State of the Neko address: week 46

song+ Rock God- Selena Gomez & the Scene- A Year Without Rain
book+ FF3 guide
quest+ getting more dolls sold soonish
upper+ been working on personal projects during the holiday period
downer+ have to get back to work on business stuff now
attire+ pajamas
drink+ milk

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1.) i have about as many allergies as i do phobias, none of which are the types of things you'd expect. i'm allergic to wool, but NOT poison ivy. i'm afraid of grass, but not needles/knives/swords- i'm fine with them. the exception being that i'm fine with needles for injection/application, but not extraction. that's less fear than involuntary sickness though.
2.) i'm a little dyslexic with numbers. i'm not bad at math, but i hate doing it since i'm pretty much always having to double-check and make sure the digits are in the right place. to me 29 and 92 look about the same, so i have to try harder to do the same amount of number-crunching as someone normal.
3.) i think in colors and shapes. words are easy to me, and i can sometimes tell what someone's saying if i don't speak their language, but i think in planes and angles. corners and tangents and color are my native language. i understand what makes something before i understand how to replicate it.
4.) my design process is frequently abstract. i have an idea for a theme and think of what it makes me feel, then what that feeling makes me see. i described it to kyu almost as a handful of d20 being rolled and then i see if the result makes sense. if not, i re-roll and keep my thoughts tumbling until it clicks. to non-nerds i suppose comparing it to a slot machine would work about the same. xD
5.) i have a passion for myth. fairy tales, religious myth, and fantasy all have the same underlying structure to their worlds. it feels brilliant and right to me and i've always loved them.
6.) i'm not particularly religious in spite of that. i have a belief structure, but since it doesn't align with any traditional one, i prefer not to explain it to anyone. the biggest misunderstanding is that since i no longer identify myself a particular way people assume i think it's all wrong. just because it's not my truth doesn't mean it's not true for other people. i fully believe that a person's truth is dependent on the shape of their soul.
7.) i believe in supernatural phenomena. not ALL of it, but a lot of tales have recurring themes in cultures all over the world throughout history, so it makes sense that there's a degree of truth to it. i've seen things that can't be explained by modern science, so i believe.
8.) i'm a scorpio. i believe that says a good deal about who i am as a person. not that it defines me, but that it provides a template for getting to know me. i believe in astrology. xD
9.) i don't believe that monogamy is natural. not that it's impossible, it's entirely attainable and respectable, but i think it's unnatural so far as instinct goes. people assume that my saying this is justification of a desire to stray and it's not i have no desire for an alternative partner. i think a person can't help who they feel attracted to, and nature has people being drawn to multiple options for survival of the species, but resisting that is entirely possible. a person can ignore or resist urges when already committed and that's what they should do. honesty is the key, i won't deny attraction to people other than the one i'm committed to, but i have never cheated and fully believe i never will.