?
probably my boobs. i'd love to say something else, but honestly they're pretty noticeable. currently my hair's pretty notable too, i guess.
13. Do you fear death?
no. struggling with depression throughout puberty means i thought it through pretty thoroughly. not afraid of it. in no hurry to get there, but unafraid.
14. Do you fear life?
more than i fear death. it's more i fear failing to make it mean anything.
15. What calms your nerves?
music, sleep, a loving hug and a bag of gummy candy, complete solitude. it depends on the stress source really.
16. Is there someone who gives a crap?
yes, more than one person.
17. Are you romantic?
sometimes? in theory i enjoy romance, in reality it frequently feels forced. there are romantic things i like, but as a whole, i guess i'm not traditionally romantic.
18. Stars or the sun?
stars. i love the stars, and i've always been a night person.
19. Rain for 90 days or drought for 90 days?
rain. love the rain. i sleep better during summer storm season than any other time of year.
20. What season do you enjoy most? What month?
i tend to like whatever i'm in, but i guess fall? not too hot or cold, plus PUMPKIN EVERYTHING and my favorite holiday. October specifically, my birthday and Halloween.